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Holly’s Myelofibrosis Story

Holly’s Myelofibrosis Story

Interviewed by: Taylor Scheib
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

Holly was only 25 when she was diagnosed with primary myelofibrosis.

Holly’s diagnosis was only one of a series of sad and traumatic occurrences at that particular time in her life. She had earlier lost her unborn daughter at 32 weeks due to a blood clot that passed through her placenta, and had to be placed in intensive care afterwards due to the discovery of more blood clots elsewhere in her body. Two weeks afterwards, she experienced a seizure and thrombosis stroke. 

Over the succeeding year, Holly increasingly experienced symptoms that led to her undergoing a bone marrow biopsy, which revealed her cancer. What’s more, she discovered that her cancer might actually have had something to do with her daughter’s passing.

Holly continues to grieve her loss, but her life has begun to take a turn for the better. Her treatments have been effective—and she is now expecting another little girl. 

Holly’s story is a testament to her resilience, the inner strength she gained, and her ability to glimpse the blessings in her life behind all her negative experiences. She shares her story with us today to help others who may find themselves in similar situations. 

In addition to Holly’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of stories about myelofibrosis. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


 
  • Name: Holly S.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Primary myelofibrosis
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Severe fatigue
    • Throbbing pain in left calf
    • Significant weight loss
    • Itching and rashes
    • Bruising
    • Shortness of breath
  • Treatment:
    • Oral chemotherapy: hydroxyurea
    • Immunotherapy injections: peginterferon

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


I feel like I can overcome anything as long as I just remain positive.

Introduction

My name is Holly. I’m from Invercargill. It’s a small city at the bottom of New Zealand.

I am a single mum to a boy called Ambrose, who is five, turning six in October.

I was recently diagnosed with primary myelofibrosis in September of 2023.

And, yeah, just been navigating life as a single mum and just dedicating my time to him. Whilst dealing with this.

Pre-diagnosis

Initial symptoms

My first real symptoms of primary myelofibrosis basically start back in 2021 and April. 

I was 32 weeks with my daughter and I started getting pain in my calf, just throbbing pain.

So I was getting constant massages to try get rid of it. Initially thought it was pre-eclampsia. I was also experiencing extreme fatigue a lot throughout the pregnancy. 

And then one day I was in the supermarket and I started getting a lot of pressure in my abdomen. I didn’t really think much of it and went home. 

And then I started having contractions around 9 p.m. and they lasted until 3 a.m. I started experiencing fevers and sweats and because I had had such a horrible experience with my previous midwife, with my son, I left it and I didn’t want to bother my current midwife. 

And so then I’d contacted her in the morning about it, and we went down to the hospital. 

She did an ultrasound and found that there was no heartbeat. 

Loss of her daughter

So then I had to give birth to my daughter. And it was just a horrific, horrific delivery. 

Yeah, it lasted for a few days, and I was put on these inducing pills. They gave me too many of them. And her head basically went through my uterus; I suffered a uterine rupture during labor.

So then I was rushed into theatre, and I lost 1.5 to 1.7l of blood. After that, I was in an ICU for about a week due to complications, including pneumonia. 

I had a really high heart rate. I had heart failure. And they didn’t really understand what was going wrong.

And then they found that I had had a blood clot in my heart, in my lungs, and a DVT (deep vein thrombosis) in that right calf. So I’m guessing all the massaging had possibly broken the blood clot off into different parts of my organs. 

So they think they also think that it caused my daughter’s death. A blood clot had passed through my placenta, causing a placental abruption.

Seizure and stroke

So I left hospital, and then two weeks later, I had a seizure and a stroke, and I was rushed back into hospital. They had found that I had had a thrombosis stroke in my brain. 

So I was put on warfarin for well over six months max. And then, originally the hematologist thought that I had blood clotting disorder.

So she put me on warfarin, then took me off it for about a year just to see how my blood platelets were going to be. And they weren’t coming down, they were rising. 

Discovery and diagnosis

That’s when I started having my other symptoms. And they came on quite, quite quickly because I wasn’t on any sort of medication at that time. 

I started just being extremely, extremely fatigued. My arms were really, really weak. I lost 20kg without even trying, within 3 months. 

I started bruising, like all over my body and the weirdest places. Itching. Crashing randomly. Constant shortness of breath. 

It was it was horrible and I just I couldn’t function at all. Throughout the day. 

So then the doctor sent me to have a bone marrow biopsy. I was officially diagnosed with primary myelofibrosis in September 2023.

Reaction to the diagnosis

I guess that unknown feeling I felt within those two years of not knowing. It’s sort of hard to really know. I guess I was just going through day by day. 

I initially thought because I had two blood transfusions, I thought that it was all the blood transfusions that were actually causing all these symptoms, and I just thought that was normal. And I also thought because of all the physical complications I went through, my body was taking a longer time to try and heal from all of that. 

