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Emily’s Cytogenetically Normal Acute Myeloid Leukemia (CN-AML) Story

Emily’s Cytogenetically Normal Acute Myeloid Leukemia (CN-AML) Story with NPM1 & FLT3 Wild-Type Mutations

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

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Emily shares her journey of being diagnosed with cytogenetically normal acute myeloid leukemia (CN-AML) with NPM1 & FLT3 wild-type mutations at the age of 32.

She shares the challenges she faced during the diagnostic process while she was in a foreign country. She delves into the experiences of undergoing intensive chemotherapy, facing side effects, and eventually receiving a bone marrow transplant.

She discusses the difficulties in finding a suitable bone marrow donor, the emotional and physical toll of the transplant process, and the ongoing challenges post-transplant, including graft-versus-host disease (GvHD) and early-onset menopause.

Emily emphasizes the importance of self-advocacy, seeking multiple medical opinions, and finding ways to cope with the physical and emotional aspects of cancer treatment. She highlights the need for a holistic approach to healing, involving supportive relationships, lifestyle adjustments, and a proactive mindset. She also reflects on empowerment and resilience, emphasizing the individual’s role in navigating the complexities of cancer survivorship.

In addition to Emily’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of AML stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Emily T.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Cytogenetically Normal Acute Myeloid Leukemia (CN-AML)
  • Mutations:
    • NPM1
    • FLT3 wild-type
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Nosebleeds
    • Fever
    • Chills
    • Small red spots all over the body
  • Treatment:
    • Chemotherapy
    • Bone marrow transplant
Emily T. timeline

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I was 32 when cancer happened. For most of my life, I’ve always been known as a fitness freak. I can’t even think of one hobby that doesn’t involve any sort of movement.

I’ve been in the health and fitness industry for almost 19 years, primarily coaching people in personal training and fitness, and, more interestingly, in pole dancing and aerial arts.

I was born in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, and moved to Tennessee at a young age. Since then, I have moved back to Asia and lived in Hong Kong, Dubai, and India. All of these places have taught me that it’s so easy to move to the next spot to see what’s next and say yes to everything because that’s life. You don’t say no to everything. You want to experience as much as you can.

There’s always a bit of a “too much” situation with most things and that eventually leads to burnout. At one point, I was living out of my suitcase for about two years for work and personal pursuits, wanting to say yes to every single project that came.

Now I live in a very quiet little town of Alicante, a bustling city in Spain.

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I haven’t been able to eat proper food in three to four days. I only had soup and even then, I couldn’t keep it down.

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Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

About three months before I planned to move to Spain for the first time, I started experiencing nosebleeds. I’ve always had nosebleeds throughout childhood but only when the temperature changes. I thought and was told that was normal. But this time, I had nosebleeds at the most random times, like in the middle of a squat or the minute I woke up.

Those were disturbing, but I chalked it up to traveling so much for work and not sleeping well. Typically in the past, when I didn’t sleep well, I tended to have jaw pain that would travel up the neck, which also included ringing in the ears. It becomes very hard to focus.

A few weeks before the diagnosis, I traveled for work from Australia to Hong Kong to pick up my stuff, to Dubai to pick up the rest of my stuff, and then eventually to Madrid, and then to Alicante. By the time I arrived in Alicante, I’d been on my third day of fever, which I thought was the travel and jetlag.

When I went to work the next day, I was told, “Hey, nice to see you! Are you okay?” People worried. “You don’t look as vibrant as you usually do. Are you okay?” My boss specifically said, “You don’t look okay. Are you sure you’re okay?” I brushed it off and said, “Nah, I’m good. Don’t worry. If I need to go to the hospital, I’ll let you know.”

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The night before I went to the hospital, I noticed red dots all over my body, especially around my legs.

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That night itself, I had an inclination that maybe something wasn’t okay. I haven’t been able to eat proper food in three to four days. I only had soup and even then, I couldn’t keep it down.

I was constantly shivering. I was shivering the whole way on the plane and the train ride. I was popping Advil almost every two hours. I noticed that every single time that I took Advil, it was becoming less and less effective. At the time, I didn’t know that I wasn’t supposed to be taking ibuprofen since it affects your blood count.

The night before I went to the hospital, I noticed red dots all over my body, especially around my legs. They weren’t itchy, but it looked like someone used a red pen and drew dots all over my body.

I went to a local clinic the next day and told the doctor my symptoms, but she didn’t say much. She gave me paracetamol in an IV and told me to go to the main hospital in the middle of the city. I didn’t think much of it because I thought that was protocol for a foreigner in Spain.

When I got to the main hospital, they immediately brought me a wheelchair and said I had to go to the emergency room. When I got there, no one told me anything. They kept jabbing me for test after test after test.

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The team at the hospital in Alicante believed that I had leukemia.

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Diagnosis

Getting the Official Diagnosis

I was in the ER with not much news. One doctor tried to explain in Spanish that they don’t typically do this because they were waiting for one of the blood results from a leukemia specialist hospital in Valencia. They’re waiting for that final confirmation. The team at the hospital in Alicante believed that I had leukemia.

The official diagnosis was cytogenetically normal AML (CN-AML) with NPM1 and FLT3 wild-type mutations. This essentially puts me at intermediate risk. It’s not low-risk where you can get away with less-intensive chemo, but it’s not high-risk where a bone marrow transplant might be mandated almost immediately.

With intermediate risk, it gave me a little more time to understand what a bone marrow transplant was and how to go about it because I didn’t know anything about bone marrow transplants.

It also gave me time to do consolidation rounds with ample rest time in between. In total, I had five rounds of chemotherapy before the bone marrow transplant and each of them was intensive and each of them was done inpatient.

They didn’t give me a stage. I asked the doctors in Spain and Hong Kong. When I was in Hong Kong, I repeatedly asked the doctor, “Can you tell me more about what all this means and tell me the stage?” He’s a leukemia specialist as well as specializing in AML.

He said, “Right now, we don’t have the test for your specific biomarkers to give you a specific stage,” and that was in 2018. I don’t know if there is new testing available now that could give someone with intermediate risk where exactly they are in stages. But for me, that information was not available at the time.

Emily T.

Deep down, I knew something was very wrong. Even with the language barrier, the way the doctor presented the diagnosis felt sincere and sympathetic.

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Reaction to the Diagnosis

I don’t know how that might have sounded if I hadn’t gotten first-hand information from the doctor himself. My friend had to translate and he didn’t realize what leukemia was at the time he was translating. Hearing the news brought to you in that sense was underwhelming but quite profound.

My brain went into logistical mode. I immediately whipped out my phone to Google, “What’s leukemia and how do you recover from it?” When I found out it was blood cancer, my survival instinct said to shut down Google. Then the next day, I texted people to tell them that I wouldn’t be showing up for whatever commitment I had committed to and that was it.

Processing the Diagnosis

Deep down, I knew something was very wrong. Even with the language barrier, the way the doctor presented the diagnosis felt sincere and sympathetic. I was in the ER the whole day. They didn’t do one test and told me they thought it was leukemia.

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My dad asked, ‘Can we have some time to look for another treatment? Do we need to jump into chemotherapy so quickly?’ The doctor said, ‘She doesn’t have time.’

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Bone Marrow Aspiration

The next big test was bone marrow aspiration. For leukemia and specifically for acute myeloid leukemia, they needed to do a bone marrow aspiration to see how much of it was in my bone marrow. That test tells you how serious the situation is as well.

There are two ways to get your bone marrow out: from the hip and the chest. They chose the chest area where you could see everything. I remember lying down, thinking, Just don’t look. I kept my eyes open for as long as I could and kept it shut the rest of the time. That was probably one of the scariest procedures I had to undergo.

At the time, I didn’t know there was another option. I didn’t know that you could ask for the hip version if you’re not comfortable with the procedure being so close to your vital organs. I don’t even understand why that happens, but I guess it makes sense to always have an alternative just in case the other area is not accessible.

I wish I could have asked for the hip version where I didn’t feel like there was such a compression. Even today, I find myself breathing tightly and that might have been an aftermath and the reflex when you have such a forceful extraction from the chest area.

They gave a local numbing agent, which helped, especially when the first needle went in. It helps you feel less of it. But I do remember feeling a lot of pressure, especially when they started pumping out the marrow. If you dare open your eyes, you will see someone looming over you with a very aggressive type of movement. You’re not going to feel the aggression, but if they have trouble extracting the marrow, there will be some force.

Treatment

Discussing the Treatment Plan

The very next morning, they came in and said, “It’s confirmed. This is what’s going on. Given your condition right now, we have to start chemotherapy right away.” At that time, I was still on painkillers so I don’t remember exactly what I said.

Before I could verbalize anything, my dad jumped in and asked, “Can we have some time to look for another treatment? Do we need to jump into chemotherapy so quickly?” He has a bit of experience with this because his mom went through breast cancer in her 70s. For two years, he saw how it wore her down.

But you have to appreciate how pragmatic Spanish doctors are. I remember this verbatim as well. The doctor said, “She doesn’t have time. She will die,” and that was it. Discussion over.

Emily T.

All things considered, it was good that I had chemotherapy and even better that my body responded to chemotherapy.

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Chemotherapy

I asked him about my prognosis. “What’s the next step after this first round of induction chemotherapy?” Induction chemotherapy is “7 + 3,” which is the one I was given. You’re on two different types of chemo. One is on a drip for seven days 24/7 and the other drug is on a drip for three days 24/7 and that’s your induction round. What they hope to do with this round is to induce you into remission, but it’s not considered complete remission from the disease. It has to be above a certain marker to qualify for the next round of chemotherapy.

They gave me three rounds because of the conditions that they said, “Considering your age and that you’re in a healthy weight range, we believe that you have a high chance of recovering from these intensive chemotherapies.” Hence why I was inpatient because they increased the dose on everything so I think the prognosis was positive.

It would have been a different story if my dad had argued and said, “Nope, I don’t believe in chemotherapy. Let’s go with another form of treatment.” I also developed pneumonia while I was in the hospital for the first round.

All things considered, it was good that I had chemotherapy and even better that my body responded to chemotherapy.

The induction chemotherapy included cytarabine. It was one of the drugs that was consistent in the induction round, the consolidation round, and the last round in preparation for transplant.

Cyclophosphamide was the one that was introduced right before the transplant. That was one of the more toxic ones but also one of the stronger ones.

There was also daunorubicin hydrochloride.

Side Effects of Chemotherapy

My side effects varied. During the first round of treatment, the induction chemo, I thought that was going to be as bad as it goes. There was nausea, but what was more prominent was gut pain. I couldn’t eat. I was put on an IV drip for seven days because I couldn’t eat literally and they had to give me nutrients.

Emily T.

I had skin reactions and somehow, I developed an allergic reaction to platelet transfusion

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My bowel movement was very uncontrolled for about 20 days. It wasn’t until two days before leaving the hospital that I felt the side effects were finally under control.

I was in the hospital for three weeks for that first round of chemotherapy. I lost my hair. I had a lot of fever as well. Every time the fever happened, it was also accompanied by bad coughing, which explained the pneumonia.

I was given morphine for the gut pain because it was so painful that I couldn’t even function. Even when I had people visiting me, it was hard to talk. I was also given fever medication, antifungal medication, and antiviral medication. They did one scan to see how things were going in terms of the gut because it was so painful.

Throughout the consolidation rounds, the side effects weren’t as bad. My platelets dropped. I had fevers, but they weren’t as intense.

The worst side effects I had were skin-related. I had skin reactions and somehow, I developed an allergic reaction to platelet transfusion, which is ironic because that’s something I needed throughout my treatment. To counter that, they had to give me an antihistamine right before a platelet transfusion to mitigate that reaction.

Managing the Side Effects

The chemo before the bone marrow transplant was the most intense. That was when I started to second-guess myself. But during the first round of chemotherapy, what helped me was a sense of acceptance: to sit there and trust that my family and my friends have my best interests at heart, in how they communicate with the doctors, with the medical team, and also asking questions on my behalf.

In the first round, that’s when you’re very dazed, especially when you just heard your diagnosis two days ago before you started chemotherapy. In that situation, open yourself up to someone that you can trust. It was the moment when I felt like I could surrender to whatever higher power there was as well as conventional medicine. That was when I felt my parasympathetic nervous system start to settle a little.

If I’m in fight or flight mode, I don’t think my body biologically would have the ability to handle the side effects. My sense of touch was very strong. My mom was there. She gave me hand and foot massages. She gave hugs. All of those are the type of medicine that people don’t value. I realized how much power we can open ourselves to if we take a step back.

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The chemotherapy before my bone marrow transplant was the hardest. The pain was the most intense. The fevers were relentless.

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The steps that I took throughout the consolidation round were very helpful. I used the hospital grounds as my exercise place. I was taking walks around the nurses’ station. With every step that you take moving forward, you can feel yourself taking ownership and taking an active role in your recovery. Even if it’s five minutes of walking, even if it’s two minutes of walking, it’s something. It’s a physical representation of you taking action for what you can’t control, but you can still try and it still counts.

I leaped into my hobby of martial arts by watching martial arts movies, martial arts tutorials, and TV shows. I don’t have a martial arts background, but I enjoyed Thai boxing and jiu-jitsu as an adult. I can see how it’s not about the physical strength, but the mental agility that you have to exercise when you have to make decisions in the ring or on the mat.

Those don’t apply to everybody, but there are still some things that we can take from them. We can practice resilience in everyday tasks, like when you’re taking pills that you don’t want to take, but you’re taking them because you know that it’s going to help you. In a way, that’s a tiny practice in resilience.

The perspective exercise is to also see every little thing as, “How can I see this differently? By seeing it differently, I can do something differently. By doing something differently, I might get a different result.”

The chemotherapy before my bone marrow transplant was the hardest. The pain was the most intense. The fevers were relentless. I went into anaphylactic shock once during a platelet transfusion, but, luckily, I rang the call bell and everything was sorted.

I had a splitting headache and I got worried that it was a hemorrhage. Luckily, it wasn’t, but it was very important to articulate the sensation of how it occured. I timed it as well in terms of when it happened and how long it usually happened. This is important information to give to our medical team.

That’s what I mean by seeing things differently, being able to see everything that occurs. This is something that I can track. How can I build this case for my doctor to help me the best way they can?

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I didn’t realize how difficult it was to get a donor. It’s complicated in the sense that your heritage matters.

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Moving From Spain to Hong Kong

After the induction chemo in Spain, they gave me the green light to go back to Hong Kong. I told them, “I would love to continue here, but I don’t think the language barrier would serve me any good nor help you guys do a good job,” so I went back to Hong Kong.

I did all my consolidation rounds in Hong Kong as well as the bone marrow transplant. Luckily for me, Hong Kong had one of the most respected and prestigious transplant centers in Asia. It’s like everything was aligned.

I sought additional medical opinions outside of Hong Kong. I asked Australia, Canada, the UK, and Germany. The consensus was, “You are good where you are right now. Hong Kong has a very good system. They have a specialty specifically for bone marrow transplants there. They don’t even share that ward with anything else, specifically just for that. You are in a good place.” That was very comforting to know.

Bone Marrow Transplant

When they said that I needed a bone marrow transplant, I thought that it was going to be simple. I didn’t realize how difficult it was to get a donor. It’s complicated in the sense that your heritage matters.

The conversation of bone marrow donation is only very popular in first-world countries or mainly English-speaking countries so unless you have Caucasian genes, you have lesser chances of finding a bone marrow donor match all around the world.

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I was contacted by Be The Match as well as the Gift of Life Marrow Registry to see how they can help… Because of their reach, you have a higher chance of finding a donor.

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Finding a Bone Marrow Donor

When I took my information to compare with my brothers, none of them were a match. Your siblings have the highest chance of being a match. They opened it up to Hong Kong and no one was a match. It was only when they opened it up internationally that increased my chances of finding a donor.

I was contacted by Be The Match as well as the Gift of Life Marrow Registry to see how they can help. I appreciate that these organizations are in place. Because of their reach, you have a higher chance of finding a donor, perhaps through one of their bone marrow donor drives.

Additionally, being a local in your area will play a big difference. My friends in Malaysia did a bone marrow donor drive at the pole dancing studio. My friends in Hong Kong did a bone marrow donor drive through a deadlifting fundraiser.

When it comes to the bone marrow donor, I didn’t realize that I had to pay a deposit for a search. I thought that was covered and you don’t have to pay for it, but I guess every country is different. At the time, I had to put down about HK$ 60,000 as a deposit to get the search going as well as cover the initial stages of getting a donor.

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Emily T.

Once they have your information, they will put it in their system to see if anyone in their registry is a match. If they find a match, the registry will contact the donor to see if they’re still willing to donate and if they’re able to donate. If they’re pregnant, develop a disease, or age, these factors disqualify them from being able to donate. There are a lot of procedures before they even tell you that you finally have a confirmed donor.

The donor registry in Hong Kong did all of it. They got the news that they found a donor. The donor lives in China. Luckily for me, I was in Hong Kong at the time. China had a rule that they weren’t donating bone marrow anywhere outside of their territories except for Macau and Hong Kong. If I stayed in Spain, I probably wouldn’t have had the chance to receive that donation.

I don’t know if they changed their rules yet, but if they haven’t, that’s what you need to know. If you are of Chinese heritage and you can’t find a donor anywhere else, you need to be in a place where you can receive a donor from one of the biggest Chinese populations in the world.

Everything went well. I received the marrow. I remember specifically it felt like something glittery was coursing through the veins of my body.

Getting the Bone Marrow Transplant

That was probably my longest stay in the isolation ward. To optimize your chances of survival, they do everything in their ability so you don’t get a second disease while you’re in isolation at your most vulnerable.

There was a slight anxiety when I asked the doctor, “When exactly is the donation going to be? When is the marrow going to be extracted? When are they going to be on the way here? How long will they be kept until it’s time to be in my body?”

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He said, “They will extract a few days before you are meant to receive the marrow.” I did the calculation in my head. I would be on day four of very intensive chemo, in which you made me sign a waiver that I might die from the chemo. If the donor changes his mind or something happens on the way, I might not receive the stem cells. The Chinese doctors said, “We try not to think about that. Let’s not talk about that.”

But to be fair, these are very important things to know. I’m the type of patient who the more you tell me, the more calm and collected I can be. When I don’t have the probabilities, my overthinking brain takes over and that’s not good for any recovering patient. In this case, knowledge is powerful.

Everything went well. I received the marrow. I remember specifically it felt like something glittery was coursing through the veins of my body. It wasn’t scary. It felt like a blood transfusion and that’s what it looks like. It goes through your port. It’s not painful.

As a precaution, they injected me with antihistamines and steroids because it’s possible to have an allergic reaction to some degree.

The graft versus host disease (GvHD) signs for me appeared earlier than what’s seen because typically, you only see signs after the two-week mark.

Side Effects of Bone Marrow Transplant

After the transplant itself, it’s expected that you will have side effects. The question is to what degree and how many of those side effects will require hospitalization or not. Most of my acute side effects happened while I was still in the hospital so they were able to counter many things.

I had a massive skin reaction. According to the doctor, the graft versus host disease (GvHD) signs for me appeared earlier than what’s seen because typically, you only see signs after the two-week mark. They saw signs within less than 10 days and it started with my skin then fevers and then mouth pain and headaches.

The skin was probably one of the hardest aspects as well because it was itchy. I had hives everywhere, including my face. It can be hard to look at yourself and even receive visitors during that time. If you’re a caregiver or want to visit someone, it’s not a bad idea to check in and respect that there are times when a patient doesn’t want to see anyone.

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Emily T.

They gave me steroid creams as much as they could, but it was up to me to apply them diligently, especially when the weather was cold or hot. I kept asking for stronger medication, but the doctor said, “I can’t give you anything stronger right now because I’m waiting for the worst side effects to happen before I give you the stronger medication.” They were holding out on me for my good.

The gut pain this time was more intense. I was timing them as well to give the doctor an idea of what the pain was like and how frequently they were happening. Every patient is different. Sometimes we have to remind the doctors of that as well.

One of the common GvHD signs is the lungs are affected in some way. For me, it was the smaller airways at the bottom of my lungs. They’re not functioning anymore. They kind of have a blockage. I’ll be lying down sleeping and then I’ll start coughing all of a sudden because I need to get more air in.

The intensive chemotherapy I endured launched me into early-onset menopause… In my case, it’s chemo-induced and GvHD-related.

The more chronic GvHD signs that I’ve been living with until today are ulcers around the mouth. I had to change the food that I eat in terms of texture so no more potato chips because they’re too crunchy and stab my mouth. No more spicy food. Thankfully, I’m not a girl who loves spice anyway. There are certain seasonings that if they’re acidic, then I might get a nasty reaction as well.

Those are minor lifestyle tweaks. I’m happy to survive. If you talk to my current doctor in the hospital in Valencia, he will say, “Your quality of life is currently being affected. You’re not eating the foods that you like. Your sex life is very likely also affected. You can’t exercise as much as you can because of your lungs.”

But for me, part of the healing journey is also learning how to stop gaslighting myself. When it comes to disease management and having a background in health and fitness, it’s very common to hear people gaslighting themselves. “It’s fine, I can tweak it,” “It’s fine, I can do that,” or, “It might be this, it might not be that.”

One of the glands in my eyes is not functioning as well as it can so it causes very dry eyes. If you don’t manage it through medicated eye drops, regular checkups, and other practices, it can lead to worse eyesight conditions and ocular health.

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Emily T.

Early-Onset Menopause

Part of the GvHD signs also include vaginal dryness, causing the capillaries in the lining of the wall to thin so during intercourse, pain and bleeding can happen. The intensive chemotherapy I endured launched me into early-onset menopause so that also played a big part in vaginal dryness. In my case, it’s chemo-induced and GvHD-related so it’s helpful to understand the options when it comes to hormone replacement therapy and not taking one doctor’s word for it.

Doctors in different regions are exposed to different types of studies and different types of statistics. In Hong Kong, when he found out that I had breast cancer in the family, he said, “Let’s not do hormone replacement therapy. Let’s wait it out. Even though you’re menopause right now, wait it out.”

But in Spain, when I went to a gynecologist, he said, “I would have put you on hormone replacement therapy seven years ago when your period stopped.” I took one doctor’s word for it. It’s always good to have a second or even a third opinion, preferably from different regions.

In the first two years after the transplant, I was not in the mindset for physical intimacy. It had a big impact on my relationship.

Follow-up Protocol

Before the transplant, they did a bone marrow aspiration to see where things were. Right before I was cleared to leave the hospital, they did another bone marrow aspiration to see where things were. But after that, based on my blood work, the doctor didn’t see a need for any more bone marrow aspirations or biopsy. The blood work was a roller coaster, but not to the point where there’s a red flag so that’s a plus.

The other scans that they did were around the lung area. I do a pulmonary function test every six months. That gives the doctor an idea to see if the GvHD is being controlled or advancing.

I’m in my fifth year after the transplant. I’m still here. Regular checkups are not at a fixed interval. It’s whenever the medical system can give me an appointment, which is around every 3 to 6 months.

The first 100 days after the transplant, is when they monitor the closest. I had to go to the hospital once a week then once every two weeks, once every three weeks, once every four weeks, and then it was stretched out from there.

In my case, I still had to go in to get medication intravenously. The doctor said, “You need to live with someone. You can’t live by yourself right now. If you pass out, if anything happens with your port, you need to be able to call for help.” That’s also important to recognize.

Emily T.
Emily T.

Design your home in a way that’s going to be conducive to healing and recovery. That was the first time I started yoga. I have a bit of yoga experience now.

In the first two years after the transplant, I was not in the mindset for physical intimacy. It had a big impact on my relationship. We’re no longer together, but he didn’t stop showing up as a supportive partner so props and kudos to him. He didn’t leave me in that sense.

I had to go through a stage where I had to learn what it meant. I don’t know if it was their training or culture, but whenever I asked questions about our sexual health, I wasn’t given a very open response. It was only in Spain that I had a doctor who initiated that question. “Tell me about your sex life. How are you doing right now? How is your sex? How is your health?” That prompted me to share.

As cancer patients, we have this ideal image of ringing the bell and being cancer-free. That’s our finish line, that’s the glory, but it’s not the case for everyone.

Words of Advice

What I learned in this journey is that you can go to all the specialists, experts, and trainers as much as you want. Go to a therapist, go to a counselor, find a coach, whatever it is. It comes down to you. Extrapolate the feedback that you get and come to your own conclusion on how healing will be for you. It doesn’t come down to a doctor telling you, “You are now cancer-free.”

My doctor said that he could not give me those words because there were no tests that could give me that guarantee. “I can tell you that you’re responding very well, but I can’t tell you that you’re cancer-free.”

Emily T.
Emily T.

Hearing that made me realize that as cancer patients, we have this ideal image of ringing the bell and being cancer-free. That’s our finish line, that’s the glory, but it’s not the case for everyone. It wouldn’t be fair to impose that on everyone.

You can take power back by deciding what you choose to do. If you want to see a therapist, see one. I saw three. If you want to talk to coaches, find one. I have plenty of coaches even until today. It doesn’t make you a weaker person. It doesn’t make you a weaker personality. It actually makes you brave.


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Laura’s IgG kappa Multiple Myeloma Story

Laura’s IgG kappa Multiple Myeloma Story

Interviewed by: Stephanie Chuang
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

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Laura, who was diagnosed with multiple myeloma in her late 60s, reflects on her experiences. As a former lawyer, she shares her journey from the shock of the diagnosis in 2012 to her various treatments, including participation in clinical trials.

She highlights the importance of having a supportive and knowledgeable doctor. She delves into the complexities of different treatments, including CAR T-cell therapy and bispecific antibodies.

Laura also discusses the challenges and adjustments in her life due to the diagnosis, the impact on her husband as a caregiver, and the importance of staying connected with the myeloma community. In this interview, Laura emphasizes the significance of having new treatment options and the support of a reputable medical facility.

In addition to Laura’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of multiple myeloma stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Laura E.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Multiple myeloma, IgG kappa
  • Symptom:
    • Increasing back pain
  • Treatments:
    • VRd (Velcade, Revlimid, Dexamethasone) (August 2012)
    • Zometa (for bones)
    • Stem cell transplant (March 2013)
    • CyBorD (Cytoxan, Velcade, Dexamethasone)
    • Cleave study (didn’t last long)
    • Carfilzomib & panobinostat
    • CD47 study
    • Dara-Rd  (Daratumumab, Revlimid, Dexamethasone)
    • VenVd (Venetoclax, Velcade, Dexamethasone)
    • PCd (Pomalyst, Cytoxan, Dexamethasone)
    • Pomalyst, Bendamustine, Dexamethasone
    • Bendamustine, Dexamethasone
    • CAR-T trial BB2121 (October 2018)
    • Pomalyst, Daratumumab, Dexamethasone
    • CAR-T trial with GSI (Summer 2019)
    • Pomalyst, Keytruda
    • Cytoxan, Dexamethasone
    • Teclistamab trial with Daratumumab (2020)
    • Talquetamab trial with Daratumumab (2021)
    • Selinexor and Carfilzomib
Laura E.

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I’m getting up there in years. I can’t believe I’m this old, but here I am, almost 78, and have had a pretty full life.

I was a lawyer. I have a son that I adopted as a single parent and then I got married. 

I lost my first husband to cancer. We think it was stomach and liver cancer, but by the time it was discovered, it wasn’t entirely clear.

My second husband was somebody I’ve known since I was 15. We have a wonderful relationship and he’s been a wonderful companion in this journey with multiple myeloma. We lost touch for some years and we had some good friends who, at some point, decided that we should get together. They plotted to get us together and it worked.

My primary care physician said, ‘You have multiple myeloma and it’s treatable. I have patients who’ve lived for 10 and 20 years with this disease.’ I felt a lot better.

Diagnosis

Getting the Diagnosis

I was diagnosed in 2012.

The attending doctor at the emergency room wanted to give me a prescription for physical therapy and send me home. I said no. It wasn’t fair to the physical therapist to have to figure out what the problem was. She left the room and sent a younger doctor in after a while.

The younger doctor said I had two choices. One was the option I’d already refused and the other was to have a CT scan so I thought I’d have that one.

Meanwhile, the shift changed. The next attending physician came in and told me I had cancer. This was in the emergency room in the middle of the night. I went home with my husband and left a message for my primary care physician.

After a long day of seeing patients, he called me at about 8 o’clock in the evening. He said, “You have multiple myeloma and it’s treatable. I have patients who’ve lived for 10 and 20 years with this disease.” I felt a lot better. It didn’t relieve all of the bad feelings about having a cancer diagnosis, but it certainly made me feel better than what the first doctor had said.

When my primary care physician told me that it was treatable, it made a difference in how I felt about it.

Reaction to the Diagnosis

Even though I’d had some experience with cancer before, it still came as a terrible shock when I was told I had it. I wanted to press the reset button and have this not happen, but that’s not possible.

We were both devastated. I’d never even heard of this disease. My husband had, oddly enough. His father had had it so he knew a little about it.

I’m still doing okay. I keep having new treatments. They only last for a fairly short time with me. If it’s a good treatment, it lasts a year or less. If it’s not such a good treatment, it might not even last that long.

When my primary care physician told me that it was treatable, it made a difference in how I felt about it. It wasn’t nearly as scary. I accepted what he said and felt a lot better.

When you’ve had as many treatments as I’ve had, sometimes you come to a point where it’s difficult to know what the next step is.

Seeing a Myeloma Specialist

Because my husband knew about this disease, he met Dr. Durie at the International Myeloma Foundation and asked, “Who should we get to treat Laura?” He gave us Dr. Martin’s name so we managed to get in to see him and he took me as a patient. He wasn’t nearly as famous in 2012 as he is today. He’s been my doctor all along and I’m really glad.

I feel like he’s done right by me. When you’ve had as many treatments as I’ve had, sometimes you come to a point where it’s difficult to know what the next step is. He always has my best interest in mind. He knows a lot. He’s a really good doctor.

Once when I needed a new treatment, he told me that he had nothing to offer me so he helped me get on waiting lists at three other hospitals. When one of them came through, he encouraged me to take it and I did. He had my interest at heart.

Treatment

I started my first treatment in August 2012. They call it VRd. It’s a pretty common first treatment. They’re starting to change the usual first treatment, but for a long time, that was the first treatment almost everyone got. Unless you had a terrible reaction to one of the treatment drugs, you had VELCADE, REVLIMID, and dexamethasone, and that went on for several months.

I didn’t know much about clinical trials until I got involved.

Joining Myeloma Clinical Trials

I’m not sure exactly how many treatments I’ve had because there have been some changes that may or may not have been a separate treatment. I think I’ve had about 16 different treatments, 12 of which were clinical trials.

There were a couple of clinical trials near the beginning of my treatment that only lasted a month or two. He took me off them because they weren’t benefiting me.

I didn’t know much about clinical trials until I got involved. I know there are some misconceptions that a lot of people have, especially whether you’re going to get the study drug. In phase 1 and phase 2 trials, you get the study drug. I’ve only had phase 1 and phase 2 trials so I know I’m getting the drug that’s been described to me.

On more than one occasion, when it came time that I needed another treatment because the one I had been taking had stopped working, Dr. Martin would explain to me what the options were.

We’d have a meeting where he’d explain to me the possibilities. Typically, if I didn’t already have a pretty good idea of what I wanted, I would ask him which one he preferred for me. He’d tell me which one he thought was best and I’d usually go with his recommendation. He wouldn’t insist on it. He would only tell me his preference when I asked him.

It’s good to be near where you can not only get help but that has all of my records and access to the information that a doctor would need to deal with whatever the problem is.

Factors to Consider When Deciding to Join a Clinical Trial

Efficacy is, of course, very important. Sometimes side effects affect my preference but not often. I don’t even know how those side effects are going to feel until I experience them.

One of my other health issues is gastrointestinal issues so if a treatment is going to affect my GI, I would want to know about it and evaluate how that affects my choice. It won’t necessarily prevent me from entering into that trial, but it’ll be a consideration.

I’ve only traveled once and that was when Dr. Martin didn’t have an option for me. I prefer to stay at UCSF for several reasons, one of which is that if I have side effects, that can be addressed right away.

Side effects can be relatively minor or they can be major. There have been occasions when my husband puts me in the car late at night and takes me to the emergency room. It’s good to be near where you can not only get help but that has all of my records and access to the information that a doctor would need to deal with whatever the problem is. That’s important.

When I did go to another hospital, it was in Seattle and now my Seattle records are connected to my UCSF records. I have a doctor in Seattle, too. I don’t see him anymore, but that connection is very important. Being someplace where they know enough to know what to do is key.

You want to know about the experience of other people who’ve been in this clinical trial.

Extra Considerations in Traveling for a Clinical Trial

Seattle makes it easy for you. At the time, it was called the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance. The same place is now called Fred Hutchinson. They arrange housing for you and they have a shuttle that takes you to the clinic and the store.

I went there alone and didn’t think I needed a caregiver right away. One day, they told me that I needed a caregiver for a particular test that I had to undergo. I was living with other myeloma and cancer patients. They didn’t have anything to do except go to the clinic so there were lots of people who volunteered to help me that particular day.

Eventually, my husband had to come. I spent two and a half months in Seattle for this. He was there for maybe two months, I’m not sure exactly.

Clinical Trial Paperwork

They always send you a copy of the paperwork before you decide to join the clinical trial so you have a chance to look it over. I know that some people might find it daunting, but one of the things they have in that consent form is a list of the possible side effects. You can read all about it and ask questions before you sign.

I know where to look for all this so I go straight to it and ask questions. It’s easy to understand. It’s surrounded by a lot of other words, but if you find the possible side effects, that’s what you want to look at and ask questions about.

You want to know about the experience of other people who’ve been in this clinical trial. In Seattle, they told me that one of the participants had died so I wanted to know about her health. After they explained it all to me, I decided that I was considerably healthier than the patient who had died and it was going to be okay.

Expenses Related to Clinical Trials

My insurance paid for just about everything that the trial didn’t pay for. The sponsor will pay for anything new. Your insurance will pay for other things that have to be done anyway.

The most expensive was travel to Seattle and housing in Seattle. I had to pay for that.

My first CAR T didn’t work so well for me and we’re not entirely sure why.

CAR T-cell Therapy

I joined a CAR T trial in 2019.

The great thing about CAR T is if it works for you, it’s one and done. Once you’ve had the treatment, you don’t need treatment again for a while.

Like a lot of us, the treatment doesn’t last forever. It lasts for a while and you don’t have to keep coming back for additional infusions or anything like that. If it works, it’s great.

My first CAR T didn’t work so well for me and we’re not entirely sure why. It brought my numbers down, but not enough so I still needed treatment.

One theory is that I’d had bendamustine before, which might have made it difficult for the CAR T to work, but I don’t think anybody knows if that’s the answer.

Like a lot of us, the treatment doesn’t last forever.

Preparing for CAR T-cell Therapy

They take the T cells out of your body by running your blood through this contraption, which has a centrifuge that can separate the T cells from your blood and give the rest of it back to you. To do that, they put this giant thing in your neck to get the blood out and that’s just annoying, but it’s not terrible.

They put the re-engineered T cells back into you and look for the side effects. Neurotoxicity and CRS, which means cytokine release syndrome.

I had a very strong reaction to my second CAR T. I had a day when I was completely out of it. They tell me I couldn’t answer simple questions like, “What’s your name?” I don’t remember a thing from that day. All of my organs were affected. They were afraid that I’d had a heart attack, but I didn’t. It was a very strong reaction.

It worked. I’m not sure how long for exactly, but it was about a year.

I cope with this kind of uncertainty reasonably well. Not everybody does, I suppose.

Comparing CAR T-cell Therapy to Other Myeloma Treatment Options

CAR T is over so quickly compared to the others.

I did have a problem that showed up right after the treatment. I got parvovirus, which doesn’t affect most people, but it caused me to need IVIG. That takes care of the problem, but it complicates our ability to measure how well I’m doing.

If you put a lot of IgG into my body, it looks like there’s more cancer, but there isn’t. It’s not cancer. It took a little longer to figure out that it worked as well as it did, but it did work.

Dealing with the Wait

I cope with this kind of uncertainty reasonably well. Not everybody does, I suppose. For example, I think this is harder on my husband than it is on me sometimes because he has a completely different personality.

I’m optimistic and I believe that Dr. Martin is doing something that’s going to work for me. Now, my husband believes that Dr. Martin is doing right by me, too, but he’s naturally not as optimistic.

Like most patients, I get checked regularly so it’s not a big surprise when a treatment stops working. When my M protein reaches 1.0, it looks like another treatment is under consideration. We start thinking about it even before we reach that point.

Bispecifics are a very good choice, especially if you can get them at your home medical center.

Bispecific Antibodies

I’ve been on two of them so far.

He described all the options that were available at that point. He first recommended teclistamab. The second one was talquetamab, which hasn’t been approved yet.

Teclistamab was a good treatment, but I don’t remember the specifics. I think I was on teclistamab for the better part of a year.

I remember talquetamab better because it was problematic. Some of the side effects of talquetamab were annoying. The target molecule was something that was not just on myeloma cells but also on fingernails, toenails, and the tongue. Some people lose their fingernails altogether and food doesn’t taste the same. That was pretty annoying.

Bispecifics are a very good choice, especially if you can get them at your home medical center. Some new ones are coming out that I haven’t tried yet.

It didn’t affect everybody the same way, but I couldn’t stand eating blueberries and pears.

Side Effects of Bispecific Antibodies

The fingernails weren’t so terrible. The palms of my hands and the bottom of my feet also got a little red and peeling, but that’s not so terrible. I only lost a part of my fingernails and toenails. But the taste buds affected my everyday life because there were things that didn’t taste right.

It didn’t affect everybody the same way, but I couldn’t stand eating blueberries and pears. They tasted salty to me. I didn’t like anything spicy because it was very harsh to me. It affected what I would be willing to eat and eating is an important part of your life.

It was very unpleasant and I didn’t like it, but it didn’t cause me to stop treatment. I persisted, but I was annoyed all the time. Other people had different changes to their taste buds. Some people liked having hot foods and wanted them all the time.

It still caused a lot of nausea and throwing up so I had to stop because I was losing a lot of weight.

Selinexor & Carfilzomib

I was on it for about two months.

Selinexor also had a negative effect on my taste buds. I was given prescriptions for several anti-nausea drugs, but it still caused a lot of nausea and throwing up so I had to stop because I was losing a lot of weight. Not only was the food not tasting very good, but I couldn’t keep it down. But it kept my numbers down for a long time, even though I stopped taking it.

Dr. Martin and the nurse practitioner knew. I would come in regularly and one of the things they always do is weigh me and it was obvious. My weight was going down. At some point, Dr. Martin and I came to the conclusion about the same time that I really shouldn’t be taking selinexor anymore so he took me off.

It’s a nice holiday. I know it’s not going to last and that’s okay.

Treatment Holiday

My numbers have stayed down for so long even without treatment. At first, he only took me off selinexor. I was taking another drug with it at the same time and he took me off that, too.

I haven’t had treatment since November 2022, but I’m going to need treatment again soon. My antibodies are good so I don’t feel like I’m in danger every time I walk out the door. It’s been fine.

It’s a nice holiday. I know it’s not going to last and that’s okay. But it’s a nice thing to be able to do and to be able to do it at a time when I’m not too worried about COVID because my antibodies are good. I don’t want to get it. I’ve had it once, but I feel like I can enjoy a holiday.

I feel some freedom that I didn’t have for a while. Getting myeloma treatments usually means that there’ll be a problem with antibodies again, a problem with white cells. I’ll have to be more careful.

The diagnosis didn’t change my life nearly as much as the pandemic… The worst part is I don’t get to see my grandchildren much.

Living Life with Myeloma

A lot of people have given up masks and I’m not talking about myeloma patients. They think it’s a little odd when people continue to use them. I do what I need to do, but I feel a lot freer walking around without one nowadays. I know when I start treatment again, I’ll have to be careful again. That’s okay.

I’m satisfied with how my life is going. I’ve come to know some people in this journey that I like very much and it’s a very important part of my life now. I do other things. I have a nonprofit that I do a bunch of things with. Most of the meetings that I go to, I do on Zoom. Hardly anybody ever sees me in person, but occasionally they do.

I have a lot of friends in this community. People I meet when we have a support group meeting are people I keep up with. We might not go out to dinner together, but I feel like I know them and care about them. They’re people I’ve gotten to know and care about. We happen to have the same disease, but what’s important is that we met.

The diagnosis didn’t change my life nearly as much as the pandemic. My husband and I did some traveling. I wasn’t working full-time anyway. I moved from Virginia to California so I wasn’t practicing law. I was doing some arbitrations and I still do.

After the pandemic set in in early 2020, I couldn’t travel and that’s made more difference than having myeloma. Or having myeloma alone anyway.

I don’t think I’ve changed too much. The lawyer you meet today isn’t that much different from the lawyer who existed before. I have this disease and it limits me. The pandemic limits me, but I still get up every morning and do things that I like to do so that’s good.

The worst part is I don’t get to see my grandchildren much. My grandson, who was 13 last summer, visited me all by himself. He was great. He followed my instructions, got a COVID test, and wore glasses and a mask on the plane. He wanted to make the trip and had a good time. His little sister was extremely jealous, but she was too little to make the trip by herself. That will have to wait for a while.

Sometimes I think it’s harder for the caregiver than it is for the patient.

Husband as Caregiver

He has been such a loyal caregiver. Recent changes have been more important in a way because it’s been such a long, hard journey for him.  More than half of our marriage has been consumed with multiple myeloma and it’s affected his life at least as much as mine.

Sometimes I think it’s harder for the caregiver than it is for the patient. In our situation, I’m the one who makes decisions about my care. I listen to my husband because he comes with me most of the time. He has opinions, too, but I get to make the decision and he doesn’t. That’s much harder on him and I understand that.

It’s also coming at a time when we’re losing friends. This has happened to him more than it has to me. A lot of his friends have died these past 10 years and it becomes lonelier and lonelier when you don’t have your friends around. He still has some who are still living, but it’s making his life harder.

Having a wife with this terrible disease doesn’t help because I can’t help him with some of these things. We need to acknowledge that. Everybody works out these issues their way, I think.

Importance of Having New Treatment Options

I’ve had most treatments so I can run out of options. I don’t think I’ll run out of options completely, but it’s a little worrisome. I want UCSF to stay ahead of what I need.

If I have to, I could go somewhere else. It’s not my preference because I think it’s much better to be able to stay in my home medical facility.


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Jason’s Stage 3B Colon Cancer Story

Jason’s Stage 3B Colon Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

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Jason was diagnosed with stage 3B colon cancer at 36. He first experienced minor abdominal pain and blood in his stool. His concern grew after repeatedly encountering colon cancer in online searches.

No abnormalities were detected after a visit with his general physician. Despite reassurances that colon cancer is unlikely in a healthy 36-year-old, he pushes for a colonoscopy referral.

Because of pandemic delays, his anxiety grew, leading him to seek emergency room evaluation. A CT scan revealed a mass in his colon and enlarged lymph nodes while a subsequent colonoscopy confirmed the presence of a tumor. Pathology results indicated the presence of cancer cells in some lymph nodes.

Jason reflects on the shock of the diagnosis, the emotional impact, and the difficulty in breaking the news to family and friends. Throughout his journey, he learned the importance of actively participating in one’s health care, advocating for oneself, and seeking support from organizations and communities. He also highlights the impact of a cancer diagnosis on caregivers and the need for a strong support system.

In addition to Jason’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of colorectal cancer stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Jason A.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Colon cancer
  • Staging:
    • 3B
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Abdominal pressure
    • Fatigue
    • Small amounts of blood in stool
  • Treatment:
    • Surgery: colon resection
    • Chemotherapy: FOLFOX (folinic acid, fluorouracil, and oxaliplatin)
Jason A.
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Jason A. timeline

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I live in Ottawa, Canada, with my wife Leslie, our three-year-old daughter Kira, and our dog Sage.

I love the outdoors. I’m a big runner. Over the last few years, a big passion of mine has been doing a lot of advocacy work and peer support in the cancer world.

Jason A.

It was the blood in the stool that got me thinking there was something more going on.

Jason A.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

My story started when I was 36. I was a healthy, active, very typical 36-year-old adult. I was in the prime of my life. I was happily married and work was going well.

I started getting very minor abdominal cramps and pains that I’d never really felt before. I thought it was stress, something I ate, or a pulled muscle. I didn’t think anything of it.

Then I started to have a little bit of blood in my stool. It was very, very minor. It could have very easily been passed off for hemorrhoids, an inflammation in the intestine, or an infection in my GI tract.

But when I was searching “abdominal cramps, blood in the stool” on Google, colon cancer kept coming up. It wasn’t on my radar, to be honest, but the fact that it was there got me thinking about it. I got concerned when that started popping up over and over again.

Seeing a General Physician

In September 2020, I went to see my GP. I don’t think my early symptoms were what you often hear. I wasn’t in debilitating pain or needed emergency surgery.

My doctors even said they didn’t necessarily know if that had anything to do with the colon cancer because it was so mild. It was more like a nuisance. It was a little bit of pressure here and there, the odd spasm-like sensation. It came and went. There was nothing persistent. There was nothing that affected me dramatically. It wasn’t something that concerned me. It was the blood in the stool that got me thinking there was something more going on.

Jason A.
Jason A.

My tumor was quite small. It was only about 2 x 3.5 cm. Because of the size and where it was, which was in my sigmoid colon, my doctors don’t believe that a lot of that pain even had anything to do with that. At the time of my diagnosis, I had a very physical job. I was running and working out all the time so it could have been anything.

My GP is awesome. We have a great rapport. She has my back and has always taken good care of me. The day I went in, it was clinic day and they had residents working with the doctors. I got to meet one of her residents who was probably around the same age as I was.

He did everything I was expecting. He asked all the questions. “How long have you had the symptoms?” “Are they impacting bowel movements?” “Are you eating?”

Because of the blood, he did a digital rectal exam, but he didn’t feel anything nor was there anything odd so he left it as potentially an infection. It could be an inflammation from a hundred different things. Hemorrhoids and stress came up, the typical stuff you hear when you have things going on in your stomach. But I pushed back a little bit because I was concerned that I kept seeing colon cancer come up every time I searched on Google.

Part of the visit I always try to highlight was him looking right at me and saying, “Mr. Abramovich, you’re 36. You’re healthy. This is not cancer.” At the time, that was reassuring. When he said that, it was a huge weight off.

I still saw my actual GP afterward and she was honest. She did say that it’s very unlikely. She didn’t dismiss my concerns, but it was unlikely that a healthy 36-year-old adult had colon cancer and that was a fair assessment.

However, she’s quite diligent. She asked if I wanted to have a referral for a colonoscopy and I said, “Absolutely. That’s what I was hoping to get out of the appointment.” I hope the resident that I saw found out what happened. It happened right in front of him. He sat with a healthy, 36-year-old male and said, “It doesn’t happen to young adults.”

The scary thing was how many other patients he could’ve said something like that to. This was a brand new doctor who still thought that young adults couldn’t get this disease. It’s disheartening that it hasn’t hit home yet in medical school that it could happen to anybody.

Jason A.

My anxiety was getting quite high and I was getting worried… There was too much waiting and I wasn’t doing well with it.

Jason A.

Diagnosis

Going to the Emergency Room

My situation unfolded a little bit differently in the sense that this was all during the pandemic so everything was a little bit delayed. I had a little bit of a wait to get a colonoscopy because I wasn’t presenting urgent symptoms. It was more exploratory.

I was on a two- to four-month wait to get that colonoscopy done. However, my GP is an ER physician as well in the hospital and said, “If it’s getting worse or you want to get this solved quicker, go to the ER so you’ll have access to this a lot quicker.”

After a couple of weeks, my anxiety was getting quite high and I was getting worried. My wife had very gently encouraged me to go to the hospital and get it looked at for the good of my mental health. There was too much waiting and I wasn’t doing well with it.

I ended up in the ER because some of the symptoms were getting a bit worse. Again, I was looked at as a healthy 36-year-old adult. They did a physical exam. My blood work came back perfectly. My CEA was 1.8. It’s never changed. It’s always stayed at that so they were leaning towards diverticulitis, stress, inflammation, and everything they consider before cancer because of my age and my health.

Getting a CT Scan

The ER physician decided to do imaging. He wanted to do a CT scan to confirm what his thoughts were because he didn’t want to give me antibiotics unnecessarily.

I came back the next day and did the CT. About an hour later, he called me. I knew right away that something was wrong. From working in emergency services, I know people’s demeanors and the whole process of giving someone some bad news so I knew right away that something was up when he called me back.

He took me back to a private room, sat down on the bed right next to me, showed me my CT report, and said they found a mass in my colon. They also saw some lymph nodes that were enlarged regionally in that area.

Jason A.

Colonoscopies are not scary at all. They’re pretty smooth and painless.

Jason A.
Getting a Colonoscopy

I didn’t have a colonoscopy until after they found the tumor on a CT scan.

Colonoscopies are not scary at all. They’re pretty smooth and painless. To be honest, the most uncomfortable part is the prep to clean out your bowels but, at the same time, it’s not that bad. You have to drink a whole bunch of liquid that doesn’t taste very good.

Would I rather not have to do them? Absolutely. But at this point in my journey, I’ve had about 3 or 4 of them.

When you get the procedure done, you’re comfortable. I didn’t feel a thing. The staff was great. They gave me the choice to be awake or be totally out based on my comfort level.

The whole procedure lasted about 25 minutes. In my situation, I found it neat and a little empowering because I stayed awake. My surgeon did my colonoscopy and showed me my tumor. She explained where it was exactly and gave me an idea of what was going on, which I thought was cool because you never really get that perspective.

A procedure that could save someone’s life or make a drastic difference in an outcome is a no-brainer. I talk a lot about colonoscopies because a lot of people are scared of them or don’t want to do them. There are so many myths about them, but they’re quite simple, pretty comfortable, and quick procedures to get done.

Reaction to the CT Scan Results

I was in complete shock. This was the complete opposite of what anybody thought that was going on.

Unfortunately, given the pandemic, I was alone. It was not a pleasant situation. I know the staff felt quite bad as well. They were doing their best to comfort me and do what they could.

I was able to call my wife to let her know what was going on, but she wasn’t allowed in the hospital. She drove down and waited in the parking lot in case I needed anything.

I had an amazing medical professional. The nurse I had that day was phenomenal. She was a blessing in disguise in a difficult time. We were very similar in age so I think what was happening hit home to her.

The rest of that day was a blur. I was fortunate that my GP had a lot of connections at that hospital. I got a quick emergency procedure done to do a sigmoidoscopy and get a biopsy done.

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Jason A.
Getting a Sigmoidoscopy & Biopsy

When I woke up, the general surgeon was very open with me. He said that he was 99% sure that we were looking at cancer. I was coming out of sedation so it didn’t hit me how it necessarily would if I wasn’t. Luckily, my wife was there.

Waiting and not knowing what was ahead, those few days after finding out were tough in many different ways.

Reaction to the Diagnosis

We went home in shock. We didn’t know what to say or what to do. We had a five-day wait to get the biopsy results back.

We both decided to keep working to keep things as normal as possible throughout the week. We tried not to sit around, thinking and waiting, because it wasn’t going to make anything easier.

That Friday, I got a call in the parking lot as I was leaving work and it was the general surgeon with the biopsy results. He confirmed that it was cancer, that he was sending all of my files immediately over to The Ottawa Hospital Cancer Centre, and that I’d be hearing from them at some point early the following week.

At that point, everything came crumbling down. I remember driving home and having to pull over on the side of the highway. My wife had to meet me because I couldn’t. I wasn’t there. When she pulled up, I was walking up and down the side of the road, in shock. I didn’t know what to think at that point.

We cried a bit. We drove home and were in shock for a few days. Waiting and not knowing what was ahead, those few days after finding out were tough in many different ways.

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Jason A.
Breaking the News to Family and Friends

The toughest part was having to tell people because there’s very little cancer history in my family. I didn’t have any predispositions to anything that made sense.

Having to tell my family and friends was quite the thing. My wife played a huge role. She told a lot of people because I didn’t know what to say. I couldn’t have those conversations at that time.

The tumor was small and in a place they could reach very easily. They can take a few inches of my large intestines out and reconnect everything.

Treatment

Getting a Sigmoidoscopy

The initial procedure was a sigmoidoscopy. If I recall, it was 30 minutes between getting sedated and waking up again. There was no recovery, to be honest. I had a bit of a little discomfort in my rectum area, but beyond that, it was a quick, painless procedure.

I was very naive to the cancer world. You always hear of stages because of how cancer is portrayed in the media and on social media, I guess.

All my stuff got sent to The Ottawa Hospital. The following week after the biopsy confirmation, I heard from the colorectal surgeon’s office and they reviewed everything. Because the tumor was quite small, they decided to do surgery upfront.

Jason A.
Jason A.
Colon Resection

They weren’t sure if the lymph nodes they were seeing were involved. They couldn’t confirm that at that point. But what they did know was the tumor was small and in a place they could reach very easily. They can take a few inches of my large intestines out and reconnect everything.

Between the first week of December and about mid-January, I was doing pre-surgery workups, like blood work and pulmonary tests. They checked my heart and my lungs. I met with the anesthesiologist and the prep nurse. I had two MRIs because my stomach was not behaving and there were motion artifacts so they had to redo it.

Following that, I had a colonoscopy so they could go in, take a look, and mark the tumors because that’s how they locate them when they do the surgery laparoscopically. They also wanted to check the rest of my colon. Everything was clear. There were no other areas of concern.

I had my surgery on February 19th and it went smoothly. There were no issues. The surgery was about 3 1/2 hours. They were able to do it laparoscopically so it was minimally invasive, which was great. They ended up taking out about 6 or 7 inches of my large intestines and were able to reconnect the plumbing, as my surgeon called it.

I had a lot of support. My family was great. During that time, I found great social and emotional support groups that helped me during that time.

Recovering from Surgery

One of the things I was worried about was whether I was going to wake up with an ostomy bag. That was a big relief. I know it’s silly but out of everything, that was the big stressor for me. In retrospect, it’s probably the least that can go wrong.

Hospital stays are normally 4 to 7 days, depending on what happens. I was lucky I got out in three. The surgeons were happy. I went in strong and healthy. I was up and walking the next day.

The pain wasn’t too bad. I was off pain meds the next day. I was switched to Tylenol 3s. They sent me home with a bit of codeine. I used it once and beyond that was regular Tylenol.

I was in good shape. I worked out going into the surgery and prepped myself for it so that helped with the recovery as well.

In my mind, everything was great. The surgery was successful. Recovery was going well. There was the stress of all of this happening during COVID and being in the hospital was not fun.

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Jason A.

After I got home, they called me because a nurse that I had tested positive. Luckily, I was negative, but it was a pretty stressful situation because I’d been home for a week already and my family was around me. Everything was great, but that was a stressful little situation after a pretty stressful situation of major surgery.

I was active during my recovery. Some days were more difficult and there was a little more pain. The first couple of weeks especially were frustrating. I’m active and independent. I work out, run, and lift weights, but for six weeks, I couldn’t even lift the laundry basket. I took handfuls of laundry in little scoops at a time. We went to buy groceries and I was able to carry in one item at a time. 

That was quite challenging mentally. Going from being strong, healthy, and independent to suddenly being unable to do anything for yourself. That was tough, but I got through it.

I had a lot of support. My family was great. During that time, I found great social and emotional support groups that helped me during that time. Getting onto some Zoom calls, talking to other patients, and making those peer connections definitely made recovery a lot easier.

There were cancer cells in 7 out of the 25 lymph nodes that they removed so that took me from what they thought was stage 1 or 2 to stage 3B.

Getting the Pathology Results

We had to wait for the pathology results. They took out the tumor, but they also took out about 25 lymph nodes that had to get sent to pathology so there was about a four-week wait for all that to come back.

When we got the pathology results, unfortunately, it showed that there were cancer cells in 7 out of the 25 lymph nodes that they removed so that took me from what they thought was stage 1 or 2 to stage 3B, which was a pretty big jump. I was not expecting that.

In retrospect, my stage still had great odds and was a very manageable stage, but it was still a shock to hear. It was more of a shock because I knew that meant chemo. It made the difference between everything being over after surgery and having a whole other adventure in this situation.

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Jason A.
FOLFOX Chemotherapy Regimen

My diagnosis was stage 3B colon cancer. After recovery, I was lined up for six months of FOLFOX (folinic acid, fluorouracil, and oxaliplatin).

A couple of days before my first treatment, I went to the cancer center to do my chemo education. The first time I walked in, everything hit home. Up until that point, it was scary and traumatic. Hearing I had cancer was huge, but the surgery was like any other surgery. There was nothing different just because it was cancer surgery. The recovery was very smooth.

Walking into that cancer center and being a patient, not going there to visit someone or cut through to go to another part of the hospital, was quite the gut punch. That was a very big moment.

The beginning was a very interesting experience. The staff was amazing. They took great care of me. They took me on a tour. They educated me about my chemo and helped me choose if I wanted a PICC line or a port.

But one thing that stood out was every time I go to the cancer center, people look at me and wonder why I’m there. They don’t realize that I’m a patient. I’ve been asked several times, “Who are you picking up? Who are you visiting?” And when I say I’m here to get chemo, they give you the big deer-in-the-headlight look like it doesn’t make sense.

Waiting rooms are strange because I’m young and I look healthy and great. I would say 99% of the people are 50- to 60-plus. Most of them look pretty rough. The whole experience is very different. It’s really sad to say that I’ve gotten used to it. I put my blinders on, do my thing, and leave.

Those first couple of months were tough because they magnified and amplified the why me. Why am I the only 36-year-old sitting in this place? I treat myself well. I’m young and healthy beyond this, but I’m sitting in this room with all these people. That was quite a challenge as well.

Jason A.
Jason A.

The friends I made in Man Up to Cancer helped a lot because I was able to talk to them about that stuff. I quickly realized that it’s a widespread experience for a lot of people, especially younger adults. When you realize you’re not necessarily alone, it makes it a little bit easier to deal with.

Any colorectal cancer person is very familiar with the chemo regimen I did. I did six months of FOLFOX. I did 12 treatments.

I did a lot of things to help myself, which I do think made my experience with chemotherapy a little bit different.

Side Effects of FOLFOX

I tolerated it quite well. I was lucky in that regard. I worked while I was getting my treatments. I was quite active. They took great care of me.

I’m not going to sugarcoat it. There were days I felt like crap, but I also took control of a situation that I had very little control of. I did a lot of things to help myself, which I do think made my experience with chemotherapy a little bit different.

I got through the 12 cycles with no incidents. I did chemo from April until September 2021. My last session was on September 23rd. After that, I was NED (no evidence of disease) essentially. I was graduated to surveillance and that was supposed to be the end of it.

Jason A.
Jason A.

I know I did a lot, but I got very lucky. My body took to it very well, fortunately. The major side effect that I had was fatigue. I had quite a bit of fatigue.

My skin was not happy. I have sensitive skin as it is, but it did a number on my skin with rashes, dryness, and cracking. I had a pretty rough time with that at some points.

The neuropathy was not fun. Anyone who’s done FOLFOX knows that neuropathy from oxaliplatin can get pretty nasty, but I did a lot to counter it. It wasn’t too bad.

My oncologist and I have a great relationship… He’s very open to things as long as he has good data to make an educated decision.

Managing Neuropathy

To combat neuropathy, I worked with a naturopath. I took a lot of supplements. I did acupuncture, reflexology, and massage. I was doing all kinds of alternative stuff.

In my cancer center, I was one of the first people to do icing. I iced my hands and feet during every infusion of FOLFOX. I know in the States, in some of the larger cancer centers, it’s been a bit more common in the last few years, but in my cancer center, at that point, no one ever did that before. Everybody was dumbfounded by that because why would you ice your hands and feet with a chemotherapy agent that has extreme cold sensitivity?

I was fortunate to be hooked up with COLONTOWN. I was able to present my oncologist with studies, actual data, and factual information as to why it’s used.

My oncologist and I have a great relationship. We have a lot of respect for each other. He’s very open to things as long as he has good data to make an educated decision. I was the first person to do icing at my cancer center on FOLFOX and now he recommends that to a lot of his patients. He gives that as an option to anybody moving forward with that regimen so that’s cool.

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Jason A.

I don’t know the detailed science behind it, but essentially what it’s supposed to do is help with the cold sensitivity because it restricts blood flow to your extremities. It shrinks your veins and arteries down so you don’t get as much blood flow in that area. I guess the theory is not as much chemo gets to your hands and feet so it lessens the cold sensitivity effects.

I’d put my hands in the freezer, pick up frozen food, and be okay. Patients who didn’t do that couldn’t even touch a cold cup. You’d get shocks and it would be extremely painful. I would take all these videos to show to my oncologist and he loved them because it’s not something that he was familiar with at that point.

There’s so much stuff out there and it’s not his fault. It seems a lot of stuff from the States comes to Canada 3 to 5 years later. It hasn’t gotten here yet, but it’s becoming more common. I’m happy that I got to try it and it benefited me so it’s going to benefit a lot of other people that come after me, too, which is cool.

Celebrating the End of Treatment

After I had my last chemo on September 23rd, I rang the bell. I had a nice big celebration. I hugged all the nurses there.

After six months of going in by myself, my wife was allowed to come in for my last treatment, which was cool because she’d never seen the cancer center because of the restrictions. She didn’t know what happened to me for three hours when she dropped me off at the front door. It was really neat for her to see what the process was and what I’d been doing for six months.

The plan was a couple of months after, I was going to get a follow-up scan to get a post-chemo baseline. That scan came back clean. At that point, I was under surveillance. I was declared NED and it stayed that way for about 16 months.

Jason A.

I realized how tired and burnt out I was… I didn’t process anything that happened to me that year and a half until chemo was over.

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Taking Time Off Work

After that scan, I took time off work to recover because I’d been working through everything. Once that scan came back clear, it was like the weight of the world was lifted.

I realized how tired and burnt out I was from the year and a half of appointments, treatments, procedures, and operations so I decided to take a couple of months off work.

During that time, we adopted a little girl. She was one. That was something we put on hold when I got this diagnosis. We were in the process of becoming adoptive parents when we found out so we had to put that on pause.

Two weeks after my last treatment, we got a call that we were matched with this one-year-old adorable little girl. Two weeks after that, she was living with us. I went from a year and a half of being a patient to a dad in two weeks. There was no time to process anything.

It was this amazing, life-changing thing after a year and a half of this difficult, life-changing thing. It was exactly what my wife and I, and our family needed to have something great happen and get back to living.

Taking Time to Process Everything

It was a new normal. The next six months were hard. It was tough emotionally because I was finally able to stop. I wasn’t in survival mode anymore. I knew I was okay. All my systems started to slow down. Then you realize what you’ve been through. I didn’t process anything that happened to me that year and a half until chemo was over. 

Everything surfaced and hit me like a freight train. I spent a lot of time working with a social worker and my psychologist. I did a lot of peer groups within the cancer support community to work through everything and figure out what my new normal is and who I am now.

Jason A.
Jason A.

Everything changed. I was a first responder before and I was always a big risk taker and helper. After this, I realized, all my priorities had changed. Your outlook on everything is different.

I had to give myself time to heal both physically and mentally but also to figure out who I was, what I was going to do, what I wanted my life to look like now, and what was the healthiest thing for me moving forward. Working through all of that and trying to navigate some of the chemo side effects took a good chunk of the next year.

I was getting scans every three months for the first year. Then I moved up to every six months. I had one six-month scan that was clean.

How could a reoccurrence happen when you’re feeling great?

Finding a Lung Nodule

In September 2023, on one of my surveillance scans, a lung nodule popped up. We went back and saw that it was on a scan a year ago. It was tiny and a lot of the time, stuff in the lung isn’t noted until it changes because a lot of us have stuff on our lungs that are absolutely nothing. It changed gradually over the past year.

It was a bit of a shock. I’ve been completely asymptomatic. I’ve been feeling pretty good. I think I’m in better shape and feeling better than I was before my diagnosis, which is awesome but also a little confusing. How could a reoccurrence happen when you’re feeling great?

I didn’t feel any different. I was feeling great. If it wasn’t for that scan, I wouldn’t have a clue anything was there. That thrust me back into patient mode quickly, which was challenging because I’ve spent the last almost two years trying to figure out how not to be a patient anymore and I was in a really good spot.

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Jason A.
Discussing Treatment Options

Luckily, I had a lot of options. I had a whole bunch of tests done. It was an isolated incident and there was no spread anywhere else. Everything else is still great. 

After meeting with a thoracic surgeon, the first go-to will be surgery to take it out. I did a PET scan, which came back great. I had a brain MRI, which was clear. I did a CT scan, a cardiopulmonary test, EKG, and all the pre-surgery stuff.

Because of the location, even though it was a small 18 mm tumor, they were going to have to remove my whole lower lobe because it was quite central. They couldn’t do a wedge resection. They would have had to take too much out so it was safer to take the whole lobe.

From the time that lung nodule popped up on the scan, within a week, I had four procedures booked and done. I had a consult with a surgeon the following week.

Seeking a Second Opinion

Because of my age, my health, and because there was a low disease burden, I asked for a second opinion. I knew that there had to be a less invasive but as effective approach. I thought I was being pretty logical.

I talked to a couple of great people who are quite educated in the advocacy world and they guided me in the right direction about how to do that, what to do, and who to contact.

I ended up getting a second opinion from a highly regarded surgeon in Toronto out of Sunnybrook and he ended up being my thoracic surgeon’s mentor when he was in med school. Small world.

I pushed. If I need something, my doctors make it happen because if not, their phones are going to be ringing and I’m going to annoy everybody.

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Jason A.

From the time that lung nodule popped up on the scan, within a week, I had four procedures booked and done. I had a consult with a surgeon the following week.

My oncologist is great. He goes to bat for me, which helped as well, but I was on the phone daily, calling the offices. “Do you have my file? Has it arrived yet? When’s my appointment? Book me in.”

My oncologist called me that week, saying, “Who are you calling? I’ve been getting messages about you all day and I don’t understand where these are coming from.” We had a good little chuckle.

What that ended up doing was getting my second opinion quickly and getting it moved to the tumor board the very next day.

Stereotactic Body Radiation Therapy

We ended up deciding to do SBRT as opposed to surgery. I had three 15-minute sessions in that area, which was done in November.

It’s a very specialized and precise radiation. As opposed to traditional radiation, which targets an area of the body and a whole bunch of tissue gets affected, they map out almost to the millimeter. The radiation impacts only the tumor and very minimal surrounding tissue around it.

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Jason A.
Side Effects of SBRT

I had very little side effects. I had a little bit of fatigue immediately after each session, a little bit lethargic, but that’s it.

It’s quite amazing that 45 minutes of treatment could replace losing a whole lobe of your lung. They’re as effective but on opposite ends of the spectrum with invasiveness so I’m fortunate for that second opinion.

My surgical oncologist would have come to that anyway, but that second opinion sped the whole thing up.

My situation is very good. I know I’m fortunate. I’m right on the brink of being NED again and staying there for a long time.

Follow-up Protocol

Technically speaking, if the SBRT did what it was supposed to do, I am back at NED. There was another tiny nodule that popped up that they were watching, but it did not light up on my PET scan so they’re not sold that it’s anything at all.

They’re going to keep a close eye on it in the next set of scans to see if anything changes. If it does, my radiation oncologist has already told me that he will treat it with SBRT right away. If it does turn into something at some point, I have a plan. I’m good. I know that SBRT is highly effective and minimally invasive so I’m happy about that.

Jason A.
Jason A.

My next scans are in January 2024. Those are going to be big ones. Everybody gave me the holidays off. They said, “SBRT takes some time to work so let’s push the scans back a couple of weeks. Enjoy the holidays with your family. You don’t need test results hanging over your head. We’re going to scan in the second week of January and ensure that the SBRT did what it was supposed to do.”

Knock on wood, it’s shrunk, it’s dead, it’s stable, whatever they need to see. If it did grow at all, I do have the option of doing another round of SBRT on it.

My situation is very good. I know I’m fortunate. I’m right on the brink of being NED again and staying there for a long time, if not forever this time. I’m a little bit nervous about that appointment because I don’t know if my oncologist is going to suggest clean-up chemo to be sure.

My situation is fairly unique because it was one isolated met. We didn’t do a biopsy on it because I felt that the risks of that lung biopsy were not necessarily worth it, especially given that it lit up on the PET scan. The fact that it lit up on the PET scan was enough for me. I didn’t feel that the potential side effects and risk factors were worth it. My oncologist and my team agreed.

Jason A.
Jason A.

Technically speaking, they don’t know 100% if it’s a CRC met or if it was potentially a second primary cancer in the lung. My staging is not necessarily changing. They’re not rushing to jump on anything. It’s essentially a stage 3B with an unconfirmed met in the lung essentially. I’m in a weird gray zone, I guess you could say.

The way I see it is I can still be NED from my stage 3 colon cancer and have a stage 1 lung something and they blast it out with SBRT. Both of those have extremely high cure rates and success rates. The worst case is that it was a met. It was isolated, the rest of me is clear, they blasted that away.

Do your research. Talk to organizations. There are great organizations out there. Get a network built around you.

Words of Advice

Our systems are very different in the US and Canada. Second opinions and all that work very differently, but at the core of it, advocacy is advocacy.

The biggest lesson I’ve learned is you have to trust your doctors. They’re the pros. But you also have the right to question them in a polite, professional, appropriate way.

You’re allowed to ask questions. You’re allowed to ask them why they’re making the decisions they’re making and why not. You’re allowed to give them ideas.

Jason A.
Jason A.

Do your research. Talk to organizations. There are great organizations out there. Get a network built around you.

Don’t hesitate and don’t be scared to say you don’t understand something, don’t agree with something, you got an idea from somebody, or you heard of a study, new treatment, or what have you. Don’t think that bringing that to your team is going to hurt their feelings or insult anybody.

At the end of the day, it’s your body and it’s your outcome. Doctors are amazing, absolutely. I love my team. There’s a very mixed bag of oncologists and doctors. People have very different experiences. But at the end of the day, they are not the be-all and end-all.

They help you and quarterback you, but their word is not the final say and it’s not always the right one. I’ve learned that when you bring things to their attention, when you learn how to work with them and be part of your care, they take your opinions and some of your ideas and make things happen.

Be part of your care. When there are meetings and decisions to be made, be part of that. Be actively engaged and make your voice heard.

If they know you’re going to cause a ruckus, speak up, and stir up the pot essentially to get things done, they will work that much harder for you because they know you’re invested and that you’re not going to wait. If they lag or say no, you’re going to find a way. Don’t take no for an answer. Don’t be scared to question and ask why.

Jason A.
Jason A.

We cannot do this alone. Supporters and caregivers are often not talked about enough. They get as affected as we do. Maybe not in the same ways, but they experience this with us. When one of us has cancer, the whole family does. Don’t forget about those people. Everybody’s trying to help. Surround yourself with good.

There are a lot of amazing organizations out there. I used Young Adult Cancer Canada, Colorectal Cancer Canada, Man Up to Cancer, and CCRAN.

Surround yourself, educate yourself, and be knowledgeable. Don’t put your head in the sand and isolate because that’s not going to go well. Find your people and latch on to what helps. That community will help you get through this.

Be part of your care… Be actively engaged and make your voice heard.


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Kristin’s Myelofibrosis Story

Kristin’s Myelofibrosis Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

Kristin D.

Kristin shares her experience of being diagnosed with myelofibrosis, a rare type of bone marrow cancer.

She was initially diagnosed with polycythemia vera (PV), a blood disorder wherein there is an increase in red blood cells. She would have phlebotomies done every three months as a treatment for about a year until she didn’t need to anymore.

Shortly after, a routine blood work showed very, very low platelets. After having a bone marrow biopsy done, she was referred to an oncologist.

The only treatment suggested was a stem cell transplant. Unable to match with a donor through Be The Match, she thankfully matched with her sister. She also shares how she dealt with her 25-year-old daughter’s Hodgkin lymphoma diagnosis.

Kristin shares her journey and the importance of finding positive people to surround you.

In addition to Kristin’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of myeloproliferative neoplasm (MPN) stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Kristin D.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Myelofibrosis
  • Mutations:
    • JAK2
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • None; caught at routine blood work
  • Treatment:
    • Stem cell transplant
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This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I’ve been a flight attendant since ‘98, which has always been my dream job. I grew up in Chicago and went to college at the University of Illinois.

I’ve lived in a lot of interesting places. My favorite place in the world is where I live now in Annapolis, Maryland. My husband lived here so I moved here. We bought a house in 1996 and had a great life.

At the end of 2021, I was told I had myelofibrosis. I didn’t have many options. The treatment for it was a stem cell transplant.

It’s a very rare blood disease. I’ve never heard about it and I don’t know anybody who has. Luckily, I had a sister who helped me navigate through the whole process.

Kristin D.

When I had routine blood work done, my platelets were very, very low so my general doctor wanted me to see an oncologist.

Kristin D.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

During my annual blood work, they said my red count was so high. They said, “Don’t worry about anything. It’s easy to treat with phlebotomies.” They said it was not that uncommon.

I would go to the blood center every three months and pump out a couple of pints of blood. They would discard it because it wasn’t good blood. It was painless. I didn’t feel different going in or coming out.

I did that for a year. One time, my red blood cell count was good enough that I didn’t need it. I thought that was odd but a good sign.

Shortly after, when I had routine blood work done, my platelets were very, very low so my general doctor wanted me to see an oncologist. He did a bone marrow biopsy and turned me over to the University of Maryland.

I felt great. I wasn’t fatigued. I played a lot of tennis and nothing.

The only symptom was I bruised easily. There were bruises on my hands, legs, and arms. I would wake up with itchy arms.

Kristin D.

I felt confident this wasn’t something I was going to die prematurely of because there was a treatment for it.

Kristin D.

Diagnosis

Getting the Diagnosis

Nobody in my family ever had something like this. They said it’s not genetic.

My oncologist at the University of Maryland is fantastic. He’s a real rose-colored glasses kind of guy and non-alarmist. He said there was no explanation. It wasn’t environmental, genetic, or my lifestyle.

Before treatment, they thought it was related to working at altitude all the time, but they ruled that out.

Reaction to the Diagnosis

It was frightening, but I felt confident this wasn’t something I was going to die prematurely of because there was a treatment for it.

My sister’s a nurse. She’s my right hand when it comes to looking at my test results. She’s my interpreter because a lot of that’s so foreign to me. She was also my donor.

Getting a Second Opinion

I went for a second opinion at Hopkins. The doctor recommended a book about myelofibrosis, but I could never get my hands on it.

When people say, “What were you out with?” I say it’s a kind of blood disorder. I don’t say myelofibrosis because nobody knows what it is.

Kristin D.

There was nothing else I could do, but it was up to me as to when to do it.

Kristin D.

Treatment

Discussing the Treatment Plan

Other than the transplant, there was no other treatment suggested. It was the only solution. The only option I had was when to do it.

He said that since I felt so good, I could wait a year or two or three. He said it’s better to do it when you’re young. The way I am is I want to get it done.

He said, “You’re going to need a donor. You’re going to need to take a year off work,” and that shocked me. It turned out to be a year and a half.

I block out bad stuff and bad times, but I vaguely remember there was no other option than the transplant.

Bone Marrow Biopsy

They looked at my counts and my platelet counts were getting gradually worse. They said the next step was a biopsy, which was pretty much a no-brainer.

They got the diagnosis from the bone marrow biopsies. I’ve had probably at least 10 of them in my life.

Kristin D.
Kristin D.
Preparing for the Bone Marrow Transplant

Luckily, I have two children and that’s a good thing because they said the age of the donor is important to its success.

My son was living in Maui so he wasn’t an option. I didn’t want him to interrupt his life. My daughter stepped up to the plate and said she would do it. She started going for all the visits and tests.

I didn’t match with anyone in Be The Match. They said I was 1 in 1,000,000. My sister was a match so even though she was 61 at the time, there were advantages because we were full siblings.

I was in the hospital for five weeks. It was like being in a bubble.

Going Through Transplant

I went through radiation for two days for 15 minutes on each side.

I never knew how chemo worked. You get a port and it goes right in. You don’t feel a thing. They called it the eat, drink, and be merry days.

After the chemo went in, I felt really good. I couldn’t leave the floor so I would go on the treadmill.

My nurses predicted that by around day 10, I would feel sick and wouldn’t have any energy or appetite. They were right. Everything people say about chemo is true.

I had diarrhea pretty much for two months. It was a slow healing.

In my ward at the University of Maryland, I was the youngest person there. I was amazed that older bodies could go through that.

Kristin D.
Kristin D.
Recovering from Transplant

I was in the hospital for five weeks. It was like being in a bubble. You think it’s relaxing because you can read or watch a lot of TV or movies, but they’re constantly checking on you. They get your vitals every three hours. But I got a lot of support from them. I had my designated visitors so the five weeks went by fast.

You need a caregiver. You need somebody to live with you in case you fall, to check your temperature, and to monitor you. My best friend from Indiana gave up three months of her life and came to live with me.

She was the perfect person for it. She took notes and took charge of my meds. She went with me to every appointment. She’s an incredible person.

If this comes back, when my numbers start to falter, I will do it again in a second.

Transplant Didn’t Work As Planned

When they found out I accepted only 2% of my sister’s cells, they looked at it as somewhat of a failure. I was so mad when a nurse said my transplant was a failure. I asked Dr. Rapoport, “Why did she call it a failure?” He said, “It was a bad choice of words. It didn’t work as planned. You still succeeded in getting rid of the JAK2 mutation.”

I was so upset about that because it meant my immune system was weak.

I was on VALTREX (valacyclovir). When my refill came up, I asked Dr. Rapoport, “Do I still need to be on this?” He said no. I’m in the process of getting vaccinated again.

They offered clinical trials to everybody on the floor. It required coming back to the hospital. I live an hour away and I didn’t want to do it.

Kristin D.
Kristin D.

Danielle is different than me. She investigated and talked to people who had been through it. She met a few people online who had myelofibrosis. She wanted to know where you were at this point, this point, and this point. I wanted to dive in and then forget about it.

Getting Another Transplant

They want to see me every four months. If this comes back, when my numbers start to falter, I will do it again in a second.

My best friend came with me to one of my appointments and said, “I don’t understand what’s going on with Kristin. Is she cancer-free?” A different said, “She’s never going to be cancer-free. It’s just the way it works.”

Hopkins had a way of doing things that I liked and didn’t like, but I would probably do it again there.

As far as finding another donor, I would probably go with my son because he’s young. It worked out well for my daughter and I’m sure he would do it. My sister’s 63 and if it comes back, she might be older.

My numbers have been stable. They’re not off-the-charts great, but they’re not getting worse.

Life Post-Transplant

I wasn’t allowed to vacuum. I wasn’t allowed to go anywhere without a mask. I wasn’t allowed in restaurants. I wasn’t allowed to eat anything that other people brought in.

They made me paranoid about germs, going outside, and eating anything that hadn’t been washed. No sushi, nothing undercooked, and no lunch meats. They put the fear in me. If I got sick with pneumonia or COVID, it could have been really bad because I didn’t have anything to fight that off, but I didn’t.

Follow-up

When I go to the doctor, I have a little fear, but Dr. Rapoport emphasizes that my numbers have been stable. They’re not off-the-charts great, but they’re not getting worse. He’s a great guy to deal with because he always looks on the bright side.

Kristin D.

When she said, ‘I have a tumor in my chest. It’s big and it’s near my heart,’ we started crying.

Kristin D.

Going Through Cancer with Her Daughter

Even though she’s got a wonderful guy, a mother’s instinct is to take care of her daughter, go to her treatments, and baby her and I couldn’t at those stages.

We all got through it. I thought she was going to have no energy and be chronically sick to her stomach and she didn’t. She didn’t feel great, but she was strong throughout it while I could barely get off the couch or go up and down the stairs. I don’t know if it was her age or if they did something differently with her.

She started going through all the tests that a donor needed to go through. They were confident she’d be great because she’s healthy, too.

It was Friday afternoon when she had her chest X-ray done. They took her in after the results came out and the doctor said, “You have a tumor,” and it was pretty sizable.

She called me as we were taxiing out. I wanted to know what was going on, but she said, “I’ll talk to you when you come back Sunday,” because she knew I would probably break down.

I thought she was going to tell me she couldn’t be my donor because we didn’t match. When she said, “I have a tumor in my chest. It’s big and it’s near my heart,” we started crying and saying, “This doesn’t make any sense.”

She went through the PET scan and the biopsy of the tumor. We clung on to the hope it would be benign and it wasn’t.

My daughter, who went to Hopkins, didn’t have it affect her as badly. They put her on chemo and she handled it well. She rang the bell and had a cancer-free celebration.

Kristin D.
Kristin D.

Four months after she stopped chemo, they found a lymph node. They called it hot. It showed up red on the PET scan. She was called refractory because she didn’t respond to chemo.

That was probably the worst part because I thought she was headed towards what I went through, which was hard. She’s 25. She’s supposed to be doing so many other things.

I wanted them to move in with me after she got out of the hospital and they said, “No. We’re adults. We’re going to figure this out our way.” I respect them. They didn’t need me as much as I wanted her to, but that’s a good thing.

She and her boyfriend have a great relationship. They laugh, enjoy themselves, and go for walks. They navigated their way through it. Now we’re in a state of relief. They have a great future ahead of them.

Words of Advice

I rave about Dr. Rapoport because he was positive, but there’s a lot of negativity.

You have to rely on other people to keep your spirits up. Take in all the positives. I had people come over and do puzzles with me. We’d watch Ted Lasso and I’d eat a lot of ice cream. To be without anybody that loved you or cared for you would be dark.

When I was in New York and started running a fever, I called the University of Maryland and said, “Can I come in tomorrow? Because I’m running a fever. I don’t feel that bad. I’m just running a fever and I know you don’t like that.” She said, “Get to an emergency room right now.”

I said, “Why? Why can’t I see you at eight tomorrow morning? I’ll catch the next flight.” She said, “Because the infection could go into your bloodstream.” She said this was an emergency.

I went to the emergency room and, as you know in New York, that took about six hours. They diagnosed me with pneumonia. I went on medication and got over it in a couple of weeks.

You deal with fatalistic people who are the glass is half empty. Find a positive person who points out the good things.

Kristin D.

Kristin D.
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Chance’s Stage 2 Triple-Negative Breast Cancer Story

Chance’s Stage 2 Triple-Negative Breast Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

Chance, who has a family history of cancer and tested positive for the BRCA1 gene mutation, was diagnosed with stage 2 triple-negative breast cancer at 24.

She discovered a lump in her chest during a beach trip. Despite having no other symptoms, she acted promptly and sought medical attention. After various tests, she received the official diagnosis of triple-negative breast cancer, the most aggressive form of breast cancer with limited treatment options.

She navigated chemotherapy, facing severe side effects like nausea, fatigue, and hair loss, and encountered unexpected complications while healing from her double mastectomy. Radiation therapy also presented difficulties, preventing her from undergoing breast reconstruction.

Despite the challenging journey, Chance emphasizes her gratitude for being alive. She highlights the importance of making choices that benefit one’s well-being and encouraging openness with loved ones for support.

In addition to Chance’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of breast cancer stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Chance O.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Triple-negative breast cancer (TNBC)
  • Staging:
    • 2
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Lump in breast
  • Treatment:
    • Chemotherapy: doxorubicin, cyclophosphamide, paclitaxel, carboplatin and olaparib
    • Surgery: double mastectomy, radical hysterectomy (preventive)
    • Radiation
Chance O.


This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


Introduction

I’m 27 years old and work full-time as a social worker in foster care. I’m the regional director for Louisiana and South Carolina. I love my job. I’ve been working in foster care since I graduated college and I don’t see myself doing anything else.

When I’m not working, I’m outside. I don’t care what the temperature is or what the conditions are. I’m barefoot if I can be and if it’s safe to do so, which my friends think is crazy.

I rock climb and mountain bike a lot. I go hiking. I like lying in the grass and looking at the sky.

I have a dog, a five-year-old mutt who’s the best. I’ve been in a relationship for three years. I started three months before I was diagnosed; talk about diving right into a relationship. I travel full-time with my partner. She’s a respiratory therapist so we go wherever her work is and I work from home full-time.

Chance O.

I looked down at my chest hesitantly and could see a lump sticking out of my chest. It felt like it happened overnight, which is so cliché.

Chance O.

Pre-diagnosis

Finding a Lump

I was 24 at the time with a very extensive family history of cancers. I tested positive for the BRCA1 genetic mutation years prior so I was hyper vigilant as is. I was getting scans and tests done every six months preventatively.

In January 2021, I got my MRI and everything looked great. In February, I was in Florida, having a great time. I was lying on the beach and as I went to flip over to tan the other side, I felt a sharp, surface-level pain in my chest. I thought I laid wrong or laid on a seashell or something so I went about my business. It happened again so I lifted my towel to check if something was poking me and there was nothing there.

I looked down at my chest hesitantly and could see a lump sticking out of my chest. It felt like it happened overnight, which is so cliché.

Other than that, I had no symptoms. Sometimes people look back and say, “Oh, now that I think about it, maybe this and that.” I had nothing else.

The lump was big enough for me to know that it wasn’t a cyst, a bump, or a bruise. The best way I can describe what I saw was a lot of defined edges. It was the strangest thing I’ve ever seen on my body.

Because of my family history and my BRCA1 genetic mutation, in my gut, I immediately knew. I didn’t panic. I wasn’t in denial. I knew I needed to do something about it.

Chance O.

My nurse practitioner took me seriously. She said, ‘I’m going to get you scheduled for an ultrasound. Let’s rule out the worst-case scenario.’

Chance O.
Appointment with Nurse Practitioner

I didn’t tell anybody besides the family I was with on that trip. I handled it in private for a little bit.

I called my nurse practitioner and said, “I want you to look at this. I don’t think it’s anything, but let’s take a peek.” We scheduled an appointment two weeks after I found it. Thankfully, she took me seriously and said, “We’ve got to get this looked at. It could be a cyst, but let’s double-check.” From there, I went about all of the testing and imaging that would take what felt like forever after that.

I feel like testing for breast cancer is different for everyone and, honestly, I’m going to go out and say it’s different depending on where you live and who your doctors are. Unfortunately, not everyone has access to the same scans and imaging.

My nurse practitioner took me seriously. She said, “I’m going to get you scheduled for an ultrasound. Let’s rule out the worst-case scenario.”

Testing for Breast Cancer

I went to the same imaging center where I get my scans every six months so they knew me and were familiar with my history. Usually, when I would get an ultrasound, they say, “Have a great day! We’ll see you in six months,” or, “Hey, we want to take a peek at this quickly.”

It was significantly different this time. It felt like I was the only one in the facility. It went silent. After my ultrasound, they immediately took me back for a mammogram. Then after, they immediately took me back for an MRI without even waiting for insurance approval. They said, “We’ll figure it out later,” which I thought was crazy.

I had all of those tests in one day, which is not common. You usually go about a week between each one. After I had all of those initial imaging done, three days later, I was lying on a table getting a biopsy. It’s not common for everything to happen that quickly so in my gut, I knew something wasn’t right.

Chance O.

I always thought that breast cancer is the most treatable cancer among women… I didn’t realize that there were so many subtypes of breast cancer and I got the worst one.

Chance O.

Diagnosis

Getting the Official Diagnosis

I had the biopsy on March 10, 2021. Five days later, on March 15, 2021, at 2:21 p.m. — I will never forget that time — while sitting in my grandparents’ living room, they called and said, “I have good news and bad news.” I said, “There’s no good news. What’s the bad news?” They told me I was diagnosed with stage 2 triple-negative breast cancer

At 24, and to date still, I am their youngest patient ever who’s been diagnosed with triple-negative. Now, there are people younger than me who have been diagnosed, but in my specific city, I’m still the youngest one that they’ve seen.

Learning About TNBC

I didn’t know anything about triple-negative breast cancer. As I was growing up, with my mom and her sisters having cancer, to me, cancer is cancer. Breast cancer is breast cancer. You either have breast cancer or you don’t. That’s the way that I approached it up until it happened to me.

I thought, Oh, triple negative. That’s amazing, right? Three negatives. We want that. We want negatives. I was then informed that triple-negative breast cancer is the most aggressive form of breast cancer with the least amount of treatment options. That’s the moment when I thought, Okay. This is real. My life is on the line here.

I was naive. I always thought that breast cancer is the most treatable cancer among women and all these other things you see online. I didn’t realize that there were so many subtypes of breast cancer and I got the worst one.

Chance O.

My breast surgeon sat with me for three hours and went into detail about everything I needed to know about triple-negative breast cancer.

Chance O.

I owe learning about triple-negative breast cancer to social media and my medical team. I say social media and not Google. If you’re newly diagnosed, please stay off of Google. I went straight to Google and I saw crazy stuff no one wants to read.

I turned to social media and found the Triple Negative Breast Cancer Foundation. I dove in head first and connected with a lot of people. I connected with Kelly Thomas instantly and she’s been like my big cancer sis. Five years out is the goal we want to reach. She and the whole community have been informative.

The Triple Negative Breast Cancer Foundation has great resources that I’ve utilized to learn about triple-negative breast cancer. At the end of the day, if I have a question, I go to my doctor first before anything else and then reach out if I’m unable to get the answers that I’m looking for.

Treatment

Discussing the Treatment Plan

I went in naive. I thought, Oh, it’s a tumor. You can see it. Just cut it out, right? No, not at all.

My very first appointment after being diagnosed was with an angel in human form, who is also my breast surgeon. She is the best thing that happened to me through all of this. I walked into her office scared and she sat with me for three hours and went into detail about everything I needed to know about triple-negative breast cancer. She told me I was going to need chemotherapy first and then she would do the surgery.

Then I went to my oncologist and met with the nurse practitioner. I got “chemo education” where you learn about all of the side effects, the what-could-happens, and the what-might-happens.

Chance O.

I feel very thankful for a team that cares about my life as much as I do.

Chance O.
Chemotherapy

The Tuesday after my oncologist appointment, I started my first round of chemotherapy. Thankfully, they acted very quickly with me. From the date of diagnosis to my first chemotherapy was 16 days, which is very, very uncommon. I feel very thankful for a team that cares about my life as much as I do. I have been so privileged with my medical team.

With chemotherapy, a lot of it was based on some preliminary tests. You have to get an echo to make sure your heart is strong enough. I also had a full body scan to make sure the cancer wasn’t anywhere else. I had a scan of my brain to make sure it wasn’t there. That was going to determine my chemotherapy approach.

Once they found out there was no lymph node involvement and nothing involved anywhere else, we decided to do what was considered the gold standard of triple-negative breast cancer at the time. Saying at the time makes me feel like it was so long ago but that is no longer the standard.

My regimen was four rounds of CYTOXAN (cyclophosphamide) and ADRIAMYCIN (doxorubicin), which you may hear as the Red Devil in the cancer community. I don’t refer to it as that, but some people do. I did that every other week and I thought that was going to be the end of me. It was hard on me. Thankfully, I made it through and this is when it starts to get a little tricky.

Side Effects of Chemotherapy

After those four rounds, I was supposed to move on to 12 rounds of TAXOL (paclitaxel) once a week. About four weeks in, while having an infusion, my heart started doing some crazy stuff. I thought it was a panic attack. My vitals showed otherwise and they immediately had to stop treatment.

My port sits on either side of the chest and goes into the aorta. My port catheter had migrated into my tricuspid valve. If you know anything about hearts, nothing should be in there. That’s what triggered the Afib (atrial fibrillation). But they thought it was the chemotherapy so they stopped the Taxol and switched me to carboplatin. I did that every three weeks for four weeks.

My plan didn’t go as planned, but I was still able to get a substantial amount of chemotherapy within about 16 weeks. Once the experience happened with Taxol, I had to get my port removed.

I was able to finish chemotherapy. Unfortunately, I had to have the rest of my chemo through my veins so I had to get poked every single time.

Chance O.

Towards the end of that round of chemo, I was at a point where I had to crawl to the bathroom because I had nothing left to give.

Chance O.

I want to make it very clear that these side effects are my side effects and they may not be your side effects. Every experience is significantly different. I, unfortunately, felt like I had the worst experience possible, at least with the first four rounds of chemotherapy. Adriamycin and Cytoxan is the most lethal form of chemotherapy and I felt every sense of that.

I had extreme nausea, constipation, bone pain, fatigue, low blood pressure, dizziness, and vomiting. It honestly felt like the worst hangover of your life for eight weeks straight. There were very few things that could resolve it. I couldn’t walk. I was very weak and frail.

I’ll never forget one of the most vulnerable moments for me and it makes me emotional to this day. Towards the end of that round of chemo, I was at a point where I had to crawl to the bathroom because I had nothing left to give. It broke me down.

Some things helped, thankfully. During my last infusion, I figured out to receive a different form of nausea medication and have more fluids at the time of infusion. Taking an allergy pill also helped with bone pain.

Baths helped. Anyone who knows me is going to laugh when I mention taking baths. I probably took 5 to 7 baths a day. The warmth on my body was the only thing that made me feel like I could survive.

Honestly, sleep helped. There were days when I would take a Benadryl or my sleeping medication in the morning because being asleep felt so much better than having to be awake and endure what I was enduring.

Chance O.

I rang the chemotherapy bell on August 8, 2021, and I thought the hardest part was behind me.

Chance O.

The second cycle of chemotherapies was night and day. I was able to work full-time. My hair started growing back. I was dizzy and I didn’t feel great, but for having chemicals pumped into me, I felt pretty good so that was a huge relief.

I didn’t have to change anything. I didn’t have to seek out any additional measures to feel comfortable and maybe it’s because I was comparing it to the first round. The second round felt like a breeze.

I didn’t look great. I was incredibly skinny. I was very pale and had big black circles around my eyes. I was bald pretty much, but I felt a lot better than I did initially.

I rang the chemotherapy bell on August 8, 2021, and I thought the hardest part was behind me. That’s what you see online. Chemotherapy is the hardest and if you can get through that, you can get through anything. I wish that’s how my story went.

Surgery

Double Mastectomy

After chemotherapy, I went in for surgery on August 30, 2021. The plan was a double mastectomy, lymph node dissection for testing purposes, and expanders to stretch out my skin to eventually get implants.

All went to plan. Everything was looking great. I had to stay in the hospital overnight. 

Complications from Surgery

When I woke up the second day, my chest was black. My skin was black. It was actively dying.

My team came in and explained that there was a dye that was used called methylene blue dye, which allows your surgeon to trace the cancer or for testing purposes. What ended up happening was that I was allergic to it.

We had to take the expanders out. On September 4th, I went back in for surgery. I was flat, which I was okay with. I was thinking I’ll get my expanders eventually. We needed to let my chest heal. It was black. There was no guarantee that my skin was going to recover. Thankfully, it did.

Chance O.

I feel comfortable in my body. It doesn’t look the way that I imagined it would at 27 years old, but I’m alive.

Chance O.

On September 14th, I had to have a third surgery because I developed a hematoma, which is uncommon to develop 10 days later. It was big enough that it looked like I had breast tissue.

This is a testament to my medical team. I called my breast surgeon in the middle of the day, not thinking anything would happen. At 10 o’clock that night, a bunch of people volunteered to come in and do the surgery, solely because they knew I was uncomfortable.

It wasn’t an emergency and I wasn’t in medical distress. I overemphasized how uncomfortable it was and that was enough for them to rally the troops and do my surgery that night, which felt incredible. Again, I felt privileged. I thought, Okay, the worst is over. I’m good. It’s going to heal. I’ll get my expanders.

Where my skin turned black, a tiny little piece of my expander was able to break through the skin and that part of my chest never recovered. That was a long, drawn-out process of staples, stitches, glue, a wound VAC, and all of these other things. It eventually closed.

By the time it closed, it was time for radiation. We’re thinking we’ll do radiation and do the reconstruction after.

Radiation

Radiation didn’t go to plan either. It was really hard on me. Radiation can be different for everyone, but in the context of my surgery, the radiation affected my skin. The scar that we finally got healed broke open again. There were a bunch of delays and a bunch of little things that happened in between.

All that to say, I never got reconstruction because my skin was not in a position to do so. It may be in a few years, but to be quite honest with you, I’m very happy with what I have now.

Even if my surgeon called me and said, “You can get implants right now,” I would say no. I feel comfortable in my body. It doesn’t look the way that I imagined it would at 27 years old, but I’m alive, and being alive outweighs anything that my body could look like. It was a crazy experience.

Preventative Surgery

Total Hysterectomy

On October 12, 2021, I had a total hysterectomy. My mother passed away from ovarian cancer in 2011 so it was an option given to me as a preventative measure. Again, that’s a conversation that individuals need to have with their medical team, but that was a decision that I made for myself.

Thankfully, that healing was textbook perfect. I handled that very well and recovered very well.

Chance O.

There are plenty of babies in this world that need me and I need them. I just don’t know them yet.

Chance O.
Fertility Preservation Before Cancer Treatment

Fertility was one of the first conversations I had with my medical oncologist. Being so young, he said, “We need to get you started on fertility treatments. You’re so young,” and I stopped him mid-conversation. I said, “I don’t want to proceed with that.”

He said, “This is a lot. Go home. Think about it.” He said this all out of kindness and stepped into dad mode. “Sleep on it. We can talk about it. We can educate you on it.”

There’s nothing to think about. Ever since my mom died, since I found out that I was BRCA1 positive, and since I’ve worked in foster care, I’ve never wanted to have children of my own. There are plenty of babies in this world that need me and I need them. I just don’t know them yet. It’s never crossed my mind.

I will say though, in a moment of vulnerability, do I grieve the loss of having my own children? Absolutely. But I know what it’s like to lose your mom in childhood and I’m going to do everything I can to prevent my children from enduring that same thing. If that means not having them biologically, then count me in.

Follow-up Protocol

November 2023 puts me at almost three years since diagnosis, which is crazy to me. I see my medical oncologist every 3 to 4 months, which seems to be on par with the community. I don’t get any scans unless there’s a reason to do so.

I get a Signatera test. It’s a very new development. It’s a cool test. They take your initial tumor DNA, draw your blood, and match it to your current blood DNA to see if there’s any circulating tumor DNA in your blood.

I’m not convinced that I trust it 1,000%, but for me, the reason we do that is that my tumor markers are not reliable. When I was diagnosed with cancer, it was a 9 and it’s been 9 ever since, even though I currently don’t have cancer so it doesn’t provide us accurate information to use it for determining reoccurrence.

I get a bone density test every two years because I had a hysterectomy and estrogen is what fuels healthy bones. I still see my gynecologist once a year to make sure that the fluid in that area is free of cancer.

I see my breast surgeon every six months or once a year to check on scarring. She does an exam and checks my chest wall, my armpits, and my neck. She is a true angel.

I see my team often and I plan to do so until I hit the golden five-year mark in the triple-negative breast cancer community.

Chance O.

Not having my mom with me to experience all of this was hard, but I was surrounded by my grandparents, my partner, really good friends, and my family. I felt very, very privileged to be loved so well.

Chance O.

Words of Advice

My biggest piece of encouragement is something that I’ve had to learn and now learning: there’s no wrong choice in your treatment. Sometimes you think of making the right or the wrong choice. I want to encourage you to understand that there’s no wrong choice. You may have to make a different choice if you don’t like the choice that you made at first.

I don’t like using the words right and wrong. There’s so much pressure with that, especially when it comes to your life. Instead, I encourage you to say, “What choice can I make right now that benefits me in this moment?” You have the autonomy and the privilege to make another choice if that choice doesn’t work out.

I was surrounded by amazing people. Not having my mom with me to experience all of this was hard, but I was surrounded by my grandparents, my partner, really good friends, and my family. I felt very, very privileged to be loved so well.

As time passed and as we had more open conversations about my journey, I asked them if there was something I could have done differently.

The only thing they said was that they wished I didn’t try to save them while I was saving myself. I withheld a lot of hurt, pain, and diagnosis information from them because I wanted to keep them as blind as possible to what was going on.

It wasn’t lost on me that that was just as hard for them. They watched my mom die and I’m sure that it was very triggering for them. I look just like my mom. I talk and act like my mom. I’m sure there were a lot of moments where it was like, “Oh no, is this going to repeat itself?”

If you’re newly diagnosed or in the thick of it, I encourage you to let your people in. They want to hurt with you. They want to be scared with you. I promise you, it’s way less scary if you allow people to be scared with you.

Chance O.

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Amelia L., IDC, Stage 1, ER/PR+, HER2-



Symptom: Lump found during self breast exam

Treatments: TC chemotherapy; lumpectomy, double mastectomy, reconstruction; Tamoxifen

Rachel Y., IDC, Stage 1B



Symptoms: None; caught by delayed mammogram

Treatments: Double mastectomy, neoadjuvant chemotherapy, hormone therapy Tamoxifen
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Rach D., IDC, Stage 2, Triple Positive



Symptom: Lump in right breast

Treatments: Neoadjuvant chemotherapy, double mastectomy, targeted therapy, hormone therapy
Caitlin

Caitlin J., IDC, Stage 2B, ER/PR+



Symptom: Lump found on breast

Treatments: Lumpectomy, AC/T chemotherapy, radiation, hormone therapy (Lupron & Anastrozole)

Joy R., IDC, Stage 2, Triple Negative



Symptom: Lump in breast

Treatments: Chemotherapy, double mastectomy, hysterectomy

Erica C., DCIS, Stage 0



Symptoms: Indeterminate calcifications found on a routine mammogram
Treatment: Double mastectomy
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Margaret A., IDC & DCIS, Stage 2B



Symptoms: Pain in left breast, left nipple inverting

Treatments: Double mastectomy, chemotherapy (AC-T), radiation

Alison R., Partially Differentiated DCIS, Stage 4 Metastatic



Cancer details: Triple positive = positive for HER2, estrogen receptor (ER), progesterone receptor (PR)
1st Symptoms: Lump in underarm/breast
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Natalie W., DCIS, Stage 0, ER+; Paget’s Disease



Symptom: Lump in right breast

Treatments: Lumpectomy, double subcutaneous mastectomy, hormone therapy (tamoxifen)
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Symptoms: Pain in left breast, left nipple inverting

Treatments: Double mastectomy, chemotherapy (AC-T), radiation
Tina C., DCIS & LCIS, Stage 3A, ER+



Symptom: Sunken in nipple of right breast

Treatments: Double mastectomy, chemotherapy (AC-T), radiation, hormone therapy (tamoxifen, Zoladex)

Cat L., IDC & DCIS, Stage 2B, ER+



Symptom: Pain in left breast radiating from lump

Treatments: Bilateral mastectomy, chemotherapy, hormone therapy (tamoxifen)
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LaShae R., IDC & DCIS, Stage 2B, ER+



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MPN myelofibrosis Patient Stories Treatments

Joseph’s Myelofibrosis Story

Joseph’s Myelofibrosis Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

Joseph, a 76-year-old man who maintains an active lifestyle, shares his journey with myelofibrosis, a rare bone marrow cancer.

Initially unaware of his condition, his low hemoglobin levels prompted a visit to a hematologist and a gastroenterologist, which eventually led to a hospital admission when a nurse noticed that he was symptomatic.

After his oncologist diagnosed him with myelofibrosis, he found out that there was no cure. Hesitant about undergoing a transplant, Joseph explored alternative options, eventually joining a clinical trial at Mount Sinai. The trial, which involved the drug pacritinib, became a vital part of his treatment plan.

Despite initial challenges, Joseph’s health started to improve. His hemoglobin levels stabilized and he found success on the clinical trial. The treatment being studied was pacritinib, later known as VONJO, which later received FDA approval.

Throughout his journey, Joseph experienced changes in spleen size and fluctuations in appetite. Despite these challenges, his hemoglobin and platelet levels improved significantly.

Joseph emphasizes the importance of seeking specialized medical care, encouraging others to research and choose healthcare providers wisely, and stressing the importance of self-advocacy and education in navigating medical challenges.

In addition to Joseph’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of myeloproliferative neoplasm (MPN) stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Joseph C.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Myelofibrosis
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • None; caught at routine blood work
  • Treatment:
    • Clinical trial: VONJO (pacritinib)
Joseph C.

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I’m 76 years old. I go to the gym seven days a week. I ride a bicycle for two hours every day then I come home.

I’ve always run and walked my whole life. I’ve been in sports for decades. I’ve played football, basketball, tennis, and ran track. I do all of these things to keep myself active.

Joseph C.
Joseph C.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

When we came back from a vacation, I got a call from my primary physician who said my hemoglobin was 6. I didn’t know what that meant. He told me to make an appointment with a hematologist and go to a gastroenterologist to see if I could get a colonoscopy.

At the appointment with the gastroenterologist, the nurse looked at me and said, “You look symptomatic. I think you should go to the hospital.”

I went home, picked up my wife, and went to the hospital. By the time I got admitted and got into a bed, my hemoglobin was 5. They gave me a couple of pints of blood and I stayed overnight.

Diagnosis

Getting the Official Diagnosis

I met Dr. Samir Patel of New York Cancer & Blood Specialists. He told me I had myelofibrosis. When I went home, I looked it up and found out that there was no cure.

When I went back to see him, he said, “Make an appointment to go to Mount Sinai Hospital in Manhattan and talk to a surgeon regarding a transplant.”

Joseph C.

They told me I was in good enough shape to do the transplant, but I didn’t want to put my family through all of that.

Joseph C.

Treatment

Discussing Treatment Options

I shied away from a transplant. I knew a little bit about it so it wasn’t something I wanted to entertain. I asked him, “What’s the alternative?” He said, “Another part of the team has a trial program that you can try.”

I told myself that the trial program is the nucleus. I’m going to roll the dice and see what happens. I don’t know what the answer will be.

They told me I was in good enough shape to do the transplant, but I didn’t want to put my family through all of that.

We were going to Mount Sinai once every three months and it was a headache. If we had to do that 3 or 4 times a week, I don’t know what would’ve happened. It’s too much pressure.

I know from my experience that a trial is what it says, it’s a trial. They don’t know what the answer is going to be.

Enrolling in a Clinical Trial

I saw Dr. John Mascarenhas, who introduced me to the trial. He told me that this is about the third trial they’ve had so far and 70% of the people do well. I didn’t ask how the other 30% do, but I said, “I’m going to try it.”

He asked me a bunch of questions, which was always interesting because they asked me these questions all the time. Do you have bone pain? Do you have sweats? Do you have this? Do you have that? I said, “I don’t have anything. If you didn’t tell me I was sick, I would just think I’m old.”

Joseph C.

The drug seems to be working for 70%, is what he told me and 70% is pretty good if you ask me.

Joseph C.
Deciding to Join a Clinical Trial

I know from my experience that a trial is what it says, it’s a trial. They don’t know what the answer is going to be. They’re going to take the results and compare it at the end. That’s what it means to me.

I said, “The transplant is not the answer. I don’t want that. What other option is there?” They said this is the option and this is what I did.

The paperwork was pretty much done by Mount Sinai. I had to sign at the end. I don’t remember what the details were.

Everybody’s going to be different. The trial is a trial. The drug seems to be working for 70%, is what he told me and 70% is pretty good if you ask me.

Joining the Pacritinib Clinical Trial

I started to do the trial. For the first year or so, the medicine was working but not working. I was producing red blood cells, but they weren’t staying.

I would get a transfusion and my hemoglobin would go up maybe one point per pint. If I went there with a 7, I come out and have a 10, but in 10 days, I’d be back to 7. That was what happened for a while.

All of a sudden, I had my last transfusion on September 15, 2021. Things started to kick in. My hemoglobin is now 14.9 and has been pretty steady between 13 and 14. Dr. Mascarenhas said I was famous in Mount Sinai and was like a poster child.

Pacritinib Receives FDA Approval

He told me the trial was going to end in January 2023. The drug got approved and is now known as VONJO. Everything was great. “But as of January 23rd, you’re off the trial,” he said.

Joseph C.
Joseph C.
Getting Financial Support for Treatment

I didn’t know how much the drug cost. I found out that it costs $22,000 a month. I got in touch with Mount Sinai and they gave me a grant.

Then I got in touch with the drug company and I qualified for an exemption. In case the grant isn’t good, the drug company will pick up the rest.

I’m under the assumption it’s for the rest of my life. This pill is keeping me alive so to speak.

Side Effects

For whatever reason, at one point in time, my spleen was getting bigger. I took this and then it shrunk by 65%. I don’t feel any different anywhere. He said I didn’t have to do anything. Maybe it’s the medicine. I couldn’t tell you, honestly. They told me it was large and then it shrunk.

They asked me about my food intake. I said it depends. Even up to now, some food tastes good and some food doesn’t taste so great to me. My appetite is good if it’s something that tastes good. If it’s something that I’ve had before and it was good then, sometimes it’s not so good now so I don’t eat as much.

I have a big appetite, but there are days when it doesn’t interest me to eat anything. It’s hard to say. Give me Italian food, I’ll sit and eat all day. Give me something else, maybe not.

With the hemoglobin and the platelets, my hemoglobin was at 5 and my platelets were at 2. Now my hemoglobin is at 14.9 and my platelets were 186 the last time I checked. But the platelets fluctuate. They’re not as steady as hemoglobin for some reason.

Joseph C.

For whatever reason, at one point in time, my spleen was getting bigger. I took [pacritinib] and then it shrunk by 65%.

Joseph C.
Being on Pacritinib Long-Term

This is my third year on pacritinib. They haven’t said, but I’m under the assumption it’s for the rest of my life. This pill is keeping me alive so to speak. My red blood cells have been pretty steady for almost a year and a half now so I’m thinking that the pill is the answer.

If I needed to have a transplant, I probably would have done it.

Importance of Seeing a Specialist

My primary care physician sent me to see an oncologist. I picked somebody based on somebody else’s experience who gave me some feedback as to where to go.

The oncologist and I discussed the scenario. He said, “You need to speak to a surgeon who does transplants,” and laid it on the line that this is what you need to do if you want to stay alive.

When I went and spoke to the surgeon, who was part of Dr. Mascarenhas’ team, he gave me a booklet to read and told me how the transplant works.

If I needed to have a transplant, I probably would have done it, but they gave me the clinical trial option and I decided to take it.

Joseph C.

Be educated with what you have.

Joseph C.

Being Physically Active

I do a Marcum Workplace run through my employer. I’ve also done a run for breast cancer. My wife had breast cancer so I’m all for the walk.

I’ve done a Michael Murphy Run in Long Island. I’ve done that for the last eight years. He was in the Navy and passed away in Afghanistan. He’s from our high school. Both sons went there and that place is loaded with Michael Murphy memorabilia.

I don’t run; I walk. I don’t walk as fast as I used to. I get there at 6:00 a.m. and park in the handicapped spot. I walk from the bus stop to the lake and go back and forth until I reach the four-mile mark on my watch then I stop. By then, it’s 8:00 a.m. The race hasn’t started yet and I’m already done. I can’t leave because all the roads are closed so I sit and wait, listen to music, or have a bagel.

Do exercise. Diet is another issue, but I think exercise is key to being in shape. If that helps you with this issue, God bless you.

Importance of Self-Advocacy

Go and check out the doctor that you go to see. Check out their credentials. Read the reviews. You might find some things that you don’t want to know or things that you want to know. It’s good to compare before making these decisions.

It’s important to be active. If somebody tells you something, you need to look it up and see what you can find. There are a lot of things out there. There are a lot of people out there who don’t know much about medical stuff and they listen to what somebody tells them. You need to be educated with what you have.

Joseph C.

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Stacy S.

Stacy S.



Diagnosis: Myelofibrosis with CALR and ASXL1 mutations
Symptoms: Fatique, cold hands and feet
Treatment: Agrylin (for thrombocythemia), Ruxolitinib (Jakafi), Fedratinib (INREBIC), stem cell transplant
Ruth R. Diagnosis: Myeloproliferative Neoplasms (MPN) Treatment: Chemotherapy, Bone marrow biopsy, clinical trial
Natalia's Myelofibrosis Story
Natalia A. Diagnosis: Myelofibrosis Symptoms: Anemia, fatigue, weakness, shortness of breath Treatment: Phlebotomies, iron pills, blood transfusion

Mary L.



Diagnosis: Myelofibrosis (MPN)
1st Symptoms: Fatigue, extreme dizziness (later diagnosed as vertigo)
Treatment: Pegasys, hydroxyurea (current)
Kristin D.

Kristin D.



Symptoms: None; caught at routine blood work
Treatment: Stem cell transplant

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Patient Events

Disputing Cancer Care Costs

How to Dispute Cancer Care Costs

A Practical Approach to Disputing Cancer Care Expenses, Backed by Experts and Real Patient Experiences

Edited by:
Katrina Villareal

Navigating the costs of cancer treatment can be overwhelming. This live conversation provides practical tips from experts and real cancer patients on understanding your health insurance, finding financial assistance programs, knowing your rights to appeal insurance decisions, and reducing financial toxicity.

In this conversation, we’ll explore the fundamentals of health insurance, emphasizing the importance of reading and understanding your policy, including basic insurance terms. Discover your rights as a cancer patient, learn strategies for appealing insurance decisions, and explore avenues for applying for financial assistance.

Hear from Abigail Johnson, a stage 4 metastatic breast cancer patient advocate, and attorney, Gregory Proctor, a multiple myeloma patient advocate, and Monica Fawzy Bryant, a cancer rights attorney and co-founder of Triage Cancer, as they share real-world experiences, health insurance tips, and strategies for tackling financial toxicity to help you navigate the financial aspects of cancer treatment. This live conversation took place in November 2023.


This interview has been edited for clarity and length. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Managing Cancer Care Costs

Introduction

Abigail Johnson: Hello, everyone, and welcome to a discussion of how to dispute cancer care costs sponsored by The Patient Story and including representatives of patients experiencing this individually, as well as a representative from Triage Cancer.

The Patient Story’s tagline is Human Answers to Your Cancer Questions. Founded by a cancer survivor who took her love of storytelling and producing videos, they assist people in the cancer community to get that all-important peer support and information about how other people have handled something that you as an individual might be facing yourself.

Without further ado, I want to get to the amazing people that we have talking about this very human issue, which is getting your cancer care costs covered.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Gregory Proctor: My name is Gregory Proctor. I’m a multiple myeloma survivor diagnosed back in July 2021. In the early stages, it was very overwhelming and very impactful not only emotionally but physically. Coming from a project management background, one of the things was trying to figure out how to navigate.

Information is not easily found in a lot of cases because if you Google things, you tend to get the bad before you get the good. But overall, my professional experience as well as having friends and family to help me move this forward has provided an overall successful outcome.

I’m proud to say that I’m still MRD negative, thriving, in remission, and continuing to flourish and be an advocate.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Monica Bryant: My name is Monica Bryant. I’m a cancer rights attorney and co-founder and chief operating officer for Triage Cancer, which is a national nonprofit dedicated to providing free education on legal and practical issues that arise after a cancer diagnosis. We provide education to the individuals who have been diagnosed, their caregivers, and healthcare professionals who are often on the front lines of getting these questions.

Abigail: Thank you, Monica. Y’all wrote the book on cancer and the law. What’s the name of that again?

Monica: It’s Cancer Rights Law and it is published by the American Bar Association.

It isn’t written for lawyers because we wanted to make sure that it was written in a way that was accessible for anybody to be able to access it — whether it’s the person who’s been diagnosed, their caregivers, lawyers who are trying to help out, or healthcare professionals. It’s written in a way that anybody should be able to pick it up, regardless of whether or not they have a law degree.

Abigail: I enjoyed reading it very much.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Like Monica, I’m also a lawyer, and in 2017, I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. I was 38 and it was, to put it nicely, a bombshell that went off in our lives and has changed everything since that has happened.

I’m working on getting into a clinical trial, which will be my sixth line of treatment. With breast cancer, because it’s a solid tumor, we don’t go into remission. That’s not necessarily a status or a goal for us. It doesn’t necessarily apply to our experience.

There can be no evidence of disease or, in my case, no evidence of active disease. I have been able to get to that point at least once in the last six years but I’m back getting a new treatment. For us with metastatic breast cancer, we go from treatment to treatment to treatment. There are a few that can go off treatment for some time.

I’m learning to adjust to being a professional patient, I like to call myself, because managing cancer itself can be a full-time job and that’s why discussions like this are very important because our quality of life, and Gregory alluded to this, is very much tied to not just how the cancer cells are being controlled in our bodies by the medication but also impacted by how we can get to that treatment, whether it’s literal transportation to get to that treatment or being able to afford cancer treatment.

Here in the US, cancer is quite the machine in a lot of ways. There are a lot of different players and moving parts. Our goal is hopefully to illuminate some of those moving parts, at least when it comes to covering the cost of cancer care.

Managing cancer itself can be a full-time job.

Abigail Johnson
Managing Cancer Care Costs

Health Insurance

Abigail: This concept of covering cancer care a lot of times boils down to insurance. In my experience, being on a private insurance plan through my husband’s employment as well as Medicare, the first thing that I always talk to people about is getting a copy of the insurance contract. That can be daunting for a lot of people because these contracts can be 200 or 300 pages long. They are written by lawyers and many clauses can be super complicated.

If this seems daunting, intimidating, and confusing, it is. It absolutely is. It is for the professionals that are working in this arena. Getting your insurance contract, whether you have a government-sponsored insurance policy, whether you’re working with the Veterans Affairs and have coverage there, whether it’s Medicare, some documents explain what is covered.

When it’s private insurance, it is a literal contract between you and the insurance company, and it spells out what they’re going to do and not do. In my experience, there are about 10 pages that are vital for me to know out of the 300-page long contract. I have those pages highlighted, bookmarked, saved, and written all over.

I continually go back to those pages to see the clauses and the language that govern what my insurance company is supposed to do. I set my expectations based on what my insurance company is supposed to do, and then I know if they have or not.

It’s important to know what tier your medication falls in because that impacts the cost of your copay.

Abigail Johnson

Many times, a medication, a surgery, or a procedure has to have prior authorization. The medical professional has to get with the insurance company and say, “We want to do X,” and the insurance company has to look over that and opine whether or not that is medically necessary. I won’t get started about how that is practicing medicine on the part of the insurance company, but that’s the system that we have.

My insurance company has 24 hours to respond to a prior authorization request from my medical team. That’s important for me to know because if there’s a delay, I can call the insurance company and say, “My doctor sent you a fax 48 hours ago. You had 24 hours to respond. This needs to rise to the top. You need to deal with this right away because you’ve not responded in the timeline that we anticipate.”

That’s one example of how knowing what my policy says, who’s supposed to do what, and when they’re supposed to do that helps me set my expectations. I’m not fussing at my doctor’s office if it’s not their responsibility and I’m not fussing at the insurance company if my doctor hasn’t done what they’re supposed to do. Knowing when they have not done what they’re supposed to do, I can bring that to their attention and that means that will become more of a priority for my insurance company.

It’s important to know what tier your medication falls in because that impacts the cost of your copay. These are examples of things that are important to know about your insurance policy so that you know how to navigate that.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Gregory: I’ve worked with a lot of attorneys in my professional career, but I’m not one. I have always been a professional. I make my premium payment and expect that coverages are going to be there when I need them. Until something traumatic or something like cancer knocks on your door, you don’t realize the implications that you’re faced with.

We contacted my insurance company and they said, “Okay, we’re going to be able to help you move and navigate through this,” with all of the empathy and compassion that they try to give.

I’m 2 ½-3 months into treatment. I’m paying my $1,000 premium and doing everything I need to do, but I’m burning $22,500 a week. The billing department for my oncologist calls and says, “Mr. Proctor, we’re at a point where you’re a quarter of $1 million. We’re going to have to stop your treatment. Your insurance company hasn’t paid.”

I’m sitting here flabbergasted. I’m trying to fight for my life. I’m several months into my treatment and my doctor hasn’t received a single dollar from my private healthcare insurance. At that moment, I realized it wasn’t just about me fighting cancer. Now I’ve got to engage in something that you expect would be covered.

For me and my family, we had to turn the switch on and get laser-focused. Now it’s not just about the financial implications, insurance, and survival. We’ve got to look at all three with a critical eye.

Having the knowledge and knowing what to do with that knowledge to be able to save your life, save money, and avoid some of those pitfalls is extremely important.

Gregory Proctor

I had to contact the insurance company and say, “I need to see the full contract. I need to understand why you guys are not paying my doctor.” Their reason at that time was, “We have to go through an audit, Mr. Proctor. You’ve been healthy. You’ve never had any type of circumstance like this come along and then all of a sudden, now you go from 0 to $22,500 a week.”

To me, that wasn’t an excuse. I said, “I’ve never missed a premium. I’ve never missed a payment. I need this to occur for me on my behalf because I’ve done what I needed to do.”

Everyone comes from a different walk of life and sometimes knowing what to do as well as knowing how to do it becomes extremely important. One of the things that was formidably important for my wife and me was taking all of my project management experience and applying it to myself as the project so that we could cover all of the gaps.

As they always say, knowledge is power. In this particular case, having the knowledge and knowing what to do with that knowledge to be able to save your life, save money, and avoid some of those pitfalls is extremely important.

In most cases, those are not things that you think about when you’re thrown into the tsunami of cancer. You’re thinking how to get from day to day, from week to week. There’s a lot more involved and it all embodies getting yourself educated.

Abigail: Thank you for all of that, Gregory. You’re coming to this with all of the information and experience that you have. You’re going to do it as a project manager because that’s your background. Who you are, your strengths, and how you solve problems is going to be key.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Understanding Insurance Terms

Abigail: Monica, what are the top things that patients need to know when they’re looking at their insurance contract or how to get cancer care covered?

Monica: There are some things that people really should understand about their insurance long before there’s ever a diagnosis or a serious medical situation. But the unfortunate reality is that in this country, health insurance is confusing. There are going to be differences depending on the source of that insurance, whether that’s government insurance, through an employer, or a policy someone purchased on their own.

Based on studies that have been done, only about 4% of Americans understand the four most common terms used in health insurance policies. People don’t even understand the words. We’re not even talking about complex legalese here. We’re talking about the basic words because we’re never taught what those words mean.

There is an amount someone pays monthly to have health insurance and that’s the monthly premium. They’re going to pay that amount whether they go to the doctor or not. It’s like having car insurance all year but never getting into an accident.

Once someone starts utilizing their health care, there are going to be some additional costs and those costs are going to depend on the policy. Most policies have an annual deductible, a fixed dollar amount that someone has to pay before health insurance kicks in. Someone could have a $500 deductible or a $5,000 deductible. It’s all going to depend on the plan.

Once they’ve met that deductible, insurance kicks in and pays a percentage. That percentage is referred to as the cost share or the coinsurance. Here’s where it gets tricky because we have multiple names for the same thing. Cost share and coinsurance are the same thing, and that’s a percentage. If someone has an 80/20 plan, once they meet their deductible, insurance kicks in at 80%, but they’re still responsible for 20%. And when the treatment is expensive, 20% is still a huge dollar figure.

Based on studies that have been done, only about 4% of Americans understand the four most common terms used in health insurance policies.

Monica Fawzy Bryant

In addition to that percentage, many plans have copayments, which is a fixed dollar amount that is going to depend on the policy and also potentially on the service. Someone could have a $25 copayment to see the doctor, a $35 copayment to see a specialist, or a $250 copayment to go to the E.R. Figuring that out could be complicated.

The most important thing for every single person to know about their health insurance policy is if there’s an out-of-pocket maximum and what is it. Because in theory, that’s the most that someone is going to pay out of pocket for their care if they go to in-network providers for the year.

Understanding that allows us to figure out what you are going to have to be responsible for out of pocket in a worst-case scenario. The way you get to your out-of-pocket maximum depends on the plan, but often it involves adding up everything you’re paying towards your deductible, your copayments, and your coinsurance. It’s everything you’re paying out of pocket except the monthly premiums.

The reason this is so important on the front end is when people are making choices around their health insurance. We have the opportunity to do that every single year now, thanks to the Affordable Care Act and a whole bunch of other laws.

To be an effective shopper and consumer of health insurance, you have to understand those terms and be able to do the math concerning your out-of-pocket maximum.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Gregory: For me, that’s key. I always maintain a pretty healthy lifestyle. I don’t want to have to come up with $15,000 as a deductible. If I’m healthy and I still feel pretty good, I can go with a little less coverage. You take a little bit more risk.

I was diagnosed at the age of 50, which was not the best year to be diagnosed with multiple myeloma. The older I got, I began to get laser-focused in my mindset as it relates to my family of four and my insurance.

At the age of 50, I’m more susceptive to all of these things that maybe I don’t want to think about, but I need to be in a position to ensure that I’m covered holistically without any repercussions.

Abigail: It’s amazing how expensive everything is. One of the things about cancer treatment is the medication and prescription drug costs, which can be complicated. When you’re put on medication by your doctor, they don’t always tell you the price tag upfront. In the breast cancer world, many of the medications that we take will cost our insurance companies between $14,000 and $20,000 per month.

Managing Cancer Care Costs

Copay Assistance Programs

Abigail: In the context of private insurance, there are often copay assistance programs, which pharmacists will often help patients apply for. These programs are offered by the drug manufacturers or pharmaceutical companies. They will also have foundations sometimes. But depending on your insurance, these programs apply differently.

For myself, having a private policy means I’m eligible for copay assistance programs. Those copays go from hundreds of dollars a month to zero, oftentimes depending on which tier of medication you’re on.

My friends who transitioned to Medicare are surprised to notice that those copay assistance programs are not always possible when you’re on Medicare and that’s where those foundations do come into play as well.

Gregory, how has that affected you in terms of paying for your medication and working with the VA, where your primary insurance is?

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Gregory: I was in a unique category. I had private healthcare insurance with a national provider when I was first diagnosed. I had been away from the government programs for many years. Since I’d gotten out of the Navy, I hadn’t utilized any of their benefits.

I started going through this process and all of this funding that you don’t account for starts to show up at my doorstep. Blood work for $16,000, a test for $15,000, and I wondered what insurance is truly covering if these bills are showing up.

I was very lethargic and incoherent for five days a week for three and a half months because I was on chemo for five days a week, 6 to 8 hours per day, which was tough.

Once I finally got to the point of reckoning and saying it was time to get a hold of this situation, I found out that there are subsidy programs. Sometimes they’re publicly known, other times they’re not, particularly if you don’t ask. We started pulling our energy into how could we tap into maybe a program to be able to give us a grant and move forward.

On record today, I’ve spent $2.65 million. Navigating that journey was not easy… It’s overwhelming. You’ve got to get other people involved to help be your eyes and ears

Gregory Proctor

With private healthcare, there’s a little bit of leniency. By the time I was approved for government healthcare being a prior veteran, I couldn’t utilize those programs. It was a very delicate balancing act to ensure that going forward, I would be able to reap all of the potential benefits that I could not afford out of my pocket to maximize my overall primary care going forward.

Because on record today, I’ve spent $2.65 million. Navigating that journey was not easy. But certainly, you have to get laser-focused because no one is going to do it for you.

It’s overwhelming. You’ve got to get other people involved to help be your eyes and ears, to help address the questions of who, what, where, when, and how. Sometimes when you’re getting information from the doctors, you don’t want to accept the reality. Acceptance is always the key to making the first step in the progress of being able to battle and weather the storm.

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Abigail: You have personally spent $2.65 million or your insurance company has spent that?

Gregory: I love to throw that number out there because people always say, “Oh my, what happened?” For clarification, that’s the running total. When you think about that number and go back to what Monica said. Whether you’re 70/30, 80/20, or 60/40, part of that expense is coming from you as the patient.

When you step into the throes of dealing with cancer, these are the things that you have to get laser-focused on very early on. Are you going to be successful coming out of the back side of this? Are you going to be bankrupt or dealing with the overall financial toxicity of what it does to you and how it changes your life?

Abigail: Thank you for that. Those are big numbers. Mine’s a little over $3 million so I’m tracking with you. I have not spent $3 million keeping me alive, but certainly between my family and the insurance company.

Monica: Thank you for your service, Gregory. I’m glad that the VA was helpful in this process for you because it’s deserved.

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Financial Assistance for Cancer Patients

Abigail: Monica, would you like to talk a little bit more about financial assistance and how patients can go about getting help to cover their portion of these costs?

Monica: With respect to getting financial assistance, I would say don’t start there. That should not be step one when you see the big bills come in because there isn’t a whole lot to go around. As you both alluded to, there are some barriers depending on the type of insurance that somebody has.

Before someone goes down the path of trying to apply for financial assistance, there are some steps to take. Did the insurance company cover what they’re supposed to cover? That requires making sure you’ve waited until you’ve gotten your explanation of benefits, which is the letter from the health insurance saying this is what we’re going to cover and this is what you potentially owe. It’s about keeping track of your out-of-pocket maximums.

If someone understands what their out-of-pocket maximum is and what’s included in their out-of-pocket maximum, it can help them figure out how much they need from financial assistance. A lot of times, people get those prescription drug bills and don’t realize the prescription drug benefits are included. It doesn’t matter what their insurance company will pay or not. If you’ve hit your out-of-pocket maximum, they’re responsible for 100% of it.

Unfortunately, some additional steps fall into the laps of patients and family members before getting financial assistance.

Do a deep dive into what’s out there and what’s available. Even among the pharmaceutical companies, there might be different programs.

Monica Fawzy Bryant

With financial assistance, oftentimes people get tunnel vision when they’re thinking about sources of help. Abigail, you mentioned how expensive your monthly prescription drug is.

How am I going to get money? How am I going to get assistance to pay for that prescription drug? I’m on Medicare so I don’t have access to the same pharmaceutical programs that I did. What am I going to do now?

Are there other places you could potentially get help? Could you get mortgage assistance, utility assistance, or other types of financial assistance and then shift the money around? Anything that you set aside to pay for the mortgage or student loans can get shifted to help pay for prescription drugs.

Do a deep dive into what’s out there and what’s available. Even among the pharmaceutical companies, there might be different programs. Some companies can provide free drugs, some companies can provide assistance to pay copays. They all have different programs. Figuring that out is daunting.

At TriageCancer.org, we have a chart that lists most of the major cancer drugs, the pharmaceutical companies that make those drugs, and the various programs that they have to try to make it a little less daunting to go down the Google rabbit hole because that is stressful by itself.

You can look for other types of financial assistance or grants that might be out there based on the type of cancer you’ve been diagnosed with. Sometimes there’s even financial assistance for family members who might be acting as caregivers. We have a tool called Cancer Finances that has pulled those resources from trusted sources to make it a little easier. It’s still not easy but a little easier for people who are trying to seek out those sources of financial support.

Abigail: Great resources. I have sent so many people to Triage Cancer. If you have a Sam’s or a Costco membership, you don’t even use insurance when you go to your wholesale clubs. For a medication that I was previously on, my copay was $15, but if I got it without using my insurance company, it was $20, which boggled my mind. Unfortunately, that puts a whole lot of burden on the family to figure out some of those things.

Gregory, did you ever get assistance from a social worker to help you figure some of these things out? Was that something that was offered in your oncologist’s office?

The life that you know before and after cancer is totally different. Asking questions could be the differentiator in a lot of the things that we’re talking about.

Gregory Proctor

Gregory: Not in my oncologist’s office but as I was getting prepped for a stem cell transplant. As a patient, it is important for you to ask.

Seek out and ask as many questions as possible. What do I need to do? How do I need to do it? What resources? What assets? Even if your doctor doesn’t want to give you the answers, you need to continue to perpetuate that going forward because it’s your life. The importance of survival doesn’t have a price tag.

I looked at everything. My wife and I flipped everything upside down because, at that point in time, your life is already flipped upside down. The life that you know before and after cancer is totally different. Asking questions could be the differentiator in a lot of the things that we’re talking about.

Abigail: Thank you for saying that. I talk to so many patients all the time who are worried that asking questions might be offensive or upset their healthcare providers. While that is certainly a good human thing to think about, in a situation like cancer, it’s your life on the line so ruffling a few feathers doesn’t seem to be as important as getting the answers.

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Appealing Insurance Decisions

Abigail: I want to talk more about denials or when the insurance company is asking for your doctor to jump through some hoops. I talked about prior authorizations. What happens when an insurance company says, “No, we don’t think that that is medically necessary,” or like in Gregory’s situation, “We need to examine this a little bit more,” that sort of thing?

I want to throw out a couple of things that I’ve learned along the way in dealing with private insurance. Typically, when a doctor gets prior authorization, the insurance company says no. Usually, you, as the insured, get a letter that says why they denied it. Your doctor typically gets the same letter. And then what?

Besides changing your mind and doing something different that your insurance company goes along with, in my experience, what’s next is your doctor has the opportunity to do a peer-to-peer discussion. This is covered in all the insurance contracts that I have seen, along with the definition of what a peer is.

Very early on in my cancer treatment, my doctor wanted to do a PET scan. For those of us with solid tumor cancers, PET scans are often the gold standard in terms of seeing where the cancer is and how metabolically active it is. This is a tool that doctors need to be able to make good decisions.

A doctor employed by my insurance company, who was a family doctor about five years out of medical school, deemed the PET scan not medically necessary.

By looking at my insurance policy, I learned that my insurance company was required, upon my asking, to provide a peer to my doctor. I realized that somebody who’s five years out of medical school, who has a small amount of experience, and who is in a specialty that has nothing to do with oncology does not meet the definition of a peer.

I learned that I could say to my insurance company, “I require you to provide a peer to talk to my doctor.” That conversation took five minutes.

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In the first conversation where it was denied, my doctor spent 40 minutes trying to convince this doctor employed by the insurance company that what she was doing was standard of care. When she was able to talk to an oncologist — not an oncologist that had 30-plus years of experience, but somebody in the cancer world — it was a five-minute conversation and it was approved.

The first person that my doctor talked to was looking at a chart and the wrong category. She was looking at somebody who was stage 3 versus stage 4.

I’ve let my doctor’s offices and their staff know as they are scheduling that they can ask for a peer. Make sure it’s a peer who’s talking to your doctor.

By looking at my insurance policy, I learned that my insurance company was required, upon my asking, to provide a peer to my doctor.

Abigail Johnson

By looking at your insurance policy and understanding the definition of a peer, that one small thing can save your doctor time. That 40-minute conversation took my doctor away from seeing patients. The five-minute conversation was a whole lot more effective and efficient.

As an insured, you also have the option of filing an appeal. It can get involved and it’s a really heavy lift when it comes to attempting to explain to your insurance company why they are not following the contract.

Gregory, what experiences have you had in getting something covered, especially when you got that initial no?

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Gregory: After burning $22,500 a week and hitting a cap, hearing the words, “We will cover this, but we won’t cover that,” meant, “We’ll cover you for the period of your transplant. However, if there are any complications, then that’s on you, Mr. Proctor.”

Going from my private healthcare and trying to get the VA to pick me up had already been denied by the VA. It was very frustrating very early on knowing that I would want it to go through the VA from the beginning, but I was denied and that’s just how the system works.

Their rationale was there was no service-related tie that could tie back to me being diagnosed with cancer. I had to get attorneys involved and justify what my job and MOS (military occupational specialty) was in the military. Going through that took a tremendous amount of time.

You can’t ever give up. You have to continue to push.

Gregory Proctor

For me, one of the things that I had to sink into throughout this whole journey is don’t ever give up. Find a will. Find a way to navigate. I had to go back through all of the tests to prove that I had multiple myeloma.

Once we proved that, I was able to get 100% coverage but that took approximately five months from the time that I was diagnosed up until I was getting ready to go into a stem cell transplant.

The best Christmas gift that my wife and I could have ever received in December 2021 was that letter from the VA saying they are now my primary healthcare provider and they will cover not only my stem cell transplant but all post-maintenance costs. We’re talking, “Hallelujah!”

That was well worth all of the effort, the headache, the anxiety, the concerns, and the worries to get to that point. But like I said, you can’t ever give up. You have to continue to push.

Abigail: Thank you for those reminders. It’s easy to give up, especially when there are a lot of roadblocks. I love how you mentioned that you realized you needed help and that getting a professional involved was important.

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Legal Rights as Insurance Consumers

Abigail: Monica, would you talk a little bit about the legal rights that we each have as consumers and talk about those appeals and what services might be available to patients?

Monica: Gregory did a little bit of my job for me in that we don’t have to take no for an answer. The details around that will certainly depend on the type of insurance we’re talking about, whether it’s the VA, Tricare, Medicare, or Medicaid.

If we’re talking about private insurance, at the bare minimum, every single consumer is entitled to at least two levels of appeal. The first level is an internal appeal and that’s essentially where we go back to the insurance company and say we’d like you to reconsider.

The internal appeal can take a couple of different forms. It could be a written internal appeal where you’re providing documentation. It could also be what Abigail was referring to, which is a peer-to-peer conversation between two healthcare providers.

There are time limitations on when we as consumers get to file internal appeals. We usually get 180 days. Then there are time limitations on the insurance company to give a response depending on where somebody is.

In Abigail’s example, it was a denial of a prior authorization so the insurance company has to answer within 30 days. If you’ve already received the service and they’ve come back and said, “Nope, we’re not covering that,” then they get 45 days.

Here’s the problem. When we’re talking about cancer care specifically, a lot of times we don’t have 30 or 45 days to wait for an answer. What we as consumers need to understand is that we have the right to ask for an expedited appeal when the need for care is urgent, which it is in most cases when we’re talking about cancer care. The insurance company then has to answer within 72 hours. But people don’t know this. People don’t understand that they have this right.

If the insurance company ultimately comes back and still says no, we have the right to an external appeal and that’s where we go to an independent entity. It’s going to vary from state to state, but an independent entity will look at all the facts and all the medical evidence, and then make a decision as to whether or not the care is medically necessary.

People need to understand those words, medically necessary, are the legal standard on which the appeals will be decided. Is it medically necessary for you to get that service? The decision of the independent entity at these external appeals is binding on the insurance company.

We don’t have to take no for an answer. The details around that will certainly depend on the type of insurance we’re talking about

Monica Fawzy Bryant

I made it overly simplistic for this session. I understand that requires a lot of legwork and effort to get the doctors involved. I’m not minimizing any of that, but here’s what we know to be true.

Of the millions of claims that are denied every single year, 99.9% of them are never appealed. Yet we also know that when people do appeal, somewhere between 40 and 60% of the time is decided in favor of the patient.

When we’re talking about how to help people afford cancer care, I want to talk about appeals long before we get to financial assistance. If insurance is coming back and saying, “We’re not going to cover that,” for whatever reason, “You’ve hit your max,” “We think you’re too expensive,” “We don’t think you need your PET scan,” if you’re not appealing those denials, you’re essentially leaving money on the table.

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Abigail: That is such a great point. When your insurance company knows that you will appeal and will not take their decision lying down, in my experience, they’re much less likely to deny things in the future. It’s really important to make it hurt and make it difficult for them.

I’m not talking about doing anything drastic. Take up a lot of their time. Be bold in saying what you need and in filing those appeals. In my experience, they typically won’t be as likely to deny something in the future.

Thank you for giving us those numbers, Monica, because those are shocking numbers, like the millions of dollars that Gregory and I were talking about earlier.

I’m going to do whatever it takes because I’m all about living. I still have a lot more life to live than to let cancer dictate and determine how that’s going to be for me.

Gregory Proctor

Monica: It’s also helpful to put into context for people who are already overwhelmed. They’re reaching capacity in what they can handle. They’re trying to survive. Now the lawyer is saying to go through this burdensome appeals process. The numbers are helpful, particularly around the number of successful stories, to make that additional burden almost worthwhile, so to speak.

Gregory: That’s the main reason why my mantra going through this was don’t ever give up. There’s got to be a will. There’s got to be a way. It may not be door A, it may be door B or door C, but you’ve got to keep asking those questions and ensure that you’re getting the answer that you need to move forward.

When my life’s at stake, it doesn’t matter to me if it’s $1 billion. I’m going to do whatever it takes because I’m all about living. I still have a lot more life to live than to let cancer dictate and determine how that’s going to be for me.

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Financial Toxicity

Abigail: I want to talk about financial toxicity. We’ve thrown that word around a couple of times. I didn’t realize this, but in 2013, it was researchers at Duke University that coined the term financial toxicity to describe the financial hardship and distress that can result from the high cost of cancer treatment.

Their research showed how the burdensome out-of-pocket expenses associated with cancer care, such as copays and deductibles, can negatively impact a patient’s mental health and quality of life, leading to increased anxiety, stress, and depression.

We hear all the time that stress is not good for patients. Stress is not good because it changes chemical things in your body. It makes your quality of life more difficult when you are stressed out. Then here comes our medical system that causes stress on us.

Gregory, how have you handled the mental toll of those bills and the financial stress? How do you handle that emotionally, too?

At one point in my life, I was questioning whether or not I would be able to afford groceries that week. That’s when you know the toxicity has gotten hold of you.

Gregory Proctor

Gregory: You’ve got to be willing to accept that this is your reality. That’s the first step in going forward with any type of traumatic or life-altering things that are happening.

The other aspect that became very, very important for me personally was stepping away from the notion of dealing with cancer 24 hours a day, seven days a week. One of the most therapeutic things that I did during my cancer battle was getting out in nature, walking on the trails, and separating my mind from the overall objective of having this wreak havoc on me.

With all of the debt and bills coming in, your life still goes on. You still have your normal expenses and now you’ve got cancer expenses and all these other things that happen. At one point in my life, I was questioning whether or not I would be able to afford groceries that week. That’s when you know the toxicity has gotten hold of you. You’ve got to navigate and weather the storm to figure out how to maneuver and move forward.

I’ve done a lot of things to get through that and find assets and various other elements in my life that I could move forward without having so much of the burden of the debt wreak havoc on me.

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Abigail: Thank you for sharing that. I tell my medical teams all the time that I have to fit cancer care into my life not fit my life into cancer care. It’s a paradigm or a different way of looking at things that I think makes us as patients address some of these things a little bit differently.

Monica, would you talk a little bit about resources that Triage Cancer has or strategies for managing medical bills and finances so that people can have a good quality of life?

Monica: It’s at the core of what Triage Cancer is about. We have tons of educational resources in a variety of formats because we’re trying to meet people where they are and how they learn. Some people are big readers and that’s how they’re going to absorb information so we have quick guides and longer practical guides that can be downloaded and read off our websites.

We have live events that people can join for free, both in person and virtually. We also have worksheets, animated videos, and other materials to help people with things that can contribute to financial toxicity.

Health insurance status and navigation are only one piece of the puzzle. Certainly, employment changes that can occur after a diagnosis are going to impact somebody’s finances. Everything that normally happens in life that impacts finances keeps happening. You don’t get a pause button on paying the mortgage.

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When you look at TriageCancer.org, you will see a variety of topics around health insurance, employment, and disability insurance to address holistically the financial impact that cancer and cancer care can have on people. When thinking about how to maximize health insurance, people need to remember a couple of things.

Every single year, we have the opportunity to make choices. If someone is experiencing high out-of-pocket expenses due to their insurance this year, there may be opportunities to pick a different source of insurance for the coming year.

Open enrollment for Medicare is coming up at the end of the year and that’s an opportunity to make some different choices — whether that’s finding a plan with a lower out-of-pocket maximum, a plan that has more of your providers in their network so they’re being covered at higher rates, or has a different prescription drug formulary so any prescription drugs you’re taking may be covered at a better rate.

You may be experiencing high financial toxicity right now based on the type of insurance you have, but there may be opportunities to make those changes for the coming year. We have resources at Triage Cancer to help you make those determinations.

When you look at TriageCancer.org, you will see a variety of topics around health insurance, employment, and disability insurance to address holistically the financial impact that cancer and cancer care can have on people.

Monica Fawzy Bryant

We also have a legal and financial navigation program where people can fill out a form and they’ll get a calendar link where they can schedule a call with one of our staff. We’ll talk through their situation and the sources of financial toxicity. We’ll try to provide them with personalized education and information about what they need to know and understand, point them in the right direction, and give them action steps. You can read quick guides all day long, but you may still have questions about your situation.

Abigail: Those are wonderful resources. I’ve sent all kinds of people to Triage Cancer and they’ve helped them figure things out and navigate those things.

Since Monica was talking about open enrollment and the possibility of adjusting your coverage, working with a good insurance broker can also be a tremendous help, especially when you’re going on Medicare. There are all these supplements and different options. Working with somebody who can take your situation, your doctors, your medication, and your diagnosis, and help you back into those policies that would meet some of those needs.

Typically, brokers are paid by the companies so you are not out of pocket any amount of money when you work with an insurance broker. That’s one thing that I suggest to a lot of people, especially those transitioning from private insurance to Medicare because it can be complicated with all of the different supplements.

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Monica: I actually would give the opposite advice to somebody and that’s based on reports that have come out of the U.S. General Accountability Office. Over the last several years, many insurance agents and brokers have misbehaved in several ways. Now, certainly, that is not all of them. There are wonderful insurance agents and brokers out there so I’m not disparaging the profession as a whole by any stretch of the imagination.

Oftentimes, people can be led down a path that may not be the best for them. Those agents and brokers are paid by the insurance companies so they have a vested interest in enrolling people in specific insurance policies, even if those aren’t the best policies for that patient.

For the cancer community, where there is a heightened importance of making sure they are in the right plan for them, we would suggest unbiased sources of support and there are different places that people could go.

You might get a very different answer from an insurance broker versus a social worker who is employed by your cancer center. Getting different input can be important.

Abigail Johnson

If someone is transitioning to Medicare for the first time, every single state has a SHIP program, which is the State Health Insurance Assistance Program. They’re called different things in every single state. They are trained to help people navigate their Medicare options and they are unbiased. They do not get paid by enrolling people in one plan over the other.

For people who are buying insurance in the marketplace, there is a similar entity called In-Person Assistors. Again, they are paid by the government not by the insurance companies so they don’t have any bias as to putting people in one plan over the other. I agree with your sentiment about seeking help and support in picking those plans, but I’m not sure that’s the place I would send someone for support.

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Abigail: That’s why we’re having this conversation to talk about different perspectives. I work with a handful of insurance brokers who I have personally vetted and are now familiar with metastatic breast cancer because they’ve assisted a lot of people that I have worked with. Having those connections and knowing if there are people in your community who are doing some of these things can be key.

But thank you for that caution, Monica, because that’s also important to remember who you’re talking to and who they’re employed by. You might get a very different answer from an insurance broker versus a social worker who is employed by your cancer center. Getting different input can be important.

Gregory: You have to educate yourself. You have to go through due diligence to ensure that you understand your situation. I’m more aware of my needs now going forward as opposed to before because it was something that I wasn’t interested in. Make sure that you educate yourself and do your due diligence because those two things can save you thousands of dollars going forward.

As we’re navigating this system, how we embody that power can make a big difference in navigating cancer treatment.

Abigail Johnson

Empowerment

Abigail: The word empowerment gets thrown around a lot. We need to understand how we’re looking at empowerment because there are multiple definitions of empowerment.

One definition, that makes me itchy, is that somebody is giving you power. The second definition, which doesn’t make me as itchy, is that we all have inherent power as people and as patients. As we’re navigating this system, how we embody that power can make a big difference in navigating cancer treatment.

Gregory, how do you look at empowerment? How have you gotten in touch with your power as an individual and as a patient?

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Gregory: When I was diagnosed, I realized the importance of my purpose in life and the importance of rekindling my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. My empowerment came back through not only my connectivity to my spirituality but also through my family, friends, and the congregation of people who follow me on social media who were there to lift me.

I took that empowerment and tried to be a beacon of hope and inspiration, uplifting people’s minds and souls when they go through a horrific experience, and letting them know that they’re not in this alone. There’s unconditional love out there, even if you get that unconditional love from a stranger who gives you power and uplifts you to be able to weather the storm and be able to move forward.

Abigail: Thank you for that, Gregory, that was beautiful. Monica, would you like to chime in on this whole idea of empowerment and how that fits in with what Triage Cancer does?

Monica: It’s not my job as a cancer rights attorney to give somebody else power because that power is theirs. But what I can hopefully give people is the knowledge that they need. Knowledge is power.

You shouldn’t have to have a law degree, a project management background, or a million people surrounding you and lifting you to be able to survive this disease with your homes intact, your jobs intact, your insurance, and overall financial health. Yet, unfortunately, because of our system, sometimes that is what’s needed. We want to walk side by side with people and support them through education and providing information so that they can then take that and use their power.

I took that empowerment and tried to be a beacon of hope and inspiration, uplifting people’s minds and souls when they go through a horrific experience, and letting them know that they’re not in this alone.

Gregory Proctor

Gregory: That’s very, very powerful. As we talk about education, you need to seek others who have endured and weathered the same storm that you’ve gone through. A lot of times, people say that may not be a good idea or maybe that is a good idea.

For me, that became one of the circumstances that my wife and I were able to glean from others who are five-year survivors, 10-year survivors, and 20-year survivors and understand how they made it that far. Of course, now drugs and everything has changed, but knowing how they weathered the storm became a tremendous, valuable lesson for us.

Abigail: That’s a wonderful comment, Gregory, this idea of seeing examples of other people, which is what we’re doing and what The Patient Story does all the time as well.

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Key Takeaways

Abigail: Know who you are. Allow your strategies and how you figure out how to pay for cancer to flow from who you are. You’re doing something that’s not you. It’s not going to work so well so know who you are.

Knowledge is power. Knowing how to navigate things, knowing the right things, and sticking to your guns in that context can be extremely helpful.

Don’t take no for an answer. Keep going. Keep pushing. Keep asking questions.

Don’t forget to ask for help and collect those people who you can ask so make sure that you’re saving the link to Triage Cancer, which is TriageCancer.org.

Watch for other patients who are navigating this, jot their names down, and know that you might be able to reach out to those people for help. That list can include social workers, nurse navigators, and professionals who do these things that you’re trying to do.

Vote with your feet. When your insurance policy doesn’t cover what you need, vote with your feet. If your doctor is not going to bat for you and not going to do that peer-to-peer discussion, vote with your feet. If you know that medication is way too costly and there’s an alternative, vote with your feet.

We have these choices and to vote with our feet can be extremely helpful and maintain that quality of life to fit cancer care into our lives versus the other way around.

Knowledge is power. Knowing how to navigate things, knowing the right things, and sticking to your guns in that context can be extremely helpful.

Abigail Johnson

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Paul G. feature profile

In 2019, Paul received a shocking diagnosis of prostate cancer after a routine check-up uncovered a Gleason score of 4+3. Reeling from the news, he underwent radical prostatectomy surgery.

After connecting with a prostate cancer support group, Paul was able to make sense of treatment options and find emotional support. But two years later, a follow-up PSA test revealed rising levels, indicating his prostate cancer had returned. This relapse encouraged Paul to research integrative medicine techniques and shift his mindset with mindfulness practices as active parts of his healing journey.

Now in remission following radiation and hormone therapy, Paul took to writing for Medium where he shared his cancer journey and the lessons he learned along the way. He now shares his story with us and discusses how changing his mindset and focusing on positivity has helped him on his healing journey.

Paul’s story is part of the “Our Voices, Our Power” series by The Patient Story. Discover more of the series by exploring Tim’s stage 1 prostate cancer story.


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Introduction

I grew up outside New York City, in suburban New Jersey. I was an athlete and an editor of my school paper.

I decided I wanted to go to college in California, so I went to UC Santa Cruz, 2,000 acres of rolling meadows and redwoods overlooking Monterey Bay. I invented my own major called The Politics of Mass Media. I was a disc jockey and had a sports show on the radio station.

After graduating, I realized there were no media jobs in Santa Cruz, so I went back to New York City to start my career.

I was highly motivated. This was the 70s, so there were plenty of other highs as well. I wanted to explore different things. I knew what I liked. I loved sports and I liked writing.

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Being a Storyteller

I jumped from the radio to CNN when it was first starting. I went down to Atlanta where it was going to be the first 24/7 station. I was hired as a writer. Within a week, I became a producer and a producer anchor within two weeks. At the time, that was the way CNN was because they didn’t have enough people.

I learned to become a storyteller in the video medium. I ended up doing high-end corporate videos and nonprofit videos, so I had to learn how to tell those stories as well.

After 40-plus years of being in media, I consider myself — and I say this with humility — a master storyteller. I’m still working on my craft.

I was probably telling stories when I was a child, too.

The great gift is not only being loved but giving love.

Meeting My Wife

In 1988, I was in Central Park riding my bike approaching Strawberry Fields at 72nd Street. I saw this young woman, Wendi Messing, lacing up her roller skates and when she got up, I sidled up next to her and said, “Are you going to Disco Heaven?” This was a place near the volleyball courts where everybody skated around with giant boom boxes. She’d never been there before. It wasn’t a truth or dare moment, but I pushed her a little bit, so she went up there and skated around having a grand old time.

I was riding my bike around, but I was watching. When she left, I rode behind her and threw out a line. She bit and I reeled her in.

We sat and talked. She was an advertising producer. We were both cutting videos to the song Hot Together by the Pointer Sisters. Talk about serendipity!

We made a date to get together. As the months went on, the other thing we found out was we didn’t want to live in New York anymore. We ended up in San Francisco and started from there.

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I had been a serial dater. I was in my mid-30s at that point. They said she was the kind of girl I wanted to marry. She was hard-oriented, sweet, and really cute. We were in the same business. We were both Jewish. A lot of things lined up.

The great gift is not only being loved but also giving love. I think in some ways, we want that even more. I feel that with my dog. As much as they say, “Dogs give unconditional love,” we also give them unconditional love back.

I won’t use the word “caretakers.” We’re givers. I tell Wendi, “I never come home without something for you.” I’m always thinking, What could I bring her? I know she was always looking out for me.

When I was diagnosed with prostate cancer, I realized that I had gone from living a normal life to now all of a sudden, I’m in a club I never wanted to be a member of.

I realized that I had gone from living a normal life to now all of a sudden, I’m in a club I never wanted to be a member of.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

I went to a regular checkup and during the rectal examination, the doctor said he felt something. I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t think it was good, but I didn’t think it was terrible. He sent me to a urologist and said, “I feel something there. Let’s do a biopsy.”

I started to worry a little bit. Biopsies are not fun. They’re very invasive. They go in through your urethra and take samples. I was really sore afterward.

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Diagnosis

Getting the Official Diagnosis

About a week later, I was in my car after a workout. I got a phone call from the urologist and he said, “You have prostate cancer.” That’s the minute your life switches.

Reaction to the Diagnosis

I was in shock. I was 63 years old, super healthy, and ate relatively well. I have a sweet tooth, but I didn’t have a lot of high-risk factors. There wasn’t a lot of cancer in my family.

Later on, I found out that two of my uncles had prostate cancer. It was like a kick in the balls, no pun intended. I was stunned. When I told Wendi, I knew immediately that she would be there for me 100%. 

I had gone from living a normal life to all of a sudden being in a club I never wanted to be a member of. I’m young, I’m healthy, I eat well, and I exercise. How is this happening? It doesn’t sink in right away. You know that life will never be the same again.

I figured that, for now, I’m going to keep this to myself.

Choosing Who to Share a Cancer Diagnosis With

I’m a very private person. I have a few really good friends that I will tell almost anything, including women, friends, and couples. Unfortunately, both my parents had passed by then. Actually, that was probably fortunate because I know they would have worried so much.

My older brother had frontal temporal dementia and had passed, so it was only my younger brother who knew. I didn’t want to go through it with Wendi’s family. My thing is once you tell everyone, it’s out. You can always decide later on who you want to share it with and how.

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I remember reading an article in The New York Times that said the way people react to news about cancer can be very draining for the person who’s sharing the news. They may ask a lot of questions, including a lot that you don’t know the answer to. They may offer advice that you really don’t want to hear. 

Everybody knows somebody other than their family or friends who’s had cancer, but if someone’s had breast cancer, leukemia, or lung cancer, it doesn’t relate to prostate cancer. Sometimes people say things that are inappropriate and I didn’t want to go through that.

I figured that, for now, I’m going to keep this to myself because my Gleason score was 4+3. That’s a whole thing in itself. You start learning all these numbers — Gleason scores, quadrants of your prostate capsule, different kinds of reports, and genomic tests. It’s overwhelming.

They couldn’t find anything. That was encouraging… On the other hand, if you don’t know where it is, how are we going to treat it?

What the Numbers Meant

One of the first things I heard was that prostate cancer is a “good cancer.” I would never put those two words together. The reason they call it a good cancer is because it’s very treatable if it’s caught early. Not necessarily cured, but very treatable.

I didn’t feel like I was one of the lucky ones. I got prostate cancer. The word cancer is what you hear. I found that it gets very matter-of-fact with doctors. They’re compassionate, but their job is to tell you the facts and the statistics.

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We were getting all these numbers, the Gleason scores, and I was a 4+3. There’s low risk, medium risk, and high risk. I fell right on the cusp of intermediate, but I was on the wrong side of it. 3+4 and below are considered good candidates for active surveillance where you’re watching your PSA levels. That made it a little challenging, too, because I wasn’t high-risk. I was on the cusp. But then they told me the genomic tests showed that it was aggressive, so that put me in another category. 

PSMA PET Scan

I had a PSMA (prostate-specific membrane antigen) PET scan, which is a highly sophisticated PET scan. They shoot you with radioactive isotopes and iodine. They couldn’t find anything. That was encouraging because it meant things were small and they hadn’t moved into my organs or bones. On the other hand, if you don’t know where it is, how are we going to treat it?

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I didn’t want to share other than with Wendi. That’s how scared I was.

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Breaking the News to the Family

I was somewhat obsessed with thinking about it. It was always in the back of my mind. It’s hard to avoid that when you have cancer.

I told our children a month or two after I found out. I didn’t want to worry them. As I was approaching surgery, I knew that I needed to tell them what was going on.

I also wrote an email to Wendi’s family telling them what was going on. I was going to have surgery, but I was very clear about my boundaries and that I didn’t want to discuss it.

At some point, I would share information as it came up. I might have gone overboard with this, but I was very firm about my boundaries. I know they care and they love me and want to support me, but I didn’t want to go down that road of getting lots of questions and phone calls, so I played it pretty close to the vest.

Processing the Emotions of Having a Cancer Diagnosis

When you hear you have prostate cancer, there’s a lot of fear because it’s a sexually related thing. You’re talking about your internal plumbing and the unknown side effects, which can be incontinence or sexual dysfunction. You don’t want to talk about those things. You also think about dying.

I didn’t want to put that burden of fear on other people. If I couldn’t project overwhelming confidence that I got this, I didn’t want to share it other than with Wendi. That’s how scared I was. I like to be in control as much as possible.

I also grew up in a household where there was a lot of emotional chaos. I’m sure that made me even more of a person who wanted to have control. Suddenly, I was thrust into this situation where I felt like I had no control. I did share it once I knew I was having surgery.

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I was tortured during that time by not wanting to make the wrong decision.

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Treatment

Treatment Options

I had one of the top surgeons in the country, so I was confident that I was in good hands, but you have to make a decision early on.

Are you going to do radiation or are you going to do surgery? The catch-22 is if you choose radiation, you can’t do surgery later on. If you choose surgery, you can do radiation later on.

I’m in limbo. We can’t find it, I’m on the intermediate to low risk but on the wrong side of it and it’s aggressive.

I wanted more opinions. I didn’t want just a second opinion, I wanted a third opinion. The doctors kept saying, “We think it’s confined to the capsule based on what your Gleason score is and your PSA levels,” but they couldn’t guarantee it.

My initial diagnosis was in January. Over the next months, I was tortured not wanting to make the wrong decision. I had the surgery in April.

Surgery

One of the big concerns of surgery is nerve sparing because there are all these delicate nerves around the prostate. You’re anesthetized and you know that this robot is being controlled by a surgeon. I came out of surgery very groggy. The surgeon said, “I was able to spare your nerves and didn’t see anything outside the capsule.” I felt like that was good, but I was also wounded to the core.

The surgery was a traumatic shock to my system. It was good that it was confined to the capsule. It gave me some relief. Having a catheter is weird. You walk around with this bag.

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For someone who liked to be in control and make things happen, it felt like things were happening to me and they were out of my control. That’s a tough one to crack.

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Support

Finding a Cancer Community

I joined the prostate cancer support group at MarinHealth. They offer so much information. It’s the guys who’ve been in the trenches. I don’t want to say they knew more than my doctors, but they’d all been to so many doctors. Some had surgery, some had radiation, and some were on active surveillance. They knew all the drugs.

I was 63. I never thought of myself as old. I thought of myself as young. Part of me still feels 18 or 25. You get a cancer diagnosis and a prostatectomy and you start to feel a little old fast because you’re wounded. There’s no certainty that you’re ever going to be whole again.

You wonder if you’re ever going to get your old life back. For someone who liked to be in control and make things happen, it felt like things were happening to me and they were out of my control. That’s a tough one to crack.

When you get a cancer diagnosis, you’re a member of a club. One thing that’s really positive about that is every man that I met who has gone through this wanted to support me. They’d call and say, “I’ll be happy to talk to you about it.” A lot of them say, “You’re going to get through this. It’s going to be okay.”

They talk about what happened after surgery, incontinence, drugs, shots, pumps, and all the sexual things that you think, I don’t even want to know about, but you do want to know about it. I felt like I was in a community, but at the same time, it was a community club I didn’t want to be in.

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It was not pleasant to have to discuss the fact that my body had felt like it betrayed me.

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Once you’ve been diagnosed with prostate cancer, all of a sudden this community opens up to other men who’ve gone through this and they all want to pay it forward. They all want to tell you about their experience and support you through yours to reduce the worry and to give you information you may not get from your doctors. There’s so much information from doctors that it’s overwhelming. To have more practical terms broken down step by step makes a huge difference. 

When you’re one of the new guys in the cancer support group, you can feel the fear in the room. There’s a separation between people who’ve just found out who sometimes bring their wives with them, people who are trying to make a decision on how to be treated, and men who’ve been there and keep showing up over and over again to support you.

It was not pleasant to have to discuss the fact that my body had felt like it betrayed me. That was not an easy thing to talk about. I tried to be matter-of-fact about it, but I was definitely under a lot of pressure and stress.

These were now my people. It was healing in one sense, especially all the information they had that was easy to understand. But sometimes, there were people in there who were terrified. I had a hard time being around that energy.

As I went to more groups and more sessions, I realized it’s geared toward men who are just finding out they have prostate cancer. There’s a lot of that initial overwhelm.

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Your doctors are great, but the support group provides things that the doctors don’t.

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The Power of Having a Cancer Support Group

It was a safe space to talk because everybody in that room either has it or had it. It is important to unburden yourself however much you’re comfortable doing. The unspoken question for everybody is: how is this going to affect me as a man? That’s what people want to know. The cancer support group provides a place to share however much you want to share and ask any question you want to ask. 

You’ll find out that your doctors are great, but the support group provides things that the doctors don’t. It provides emotional support. My doctors are compassionate, but it’s not their job to hold your hand. It’s their job to take care of you medically and to give you the facts.

Sometimes the facts are pretty scary — the percentages of survival, the percentages of when the disease could come back. I encourage men to go to prostate cancer support groups and decide for themselves. Is this for me? How much do I want to share? Are there men I want to stay in touch with during this or afterward? There are a lot of men who come there.

If they’re not done with prostate cancer, they’ve been dealing with it for a long time. They’ll tell you almost anything you want to know. It’s a chance to be around experienced veterans.  You can always call someone outside of the meetings. I called the person who leads our group, Stan Rosenfeld, my prostate cancer rabbi because I could call him anytime. There wasn’t anything I couldn’t ask.

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Having Someone to Answer Your Cancer Questions

It took some of the angst out of it. It made it accessible. The information was accessible whether or not I liked hearing it. Cancer is not fun. You’re not at a men’s group to talk about work and family. You’re dealing with your mortality, but there’s no other space quite like it. You’re amongst your peers and they’re going through the same thing you are.

I didn’t get into saying I’m really scared. You don’t hear me say things like that, but you can feel it. I’m sure they can feel it. The sense of empathy and caring and wanting to make men feel informed, that’s part of being a little bit more in control if you really understand your options.

They know we’re scared. I didn’t feel the need to say, ‘I’m really, really scared.’

Not Discussing Feeling Afraid

It’s not my nature. I’m not going to say I’m scared shitless. I’m afraid I’m going to die. I have no control over this and my life will never be the same. That’s not what I wanted to share with them.

I wanted them to give me some information and hear some solutions. Sometimes that’s what we’re looking for, solutions. You have a big problem and sometimes there aren’t solutions other than looking for second opinions and third opinions. Facts are facts. You’ve got prostate cancer, this is your Gleason score, and you have to deal with that.

It’s a foreign experience to be in a group. All of a sudden, you found out you had prostate cancer and you’re in a group of 20 men who also either had or have prostate cancer.

Oncologists use the term “no current evidence of disease,” but they never use the word “cure.” It’s really strange at first to be in this room with all these other people going through the same crisis. They know we’re scared. I didn’t feel the need to say, “I’m really, really scared.” 

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I did express a lot that I didn’t know what to do. I have two choices: surgery and radiation. Ideally, I’d like to find a way not to have to do either. Radiation also involves hormone deprivation therapy and that’s a whole thing in itself.

I felt comfortable in the sense that there wasn’t anything I couldn’t share. I honored my feelings about it. This is as much as I do want to share. I know I can say anything I want and they will support me and give me information and advice. You have to decide what your comfort level is. You have to become your own medical advocate.

It’s a very different energy to be around men in the same boat.

Discussing a Cancer Diagnosis

I’ve dealt with a lot of doctors. I have a team. It’s double figures of how many doctors I have. Part of that is because there were complications.

I didn’t talk to my doctors about my emotions. I said to my main oncologist, Dr. Terry Friedlander, “I’m scared. I don’t know what to do.” He was very compassionate and said, “I understand. It’s really hard.” But he hadn’t had the surgery. He was dealing with it every day as a doctor. It’s a very different energy to be around men in the same boat. 

Wendi was there with me the first or second time. It was good to have her support, but I think she became more scared. When she heard about some of these stories, the reality started to hit.

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That’s one of the things about a support group; it’s all about reality. This is what you’re going through, these are your options, here’s what a lot of us have learned, here are some of the doctors we recommend, and here are medications or things you can try. It’s like going to a diner with a big menu with pages and pages to choose from.

Not Being Informed About the Medical Situation

The ball was dropped a couple of times. The first time was when I wasn’t told that one-third of men who have a prostatectomy will need salvage radiation later on. I’m going into my healing stage thinking it’s done, it was confined to the capsule. I did have side effects from this wound in my body that took a while to heal. When you’re practicing your Kegels and doing all these things like the catheter for 2 weeks, that was really weird and very uncomfortable. It was a relief when I got that out.

I thought I was done. They said I got it all. All these feelings came rushing back, except this time, they were stronger.

Relapse

The other thing was because of the pandemic, I wasn’t getting regular PSA tests and I thought I’d been cured. I wasn’t told that I needed to get one every 3 months. It probably wasn’t until almost a year and a half later, maybe 2 years later, that I took a PSA test and it wasn’t 0.002, which is what they say no evidence of disease. That’s 0 because they always put the 2 there because it’s immeasurable at some point.

I thought I was done. They said I got it all. All these feelings came rushing back, except this time, they were stronger. It’s back. You may never get rid of it at this point. That’s what it felt like to me. I looked for all these different ways to not have to go into radiation hormone therapy. 

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I had two pretty serious complications. There was a history of frontal temporal dementia in my family, which was genetic, so I had to get tested with the psychiatric oncology program, and that took a while. When they tell you to see a specialist, it can take months. My doctors made things much easier. They put a word in.

I asked for a routine EKG when I was ready to start hormone therapy. As it turned out, there were some issues, like ischemia and an enlarged heart. Now I had to go through cardiology oncology. That was also resolved as not an issue with ADT and radiation.

Having a Good Medical Care Team

UCSF has some of the best doctors in the world. I was very fortunate to be near a teaching hospital. There are three in California – UCLA, Stanford, and UCSF. I was lucky I had access to some of the best doctors in the world, but I was knocked for a loop. I went into this I can’t believe this is happening mentality.

I did four PSMAs because I don’t want to get radiated because in my mind, if we don’t know where we’re radiating, that’s like carpet bombing versus guided missiles.

PSMAs are good at seeing clumps or tumors where cells congregate. Individual cancer cells are microscopic. In my case, they couldn’t find them. I’m going to have to make a decision in good faith. This is when I found my mind-body medicine person. That was when the whole cancer experience shifted.

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The closer you are to people, the more it affects them. It shocks and scares the people who love you.

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Reaction to the Prostate Cancer Relapsing

I was even more closed-mouthed when it came back. I did not want to share that news.

I had made a decision about treatment, so I didn’t need any questions about what I was going to do. I did tell my confidants and our kids. I can feel it when I tell somebody it’s not good news.

The closer you are to people, the more it affects them. It shocks and scares the people who love you. It hits home for them. If you’re talking to medical professionals or a support group, it’s more matter-of-fact. I didn’t want to talk about it. I even skipped a family reunion.

I decided I was going to work with a cancer coach. What I found was there’s work for me to do that makes me feel like I do have some control over this and it can change my outlook on what’s happening now and what’s going to happen next. This was a game-changer.

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I was so fortunate to have a partner who I knew would be there and would provide the support and confidence.

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Telling Loved Ones About Relapsing

I knew I could tell Wendi and that the reaction would be we’re going to get through this. I was so fortunate to have a partner who I knew would be there and would provide the support and confidence that I couldn’t feel right away and for some time, actually. My good friends also supported me.

My children stepped up. They didn’t break down crying. It was more, “I’m really sorry. We’ll be there for you, whatever you need.” I know that not everybody has that in their lives. Some people are alone with this, so I was fortunate. 

I went back to the prostate cancer support group and they’re very matter-of-fact.

They talk about hormone therapy, different hormone therapy drugs, and different kinds of radiation. I felt like I’ve been there once before, so I know what I can get from the prostate cancer support group. I know I can go there and get some answers and very solid information from people who’ve been there and done that. I felt like I could ask anything.

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Hormone therapy and radiation are tough on the body. Men aren’t prepared for menopause.

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Effects of Hormone Therapy

Hormone therapy affects everyone differently, as does radiation. Surgery is very straightforward. They cut out your prostate. Now that I was entering into this more nebulous treatment, you hear about hot flashes, loss of libido, weight gain, and reduced bone density.

You alter your diet, increase your exercise routine as much as you can, and do focused meditations to help balance the treatment you’re getting. Hormone therapy and radiation are tough on the body. Men aren’t prepared for “manopause.” We suddenly develop a lot of empathy for middle-aged women at that point. It’s a whole new ballgame.

If I had a question about treatment, radiation, or hormone therapy, I felt like I could get really solid information and things I didn’t necessarily even hear from my doctors. Not that my doctors aren’t super knowledgeable, but I think doctors and radiation oncologists stay in their lane. When you go to a cancer support group, there are no lanes. It’s whatever you need.

Do you want to talk about hormone therapy? We’ll talk about it. Do you want to talk about sexual function? We’ll talk about it. Do you want to talk about radiation effects? We’ll talk about it.

There are things some of these men have been doing for decades and decades. They know all the doctors. They know all the different symposiums, papers that are out there, and the statistics. 

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There was no sign of disease. I admit it’s a struggle for me to fully accept that’s great news when I know that I’m going to have to keep testing for years to come.

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Navigating Cancer Statistics & Survival Rates

I asked my oncologist, “What are the chances we’re going to get this eradicated and I’ll be done with this?” What really shocked me was it’s not 100% based on your age, your Gleason scores, Decipher scores, and genomic scores.

I got different numbers from different doctors. Some would say, “Based on statistics and studies, you have a 25% chance of living 10 or 15 years. This is what the studies show for men with your Gleason score, with your surgery, and with your Decipher score. These are what the statistics show.” That’s sobering because now you’re talking about death and that’s something nobody wants to talk about.

You’re in uncharted territory. You don’t know and they don’t know. Every time you take a PSA test, there’s no current evidence of disease.

The good news is I had my first 3-month past treatment PSA test and there was no sign of disease. I admit it’s a struggle for me to fully accept that’s great news when I know that I’m going to have to keep testing for years to come.

This is where the mind-body medicine comes in. I changed my attitude. I got this. I’m going to keep this cancer out of my body and I’m going to do everything I can to stay healthy. That was a turning point in my treatment.

I had oncology tumor boards meet twice about my case because, between neurology and cardiology, it’s a little more complicated. They all said the same thing: hormone therapy and radiation.

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I wanted someone who was totally in my corner, but who was going to support me and push me.

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Coping with Your Cancer Diagnosis

Having a Cancer Coach

I know the value of a coach. I used to work with the top coaches in professional basketball, so I know we need teachers, mentors, and particularly coaches. Coaches provide not only expertise but also support. They will call you on things that you need to address with the goal of getting better. You’re improving and gaining new skills. The term cancer coach appealed to me because I’d done enough personal therapy over the years that I was talked out.

There are therapists you can talk to. There are a lot of people at UCSF. I talked to palliative care and counselors. They’re great, but they weren’t going to be there for me day in and day out. That’s not their job and they’re busy, so the idea of having a coach appealed to me. He was filling a role that I needed.

I wanted someone who was totally in my corner, but who was going to support me and push me. At that point, I was not feeling optimistic. I was scared and pessimistic. Maybe skeptical, but I was not feeling optimistic.

I learned I could gain practical tools like meditations, cancer visualizations, writing in a gratitude journal, and self-hypnosis. All of a sudden I realized that this is something I’m in control of. When you also focus on gratitude, your life perspective changes. It shifts from what isn’t working to what’s working in my life. We know what’s not working with cancer. What’s working and how can I make it work even better? How can my mindset work even better? 

Mind-body medicine sounds confusing to people. What does that really mean? It means using the power of our minds to lift us up into not necessarily being in control but playing our part, being in the game, and not just counting on our doctors.

I embraced the concept that I had a role in my healing. I signed up for it. I was doing hormone therapy, practicing these tools, and using my mind and spirit to become a part of my healing.

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Fear was going to make things worse. Fear wasn’t healthy.

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Letting Go of Fear

I was letting go of a lot of the fear and feeling like I could be in charge of what was happening to me. That shifted everything.

When you’re diagnosed with cancer, you have this feeling that the doctors are in control, the universe is in control, and you’re not in control. There are practical things I can do to support my doctors and to push it to another level where I’m part of the healing.

I would wholeheartedly recommend people consider having a cancer coach or somebody who’s going to be there to push you to be your highest, most positive, and most powerful self. 

Being part of my own healing was new for me. I learned that the fear was going to make things worse. Fear wasn’t healthy for me. Optimism and practical everyday tools helped me feel like I was attacking the cancer.

I used visualization exercises. When I was underneath the linear accelerator, I would envision drones zapping the cancer cells in my body. I swim laps 3 or 4 times a week. When I was in the water, I visualized dolphins zapping my body with sonar. Other times, it was waves washing the cancer cells out.

I focused on being part of my healing and that was really powerful. I kept to my gratitude journaling. I wake up in the morning and ask: what am I grateful for? I go to bed at night and ask: what am I grateful for? And that’s a different mindset than what am I scared of.

Practical Things to Improve Cancer Journey

There is integrative oncology. There are departments in integrative oncology, so it’s not just surgery and radiation. UCSF has an integrative oncology department.

You also have the Internet, which is actually a Pandora’s box because it can scare the living daylights out of you. You can find out things that you might not have known on your own.

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With this kind of medical crisis, you can decide who you really want to be in your life. You can see who you really are and how you want to live.

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The Power of Sharing Your Cancer Story

I never thought I’d write about my prostate cancer. Then I got to the point where I wanted to pay it forward. As a storyteller, I realized that’s how I could pay it forward. I knew I could share my experience in a way that was very accessible.

I started to write it knowing that I didn’t have to share it with anyone. I’m an inveterate rewriter and that’s what I think makes great writing. People are willing to rethink and rewrite. I’ve been an essayist for decades, so I know how to tell that kind of story. 

I started writing it and kept it to myself. I’d come back and write some more. I’d come back and go at it again. I have a friend who’s a writing coach and editor. She looked at it and gave me suggestions. I kept working at it. I showed it to my cancer coach and after a while, I thought, I will tell this story. I will take that huge leap of faith — and when I say huge, I mean huge.

I tried to put some humor in it. It was dark humor, but I felt like this was a way for me to make the best possible use of my experience by sharing my story with other people. I still feel like that’s my gift to give and my way of paying it forward.

I don’t wish this cancer on anybody. I know what it’s like to be diagnosed with prostate cancer not once but twice. Even though there’s a lot of fear, angst, and uncertainty, there can also be a silver lining to having cancer. With this kind of medical crisis, you can decide who you really want to be in your life. You can see who you really are and how you want to live. That’s what these life crises often give you the opportunity to do.

I didn’t want to live in fear and be tagged as the cancer guy. I wanted to live fully. I wanted to do things in life that I may be putting off. I felt like I’d been given a gift. Now it’s time to share this gift with others. I can’t cure their cancer, but I can tell them things that, from my experience, changed everything.

Paul G.

I do recommend that people ask their family, including those who’ve passed, if there was a history of cancer.

Paul G.
Talking About Family Medical History

What happens with families is when someone passes, they take their stories with them. Unless you’re one of these people who’ve done interviews or videos of the elders, you’re not going to know directly from them because they’re gone. Their kids, my cousins, are mostly on the East Coast. I’m not really close with my cousins, so I’ve never asked them. I never asked what their fathers passed away from.

Turns out both of my uncles died of prostate cancer. I believe they were in their late 70s or early 80s. That was a real surprise. It was one of those things I probably didn’t want to know about because that made me worry even more. It would have helped to know because my doctors would have wanted to know. My brother had anal cancer, but that’s not related to prostate cancer. 

I do recommend that people ask their family, including those who’ve passed, if there was a history of cancer and, with men, prostate cancer. It does give your doctor information that will help in the long run.

It’s the same thing with the genetic disposition of dementia in my family. You want to tell your cousins about this. We think my father had it. He was the one who started with it or it could have been his grandfather, but who knows? If they’re my uncles, they’re brothers, part of that same family, so they should know about it too because it could be passed on to them and to their children. 

Laughter is the Best Medicine

To me, the old adage that laughter is the best medicine is true. It’s scientifically proven. It raises your endorphins and dopamine levels, and your blood pressure lowers. It’s all the good stuff. It’s so much fun and so bonding with other people.

When you’re in a group of people, it can be very healing. It can be very powerful because it opens your heart. Having prostate cancer, your heart tends to close down. You clench in your body, your heart, and your mind. Anything that can unclench your mind, body, and spirit, anything that can relax, release, and bring pleasure and joy, that’s big medicine.

Paul G.

Prostate cancer is not the only thing going on in your life. Find other things to balance it out.

Paul G.
Focusing on the Positive

My dog is some of the most powerful medicine I can have by being around her, loving her all the time, and feeling that affection coming back. Things that make you smile are important.

Cancer is not funny. It’s not happy. But there are still things in life that are joyful. I urge men who are dealing with cancer to find joy or at least something they’re grateful for. It could be that you’re alive, that the sun is out, you have a roof over your head, food, family, or a good job, whatever it is.

While this is going on, it’s not the only thing in your life. Prostate cancer is not the only thing going on in your life. Find other things to balance it out. I’m still living, I’m still here, and I’m going to make the best of this. I’m going to trust my doctors. I’m going to trust my mind and my body to help me heal. Again, laughter was one of them for me and still is.

Don’t think about it as a death sentence. Prostate cancer is the second leading cause of cancer deaths in men, but if you read the statistics, that’s only about 35,000 men a year. That’s a very small number. Hundreds of thousands are diagnosed with various types of cancer each year.

Doctors will tell you that most men die with prostate cancer, not of prostate cancer. You may get into your 70s or 80s and have prostate cancer and they may say, “Your Gleason scores are low. We don’t need to treat you unless you really want to be treated. Go on and live your life.” 

Don’t go down with the ship. Shit happens, things happen, life happens. Deal with it. As much as I didn’t want to hear, “It’s a good cancer,” prostate cancer is a lot better than some of the others. There are resources and there is hope. That’s all we want. We want hope.

Paul G.

A man talking to women about prostate cancer is a little strange because you’re talking about the most private part of your body and what could be permanent side effects.

Paul G.
Why Story Resonates with Women

Women open their hearts and deal with cancer in a different way. They’re in touch with their emotions. They talk to other women about their deepest, most private feelings, not even hesitating sometimes, and even with strangers. I wasn’t totally surprised that women were the ones who were commenting and highlighting my essay on Medium because women are naturally focused on healing, communication, compassion, and love.

That’s not to say men aren’t. We’re more like onions. You have to peel away the layers. I always think of Shrek, where the donkey says, “You’re like an onion. You got to peel away the layers to get to the good parts.” 

A man talking to women about prostate cancer is a little strange because you’re talking about the most private part of your body and what could be permanent side effects. I had a lot of reactions to hormone therapy from women saying, “Welcome to my world.”

I’m very comfortable with women. I’ve always had really strong friendships with women. I wasn’t surprised by the support I got from women about sharing my story. 

With prostate cancer, it’s like, ‘What kind of man am I going to be after this?’ That’s a pretty tough question for someone to deal with.

Words of Advice

When you’re first diagnosed with prostate cancer, it’s a shock and it’s easy to feel terrified and out of control. You have no control. When you talk to other men who’ve been there or who are there, you realize you’re not alone.

In my support group, there was nothing I couldn’t discuss. I could ask the most personal, private, emotional, mental, and physical questions. There was a sense of relief that I wasn’t in this alone. I have a resource outside of my doctors. Doctors are busy. They’ve got appointments left and right. The support group was, “You need us, call us.”

I was able to pay it forward to other men. If someone needed to talk about prostate cancer, they could call me. Some people are going to think of gratitude journaling and visualizing drones zapping the cancer away. 

Paul G.
Paul G.

What you would hear from a support group is, “There are no guarantees, but here’s what we know, and here’s what worked for me.” There’s a big difference between saying, “You ought to,” and someone saying, “This was my experience,” and then you can ask them about their experience.

Get out of your head. My mind was spinning and spinning with the same old questions and worries.

Go somewhere where you can get answers if you have questions and you’ll get support immediately as long as you need it. You can go for years if you have to. There’s no limitation.

They meet in person once a month. Men are more solitary creatures than women. I’m always amazed at women. They get together and within two minutes, they’re talking about the most personal parts of their lives. Men are more comfortable talking about what’s happening in our business, sports, and politics.

Sometimes, during a conversation about prostate cancer, I’ll say to some men that I know who’ve been diagnosed, “Let’s drop deep. Let’s cut the bullshit and get right to it.” With men, we’re in a place we’re not used to being. We’re feeling weak and scared. With prostate cancer, it’s like, “What kind of man am I going to be after this?” That’s a pretty tough question for someone to deal with.

Paul G.

It’s hard to get a diagnosis of prostate cancer, but there’s hope and there’s healing. There’s a silver lining.

Paul G.

I’m taking on this role. It’s not something I thought I’d do. I was lucky to find great doctors. I also had a coach that opened up a whole new world for me of self-healing. It was total serendipity and luck that I happened to find him through a Google search. 

Every man has his own journey, his own path, and has to be his own medical advocate. You can’t just count on your doctors. You’ve got to ask questions.

You’d be well off to get second opinions and go to cancer support groups. You’ll hear things there that you won’t hear anywhere else. I came out of the cancer closet and felt like I had to pay it forward to other men and participate in something like this. I’ve been through this now. I’m still going through it, but I’ve been through this, and it’s an act of selflessness to want to help other people go through this.

It’s hard to get a diagnosis of prostate cancer, but there’s hope and there’s healing. There’s a silver lining in this. You can see parts of your life and ask: is this how I want to live? Is this who I really am? What do I want to do now? Not only do I want to be cured of cancer, but how do I want to live? What have I learned through this process?

Time is precious. We’re not guaranteed anything. We all go at any time. You read the newspaper every day and someone can die at 20. My dad lived to 98, but there are no guarantees in life. 

If you’ve been diagnosed with prostate cancer, don’t waste your time and energy on the negative part of it. Trust your doctors. Trust whatever healers you end up with. Trust your men’s support group and most of all, trust yourself. Trust that you will find a way through this journey.

There’s no guarantee that you’re going to be cured. But listening to other men talk about this, you can see that you’re not alone and that there are happy endings or at least life changes that you didn’t know were possible. I put my story out there and I can continue to expand that story. I felt that I was doing something noble by taking that leap of faith and coming out of the cancer closet.

Paul G.

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Stephanie’s Stage 3 Colon Cancer Story

Stephanie’s Stage 3 Colon Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

Stephanie K.

Stephanie was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer when she was 32. A mom to a 15-year-old son, she shares her journey from pre-diagnosis to recovery.

Before the diagnosis, she experienced stomachaches, bloating, fatigue, and low energy. Despite seeking medical help, doctors brushed off her symptoms. Various attempts to address the issues, including dietary changes and birth control, proved unsuccessful.

Her symptoms worsened and eventually led to an emergency room visit. A CT scan revealed a mass, leading to a hospital admission. Unable to perform a colonoscopy due to the obstruction caused by the tumor, the surgical oncologist recommended immediate surgery. Steph feared the worst, but the surgery went well, and she avoided having a colostomy bag.

The official diagnosis of stage 3 colon cancer came after a PET scan, revealing no spread beyond the colon. She underwent chemotherapy, surprisingly experiencing minimal side effects. She underwent regular monitoring, including periodic lab tests and CT scans. Despite insurance hurdles, a PET scan confirmed her cancer was in remission.

Engaging in activities and maintaining connections with friends was crucial for her mental health throughout the journey. Dealing with anxiety post-treatment, she emphasized the importance of self-advocacy, trusting one’s intuition, and having a positive mindset.

In addition to Stephanie’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of colorectal cancer stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Stephanie K.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Colon cancer
  • Staging:
    • 3
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Very bad cramps
    • Bloating
    • Indigestion
    • Burping
  • Treatment:
    • Surgery
    • Chemotherapy: CAPOX (capecitabine and oxaliplatin)
Stephanie K.
Stephanie K. timeline

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



I felt that something was wrong. There was no blood so I never thought of colon cancer.

Introduction

I’m 33 years old. I’m a nanny and I work occasionally as a server in restaurants.

I have a 15-year-old son. He’s a sophomore in high school.

Before I was diagnosed, I went to the gym. I like to lift. I had a bunch of gym friends and we lifted a lot of weights.

Stephanie K.
Stephanie K.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

I was getting stomachaches and felt very bloated. I was tired and didn’t have much energy. I felt that something was wrong.

There was no blood so I never thought of colon cancer. I had bowel movements but felt bloated and had terrible pains that would come and go pretty much every day.

I went to the doctor and said, “I’m getting these terrible stomach pains. I feel like something’s not right.” They said, “You’re active, you’re healthy, and your labs look good,” but I always had low iron so they said, “Maybe change something with your diet and see if that takes away the cramps and the bloating.”

I was driving myself crazy. I would eat a lot of broccoli and look up online, “Does broccoli cause bloating and stomach pains?” I started thinking, Am I crazy? Because I would go to the doctor and he’d say everything’s good.

One weekend, I was out to lunch and couldn’t even stomach a bite because that’s how bad my stomach was hurting.

Gynecology Appointment

I went to the gynecologist. I wasn’t on birth control, but she said, “Maybe due to your heavy menstrual cycles, the birth control will help lessen the cramps and all the things that come with your menstrual cycle, like tiredness and headaches.” She said it could make the flow lighter. We went the whole route of doing birth control to see if that would help, but nothing seemed to help.

One weekend, I was out to lunch and couldn’t even stomach a bite because that’s how bad my stomach was hurting. I couldn’t eat. I knew something was wrong. I said, “I need to go home and lie down.”

I had that feeling like I was going to throw up. I called my mom and she said, “Maybe you caught a stomach bug. Take some Pepto-Bismol,” so I did that.

The next morning, the pain was still there. It was pretty bad and I knew. I called my mom and said, “I should go to the ER.”

Stephanie K.
Stephanie K.
Emergency Room Visit

She dropped me off at the ER. When they were checking me in, I said, “I’m getting terrible stomach pains. I’m sick.” COVID is going on so they said, “Maybe you have COVID. We’ll do a COVID test.” Negative for COVID.

The physician said, “I’m going to order a CT scan to see what’s going on in your abdomen.” We got the CT scan and he came back and said, “We found a mass in your stomach area so we’re going to have to admit you.”

I’m 32. I was thinking of the worst-case scenario. I’m scared. I called my mom and said, “They found something in the CAT scan. They’re going to admit me to the hospital. You have to come down.”

My mom came down. When they took me into a room, the nurse said, “We’re going to have a gastro doctor come down and check you out.” He came down and said, “We can’t tell you what it is until we go inside and do a colonoscopy.”

I called my mom and said, ‘They found something in the CAT scan. They’re going to admit me to the hospital. You have to come down.’

Preparing for a Colonoscopy

They tried to prep me for the colonoscopy. All night, I couldn’t drink. It was coming back up. I was very nauseous. They tried every nausea medicine, but nothing was working. The nurse said, “I’m going to call the physician on call and see what he suggests.”

He must have gotten in touch with the gastro doctor and they took me as the next case first thing in the morning. I had an endoscopy and was supposed to have a colonoscopy. All I remember is being wheeled down.

Stephanie K.
Stephanie K.
Finding a Mass

When I woke up, there were a ton of doctors around. They couldn’t do the colonoscopy because the tumor was causing an obstruction. They couldn’t get through.

They said, “We found a mass. It’s probably cancer. We’re going to have to get a surgical oncologist in to see you.” They took me back up to my room and when the surgical oncologist came in, he said to my mom, “If this was my daughter, I would do surgery now.”

Surgery

They wheeled me down to the OR. He explained, “You could have a colostomy bag when you wake up. We don’t know until we get in there.” I’m scared. I’ve never had major surgery. I was thinking, Cancer. Chemo. I’m going to lose my hair.

I don’t remember anything, but when I woke up, the first thing I looked for in recovery was if I had a colostomy bag. Thankfully, I didn’t. The surgery went well.

I had an idea of what a colostomy bag was, but no other information like what it would make me feel like or what I would have to do if I woke up and I had one.

I had no time to process anything because everything happened so fast. It put things in perspective. I knew that something wasn’t right in those two years when my stomach was hurting, but the doctors kept on saying, “Oh, you’re young,” and then it turned into a horror story.

Stephanie K.

I don’t remember anything, but when I woke up, the first thing I looked for in recovery was if I had a colostomy bag.

Recovering from Surgery

When I woke up in the recovery room, the doctor wasn’t there but my parents were. They took me up to the oncology floor until I could heal. The doctors came in, but they couldn’t tell me until the results came back from pathology.

My mind is in a million places. I have cancer. Did it spread? Am I going to live? Everything comes crashing.

Stephanie K.

Diagnosis

Getting the Official Diagnosis

Once I was discharged from the hospital, I had a follow-up appointment with the surgical oncologist.

Both my parents came to that appointment. He said stage 3 or 4 because the CT scan picked up a spot on my liver and lung and he wouldn’t know exactly until I had the PET scan.

The PET scan results showed that it was just in my colon. It did not spread.

After the surgical oncologist, I went to see the general oncologist and he went over my treatment plan, the pathology results, and all that.

Breaking the News to the Family

I honestly didn’t know what to say because I was probably as scared as my son was and I didn’t want to show that to him. My parents, my two older sisters, and my brother reassured him that things would be okay. I’m sick, but I’m on the path to get better.

Treatment

Discussing the Treatment Plan

Both my parents came with me. I remember being so nervous and scared to death. I was thinking, I’m going to have to get a port and get chemo. I’m going to lose my hair. I didn’t know the side effects or how it was going to feel.

I remember him telling my parents the cancer had gone into some of the lymph nodes. They cut them out during surgery, but I will have to do chemo to make sure. I would do a chemo regimen of oxaliplatin and Xeloda (capecitabine).

I got a port placed in my chest. Once every two weeks, I would go in for a chemo infusion. Every day for two weeks, I would take two chemo pills — one in the morning and one in the evening.

Stephanie K.

It was very hard for me to relax because I wanted to keep on living life as normal as possible. That’s what helped me the most.

Stephanie K.
Side Effects of Chemotherapy

My side effects were very minimal. My oncologist was very surprised.

I had a little bit of hair thinning. I had neuropathy in my fingers and feet. I had a ton of cold sensitivity. After I would get the chemo infusion, for about a week, I couldn’t have cold water. Everything had to be at room temperature.

I was very tired. I would get nauseous. I took a lot of nausea pills from the oncologist.

Managing the Side Effects

I’m very outgoing. I love to socialize so it was very hard for me to relax because I wanted to keep on living life as normal as possible. That’s what helped me the most.

This is sad to say, but I was the youngest patient getting chemo. Everyone else was probably 50 and older. I’m coming in, this young girl, and I still have my hair while a lot of these patients are sick.

I tried to be very positive. I would bring in little note cards and hand them out to patients. I brought in a lot of word searches and positivity coloring books because they helped take my mind off of everything else that going on. There are also these little crafts that I would buy. They’re little sticky coloring pages and you put the gem to the number and they make very beautiful pictures.

I also bring music. Anything to distract you and keep you occupied.

Stephanie K.
Stephanie K.

Follow-up Monitoring

When I was going through chemo, I usually went in the morning. Every morning, they would draw my blood, check my cancer markers and all that, and make sure I was on the road to recovery.

If I had low iron or if they saw a red flag within my labs, they would check with the oncologist. I had iron transfusions a few times. If I needed potassium or sodium, they would give that to me. I didn’t have any scans until after my chemotherapy ended.

After my treatment, my insurance kept denying a PET scan. I couldn’t have a PET scan so I had a CT scan. I didn’t know any of the results until I saw the doctor. I followed up with the doctor and he said, “Things look great. Your cancer is in remission.”

But I wanted to get a PET scan because it scans your whole body and it would help me sleep better so I pushed for that. He said, “I don’t think you need it. Labs look good. The CAT scan looked good.”

After my treatment, my insurance kept denying a PET scan… But I wanted to get a PET scan because it scans your whole body and it would help me sleep better so I pushed for that.

I said, “I really want to get a PET scan,” to ease my mind. The nurse navigator was able to contact insurance and get authorization so I was able to get a PET scan.

I still have the spot on my liver and lung, but it did not grow in size so they’re not very concerned, but they’ll continue to monitor. Every three months, I go in for a CT scan and lab work. Every eight weeks, I get my port flushed.

My last scan was in October 2023. The scans came back clear and the doctor says my cancer is in remission.

Stephanie K.
Stephanie K.

Dealing with Scanxiety

Since my diagnosis, my anxiety is pretty bad. Every little ache and pain, I think, Oh, is something wrong? The oncologist told me that’s normal.

I try not to think too much about it, but if I have a test coming up, I do take anxiety medicine prescribed by the oncologist to help put me at ease so I’m not too stressed out.

The oncologist reassured me. At my last oncology appointment, he said, “Your cancer is in remission.” I thought, Then what? What if I feel a pain? But he said, “You’re going to get stomach aches. You’re going to get the stomach flu. Try to not think worst-case scenario every time you feel something.”

Words of Advice

Trust your intuition. When you feel as though something isn’t right and you need further help, you need to advocate for yourself. “I’m not going to leave this doctor’s office until you do a test.” I would hate for someone to end up in my shoes, but I didn’t know then.

I was going to the doctor and at one point, I felt like I was crazy. My friends and I would have plans to go out to dinner and I would cancel because my stomach was hurting. I didn’t want to be the girl who has terrible stomach aches all the time. I thought it was social anxiety. It was driving me insane.

What I’ve learned through my experience is to advocate for yourself when your intuition is telling you something’s not right. Fight to get your voice heard.

I knew something was not right. Unfortunately, I’m young. I was 32 at the time of my diagnosis. How often do you hear of a 32-year-old female getting diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer?

Stephanie K.

Advocate for yourself when your intuition is telling you something’s not right. Fight to get your voice heard.

Stephanie K.

Colonoscopies aren’t necessary until you’re a certain age and that I think should be changed because I’m proof. Stomach pains for two years and the doctors said I was fine because I was young, but I knew within me that something was not right.

You have to be positive. Cancer is a scary diagnosis and your world can come crashing down. Think positively and try to keep pushing forward. You’re going to have bad days, but take those bad days and turn them into good days.

Go for a walk. Get outside. Try to stay involved in activities. Hang out with friends. My friends called to check in and sent text messages, asking if I needed anything.

Do things to keep your mind off of what’s happening, even though it’s so hard to do. That was my saving grace.


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Shannon M., Colon Cancer, Stage 1



Symptoms: Routine colonoscopy found polyp; found the cancer as a result of Lynch Syndrome
Treatment: Partial colectomy

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Treatments: Subtotal colectomy, immunotherapy

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Treatment: Colectomy

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Symptoms: Found the cancer as a result of family history & early colonoscopy; discovered Lynch Syndrome after genetic testing
Treatment: Partial colectomy

Shannon C., Colon Cancer, Stage 2A



Symptoms: Severe pains after eating; tested positive for Lynch Syndrome
Treatment: Partial colectomy

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Dania’s Stage 4 Colon Cancer with Liver and Peritoneal Carcinomatosis Story

Dania’s Stage 4 Colon Cancer with Liver and Peritoneal Carcinomatosis Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Katrina Villareal

Dania M.

Dania, a 35-year-old mother of three, shares her journey of being diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer that spread to her liver and peritoneum.

She experienced stomach issues since childhood but didn’t seek medical attention until her symptoms intensified. A visit to the emergency room revealed the shocking diagnosis of colon cancer. The news was initially overwhelming, but her faith and acceptance helped her face the challenging road ahead.

She began immunotherapy with Keytruda, responding well and experiencing minimal side effects. However, she faced complications, including a blockage that required an emergency ostomy.

During this time, Dania and her family made significant life changes, moving closer to her husband’s family for additional support. Her husband played a crucial role as her advocate, utilizing his medical knowledge to navigate the complexities of cancer care.

She emphasizes the importance of not taking health for granted, urging others to be proactive about their well-being. She advocates for increased accessibility to colonoscopies and encourages individuals to speak up and be persistent in seeking medical attention if something feels wrong.

In addition to Dania’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of colorectal cancer stories. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Dania M.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Colon cancer
  • Staging:
    • 4
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Stomach issues like constipation & diarrhea, depending on the food
    • Terrible bloating the week before diagnosis
    • Belly was swollen, as if pregnant
  • Treatment:
    • Surgeries: colon resection, stoma, hernia repair, liver resection
    • Immunotherapy: KEYTRUDA (pembrolizumab)
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This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.



Introduction

I’m 35 years old. I have three kids, ages 17, 12, and three.

I’m married. My husband works in the medical field. He used to be an oncology nurse, but he’s a case manager now so he’s still in the medical field but in a different branch.

I was in school prior to being diagnosed. Now I’m volunteering. I love volunteering at my church. I teach catechism and found that I really love working with children, especially adolescents.

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I didn’t have alarming symptoms that made me think of cancer.

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Pre-diagnosis

Initial Symptoms

I have always had stomach issues since I was little. Food wouldn’t sit right. I would eat carbs or bread and it would hit me hard in my belly then it would take days for my belly to go back. I’ve dealt with it for years and learned to live with it.

I learned what food would hurt me. If I ate it, I knew I was going to suffer later. I never thought to have it checked out or think that wasn’t normal. I didn’t have alarming symptoms that made me think of cancer, not until September.

Symptoms Intensified

We went to a wedding where I ate a lot of carbs and drank wine. At the end of the night, I felt a strange pain in my stomach, but I thought, It’s the food. I ate a lot today. Not the best, not the healthiest. I knew the process. It would take a few days of cutting out foods that hurt me and sticking to a clean diet so my stomach would get back to normal.

Only this time, it didn’t. The following day, I woke up feeling very bloated and uncomfortable so I thought, Maybe one more day, but it went that way the whole week. My husband, being a nurse, said, “This is strange. You shouldn’t be feeling this way. Not after a week.” He kept telling me to go to the ER, but I was hesitant because my idea was that the ER is for life or death and I didn’t feel like this was such a situation.

Scheduling a PCP Appointment

I made an appointment with my regular doctor. This was September. They didn’t schedule it until October. My husband said, “No, you need CT scans. You need additional testing.”

Finally, Saturday came and this was a week from the prior Saturday when I felt that sharp stomach pain. I woke up and was still feeling really uncomfortable. By then, my tummy looked a couple of months pregnant. It was so bloated and uncomfortable.

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‘Everything looks good. Your blood work looks good. The real way to find out what’s going on is through a CT scan.’

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Emergency Room Visit

I turned to my husband and said, “You know what? I should probably go to the ER.” He asked if I wanted him to come with me and I said, “No, it’s fine. I’m sure I’ll be back by noon.” We were having this conversation at around 8 or 9 o’clock. I even said, “Be ready. Maybe we can go out for breakfast or late brunch after.” I was thinking they were going to diagnose me with gastritis or some type of stomach issue.

I went to the ER and checked in. I even felt bad because there are other people who are sicker and here I don’t even have pain. I was bloated. Luckily, it wasn’t busy so they admitted me quite quickly. They did all the regular testing and blood work. Everything came out fine.

The doctor comes in, starts examining me, touches my belly, and we start talking. He was feeling the bottom portion of my belly and he said, “You know why I’m feeling there, right?” I said, “Yeah, in case my appendix is doing something.”

He said, “Yeah. Everything looks good. Your blood work looks good. The real way to find out what’s going on is through a CT scan. The only thing is that you’ll be exposed to radiation.” I said, “That’s fine. Let’s do it.”

Getting a CT Scan

He does the CT scan. I was still waiting by myself. I have the app for that particular medical group so I can get my results before the doctor can come in and tell me.

I had been looking at my blood test results, taking screenshots, and sending them to my husband who was home with my two girls. My 17-year-old son was out of town at the time. I thought, Maybe my CT scan results are in, so I check and they were.

Getting the Results

Everything was broken down. I didn’t understand the medical terms so I scrolled to the bottom because I knew it would have a conclusion where they give you the bigger picture.

I felt like a bucket of water had been thrown my way. I felt my heart skip a beat and drop. I don’t remember the exact words, but all I remember are the words “cancer” and “tumor.”

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All I remember is him saying, ‘This is going to be a long road. There are so many things being done for cancer now.’

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Diagnosis

Reaction to the Diagnosis

I froze. I took a screenshot and sent it to my husband. He immediately called me and I could hear the panic in his voice. He said, “Calm down. Everything will be okay.” I remember shaking. I was in shock.

At that moment, the doctor comes in. Poor guy. I’m sure that the last thing he wanted to do at that moment was tell a 33-year-old that she had colon cancer. I actually felt sorry for him. I’m sure it was hard.

I had my husband on speaker and I remember the doctor showing me my file. He asked, “Is this you?” I nodded. My eyes were glassy. I wasn’t crying yet, but I was about to.

He pulled up a chair and sat next to me. I honestly don’t even remember what he told me. All I remember is him saying, “This is going to be a long road. There are so many things being done for cancer now.”

Processing the Diagnosis

I was trying to process what I read. At that moment, my husband raced over to the hospital. He started calling my mom, my dad, and my siblings, and they all arrived and were very supportive.

Looking back, I don’t know if this was a symptom, but my stomach was so irregular. If I ate something like carbs, I would get constipated. If I did have blood in my stool, I thought it was constipation because it was so hard to go to the bathroom. It wasn’t something that would scare me or be a red flag.

Cancer never went through my mind. Nobody in my family has had cancer, any type of cancer. I’m the first one so it was a shock to everybody in my family.

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I remember having a conversation with God and saying, ‘I give this all to you. I don’t know what my journey will be like, but I hand it all over to You. Whatever happens, let me have peace. Let my family have peace. You’re completely in control.’

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Looking Back

Around that time, I remember being frustrated with everything and being uncomfortable with my stomach. I remember saying, “I’m going to make an appointment and get to the bottom of this. Maybe it’s a food allergy. Maybe I have something. Food isn’t sitting right. It’s hurting me. I shouldn’t be having this much pain or struggles with food. I should be able to eat normally and not have a bloated tummy immediately after eating.”

I remember saying, “I’m going to schedule an appointment. Maybe a nutritionist. Maybe I’ll see my doctor and she can run some tests or refer me to a specialist to see what it is that I have.”

They say that it’s such a silent killer. It doesn’t get diagnosed until it’s causing damage. At this point, it was already causing issues with my colon.

Admitted to the Hospital

After that, I was hospitalized for three days where they did a colonoscopy, a biopsy, and everything. I remember being on cruise control. I never really broke down and cried. I feel like I accepted it.

Leaning on Faith

I’m a practicing Catholic so my faith is a big part of my life. I don’t remember what procedure it was. It might have been my colonoscopy because I was going to be put to sleep.

I remember the countdown and having a conversation with God and saying, “I give this all to you. I don’t know what my journey will be like, but I hand it all over to You. Whatever happens, let me have peace. Let my family have peace. You’re completely in control.”

As I fell asleep, I felt so much peace. It helped me stay calm. At that time, I didn’t know what the stage was and where I was with the diagnosis. All I knew was I had a tumor and I had colon cancer, but I had a lot of peace after that.

I decided that I wasn’t going to be angry because being angry was going to feed this monster. I wanted to do what I needed to do. I gave it all up to God and I felt a freedom after that.

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My children were going to see me at my sickest and that’s the only thing that tore me, but I was at peace.

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Treatment

Discussing the Treatment Plan

At the ER, when the doctor came in to talk to me, he asked if I had any questions. At the time, I only had one. I asked, “Is it going to hurt?” I wanted to be prepared. I’m the type of person where I like to know.

I don’t remember exactly what he said, but he said, “That’s a very interesting question you’re asking. I usually get that a lot from older patients.” I don’t know what he meant by that.

I wanted to know what I was about to go through to prepare myself. I kept thinking my children were going to see me at my sickest and that’s the only thing that tore me, but I was at peace. I said, “Let’s go with it and see where I’m heading.”

Pathology Report

I was diagnosed on September 17th when I went to the ER. The next day, I received the pathology report, which confirmed the cancer. My tumor was at the top of my colon.

I don’t even remember them telling me. I remember briefly hearing conversations that it was stage 3 or 4. Finally, in one of my appointments and through seeing in my app, I saw stage 4 colon cancer with liver and peritoneal carcinomatosis.

Realizing the Gravity of the Situation

My husband was an oncology nurse and worked years in that department so he has been my biggest advocate. I understood that that was pretty late, but I didn’t understand the gravity of it.

I try not to Google because online, they will tell you the worst-case scenario and I didn’t want to know so much. I don’t think I understood what that meant until I had a conversation with my oncologist a few months down the road.

I was under the understanding that I would have surgery to remove the tumor and start treatment and all that. I asked the doctor when we would start thinking about surgery. She wouldn’t straightforwardly say we’re not looking at surgery, but the conversation led to that. Surgery was not on the table because my cancer had spread.

That’s when it hit me. My heart dropped. My husband was right next to me during the video call. After we hung up, I looked at him and asked him for clarification to see if I understood right and that’s when I broke down. I understood then that it was a lot more serious than I thought.

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The CT scan confirmed that my tumor was blocking 98% of the colon. He said I would need an emergency ostomy.

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Keytruda Immunotherapy Treatment

When I was diagnosed and while they were doing all those tests, they wanted to give me a first dose of chemo before leaving the hospital so they put in my port. My husband started talking to the doctors to see if I would be a good candidate for immunotherapy. The oncologist decided that they would wait for the pathology report to come back to see if I was indeed a good candidate and, thank God, I was.

I went home with the goal to start immunotherapy as soon as possible. I had my first immunotherapy on September 29th and that has been the only treatment I’ve been receiving.

I’ve been doing Keytruda. I haven’t had any side effects at all. I do feel a little tired, but compared to what chemo does to you, I’ve been so blessed. I am so thankful.

New Stomach Pains

I ended up going to the emergency room again at the beginning of October. It started with horrible stomach pain. It felt like contractions. I could not eat anything. The smallest thing I would vomit back up. My husband made me a smoothie, begging me to eat something.

I spent the whole Saturday in bed, in pain and extremely nauseous. We thought it was a reaction to the immunotherapy because I just had my first dose. But it was horrible. The pain was so excruciating.

On Sunday morning, my husband turned to me and asked how I was feeling. I said, “I don’t feel good. What do we do?” He said, “ER.” We headed to the ER. The same doctor that diagnosed me was there. As soon as he saw my name, he rushed into my room. After reading my symptoms, he had an idea of what the issue was.

He looked at me and said, “Remember that first day when I told you this would be a long journey and there would be some bumps in the road? This is just a bump.”

He thought it was a blockage. The tumor was already blocking the passage so I was eating, but nothing was coming out. The only way to confirm this was to have another CT scan and it confirmed that my tumor was blocking 98% of the colon. He said I would need an emergency ostomy.

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My quality of life wasn’t good. I couldn’t do much. I couldn’t do basic tasks because I felt so tired. It hurt. I couldn’t lift.

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Emergency Stoma Surgery

Having an emergency ostomy was harder than my cancer diagnosis because all of a sudden, I was pooping through a bag.

I had to learn how to clean it and how to take care of it. I’m a very squeamish person so this was a challenge for me. It was painful. To see part of my organ outside of my body was an adjustment.

But I have so much support. I would see my ostomy nurse two days a week. She would come to my house, help me change it, and educate me more on it. She was the sweetest lady. Love her. She was amazing.

She gave me my space. She understood that it was hard for me and let me drive this situation. She knew that I was struggling. She gave me time and, eventually, after baby steps, I was able to clean it. By the time we were done, I was doing it on my own and I learned to take care of it.

Prolapsed Stoma

Immediately after, I started having issues with my ostomy. It prolapsed so it was starting to come out. Mine started protruding. Eventually, it would get really big and would hang out. It was very painful. I started developing a pretty good-sized hernia right behind it. Once I lay down, it went back into my body.

It’s a blessing because, without this, I could have lost my life so I was very, very thankful for it. But it was very uncomfortable. I had to use a waistband to keep everything in place.

My quality of life wasn’t good. I couldn’t do much. I couldn’t do basic tasks because I felt so tired. It hurt. I couldn’t lift.

I said to my oncologist, “We have to fix this because this is not a good way to live. My future is so unknown. I want to be able to go to the park. I want to be able to do stuff with my kids. I want to make memories.” The conversation started happening about referring me to another oncologist for a second opinion to see what we could do.

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We were heading in the right direction. This is from surgery being off the table to removing this tumor. It was such a blessing.

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Getting a Second Opinion

The goal was to see if I could have surgery to replace the ostomy. I was referred to UCSF and I spoke to a doctor there via video chat. He saw my chart and said, “I don’t see why we couldn’t have surgery for this.” He said that we could pause immunotherapy and then have surgery, but he said that he would refer me to a surgeon there because they would know best.

I was referred to a surgeon and she was amazing. She gave me the worst-case scenario and the best-case scenario. After seeing everything, she said that she would try to see where the tumor was, and if everything wasn’t in my favor, she would remove the tumor or do a colon redirection and repair my hernia.

But if she goes in there and everything looks worse than what the CT scans have shown, then she would close up the stoma and place it somewhere else where it wasn’t likely to prolapse or cause another hernia. She said that as long as I had the tumor, the ostomy had to stay in.

I have been responding really well to treatment. Everything had shrunken significantly. But because of scar tissue and not knowing, we didn’t want to risk reversing the ostomy, having to go to the emergency room again with the same problem, and then having emergency surgery.

We scheduled surgery for June 12th. She came in, took a last look, and made markings. She was so amazing and so thorough. She wanted to cover her bases before going into surgery. She decided on a new stoma placement should we have the worst-case scenario.

Surgery

Colon Resection, Ostomy Reversal & Hernia Repair

Thank the Lord, everything came out great.

The first night was horrible. I had so much pain because it was a pretty big opening. She took out the main tumor and a big chunk of my colon, and she repaired my hernia.

I went back for my follow-up appointment to remove the drainage. She told me that the doctor had taken out everything. She focused on the colon. She gave me the great news that from stage 4, it had gone to stage 1. If the cancer hadn’t spread, that would have been the end of my cancer journey. We still had the liver and the peritoneal area.

The amazing news was that we were heading in the right direction. This is from surgery being off the table to removing this tumor. It was such a blessing. She also took out my appendix because it was connected somehow. She said that they went through it and they studied it and had no cancer, which is amazing news. The cancer stopped spreading.

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I still needed to have PET and CT scans to confirm. But he said that everything looked great and that the immunotherapy and surgery were successful.

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Seeing a New Oncologist

Another blessing of my husband working in the medical field was that he knew people and started asking for an oncologist referral. I got a new oncologist where we moved and he is amazing.

At my first appointment, he was very proactive. He said, “Let’s see what we can do with your liver,” because that was the next step. Immediately, he referred me to a surgeon at USC.

He explained that I was responding perfectly to immunotherapy. Everything was shrinking. The cancer could shrink a lot with immunotherapy, but there are still cancer cells there and the risk of it coming back is greater. He said that the best thing to do was to have surgery and remove that part of the liver so that’s what we did.

Partial Hepatectomy (Liver Resection)

We scheduled surgery again for September 20th. I mentioned to him about the lining of the stomach and he said he would look into it. He would check that out, too. The surgery date came, I had surgery, and it was successful. Thank God.

He said that everything looked great based on what he saw, but I still needed to have PET and CT scans to confirm. But he said that everything looked great and that the immunotherapy and surgery were successful.

Follow-up Appointment

I saw my oncologist recently, who scheduled me for a PET scan to see where we’re at, but he said that I look good and that everything looks great.

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We decided to move, which was scary because I had to look for new doctors and everything.

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Getting Support from Family

Moving Closer to Family

Around that time, we made a life-changing decision. We lived in Northern California and decided to move to Southern California to be closer to my husband’s side of the family.

My family had been great, but we needed a little more support with appointments. My in-laws are retired and they’ve been amazing. We decided to move, which was scary because I had to look for new doctors and everything.

Husband as Biggest Advocate

I knew nothing about cancer, just little things that my husband would tell me when he would come home. He would get close to patients that he cared for and when they would pass away, he’d come home sad and we’d talk about it.

Things would be different if my husband didn’t have the knowledge that he did. He’s been my biggest advocate. He understands so he can have conversations with the doctors and surgeons. I don’t know what my situation would have been like otherwise.

I saw a palliative care doctor and she would ask me how he was doing. She said that knowing works like a double-edged sword because he knows too much. He knew stage 4 was serious. He knows that this can go south fast so I can’t imagine what he feels being my husband and knowing all this information.

In a way, sometimes I feel like ignorance is bliss. I didn’t know much, which helped me because I didn’t realize the extent of my illness until I had that conversation with my doctor that one day. But having somebody who knows is big.

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Things would be different if my husband didn’t have the knowledge that he did. He’s been my biggest advocate.

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Words of Advice

Don’t take your health for granted. If you feel that something is wrong, have it checked out. I never thought in a million years I would be on this journey.

Be proactive and push. The day I went into the ER, the doctor didn’t want to do the CT scan because I looked fine, but I said, “It’s okay if I’m exposed to radiation. Let’s do this. I want to know what’s going on.”

Colon cancer is happening to a lot of younger people. This is not an old person’s disease anymore. I’ve read about people as young as in their 20s being diagnosed with colon cancer.

For some reason, it is so hard to schedule a colonoscopy. Whatever the reason is, that needs to change. It should be more accessible.

So many people are dying because they’re being diagnosed at such a late stage. It’s so silent at the beginning and you don’t know that there’s something wrong until it starts creating havoc in your body and that needs to change.

We need to have a colonoscopy or whatever testing is available at a younger age. My siblings were able to schedule a colonoscopy immediately because I have cancer. They became high risk. My sister had such a hard time scheduling an appointment because of insurance. That should change.

You have to advocate. Speak up and be firm. If something is wrong, don’t stop because the more you wait, the more this monster can mess with your health.

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Don’t take your health for granted. If you feel that something is wrong, have it checked out.


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