And then, straight after all of that, I was thrown straight back into being a parent, single parent. Yeah, it was pretty crazy.

So when I went in for the bone marrow biopsy, I felt really numb to it all, I think because so much had happened previously, I was just on autopilot, like, okay. Yep. We’ll do this. 

After I got the diagnosis, I was absolutely distraught because I didn’t know much about the disease at the time. 

And I didn’t know anything. If I was going to lose all my hair, or if I was going to have to take more time being away from my son. So many thoughts running through my head.

But there’s more. As it turns out, my cancer might have had something to do with my daughter’s passing.

When my cancer was diagnosed, they didn’t really say that they thought that I had it when my daughter had passed. It wasn’t until a few months ago that they had sort of written it in doctor’s notes, speculating that it had caused my daughter’s passing and that I’d had it while I was pregnant with her. 

But yeah, the feelings around it. I was more so angry at the hospital and my midwife for not monitoring me closely enough, but I guess they couldn’t really do anything about it. 

But yeah, it was a terrible, terrible time. I really lost myself and my relationship fell apart; I just wasn’t coping. 

I had turned to drinking a lot, so that was like my medication while trying to be a single mum and trying to just push, push forward. 

And yeah, so when they had told me that they thought that I might have had it when I was pregnant with my daughter, I’d already had a huge feeling that it had caused it before they even said anything.

Treatment

Oral chemotherapy: hydroxyurea

My treatment plan was to go on an oral chemotherapy called hydroxyurea

So I started on 500mg. My platelets weren’t really doing anything. So they were going to double the dosage. 

Discovery of pregnancy, and shift to immunotherapy injections: peginterferon

And then a week later I found out I was pregnant. And I was a mess because I thought, I’m gonna have to terminate this baby. 

Then they congratulated me, and put me on peginterferon. It’s immunotherapy that’s administered through an injection. I do this myself, once a week, on Sunday nights.

So I’ve been on peginterferon and aspirin, um, throughout this pregnancy and it’s brought my platelets right down. 

I’m also on clexane as well, just to prevent blood clotting.

I’ve been in normal range for the last few months, and I’ve felt the best that I’ve felt in the last few years, and everything’s just looking amazing with this pregnancy. 

So I’ve been really privileged, even, I guess, divinely orchestrated.

Side effects

That being said, I’ve been experiencing some side effects for the immunotherapy.

I’ve had a lot of hair thinning, acne, a lot of fatigue. And loss of appetite. I don’t really have much of an appetite. I’ve started bruising again, too.

But I actually had more symptoms with the hydroxyurea than I did with the peginterferon.

So at this point I don’t have any bone marrow scarring. I just have a lot of fibrosis.

Looking forward

New treatment plans haven’t been discussed with me at all because I’m pre fibrotic with the primary myelofibrosis. 

So they for now they haven’t discussed anything with me. And I am open to other treatments if need be. 

A stem cell transplant has been brought up. But I’m sort of on the fence about it, because I’ve heard such horrific stories of people that have gone through it.

I don’t know if I want to put myself through that.

… over time, this cancer, it’s really taught me how resilient I am. And how much I’ve just trusted that whatever’s meant for me is meant for me. 

Even if the cancer does get worse over time, it really has taught me to live in the moment and live in stillness and just be grateful for even the smallest things. 

Takeaways and lessons

In the beginning my mental health was really, really bad. I was thinking the worst of everything. 

But then over time, this myelofibrosis, it’s really taught me how resilient I am. And how much I’ve just trusted that whatever’s meant for me is meant for me. 

Even if the cancer does get worse over time, it really has taught me to live in the moment and live in stillness and just be grateful for even the smallest things. 

Yeah, it’s been a huge challenge, but it’s been one of the best things to happen to me as regards my mindset. 

I feel like I can overcome anything as long as I just remain positive.

I guess I also really started to find myself. After I got diagnosed with myelofibrosis, I had an answer as to why my daughter passed away. And then I knew that it wasn’t my fault, because for a long time I blamed myself. And I felt that I could finally move forward. I had that closure.

Then that’s when the healing really started. So when, when they got the diagnosis, the healing really started. So I guess it was a little blessing in disguise, even though it was what caused it all.

Now, I’m pregnant with another little girl. I have obstetricians monitoring me every four weeks, and also multiple scans. 

I am 33 weeks at the moment, and they’ve planned all these scans to make sure that everything’s fine. I’ve got phone consults with my hematologist, monthly blood tests. 

And my midwife, she’s amazing. She was like, don’t worry. If you know you have an issue, just ring me and I’ll come down in the middle of the night. We can check. She’s very, very onto it. 

And she’s always happy to do extra tests and scans and things to make sure that everything’s good. So they’ve really looked after me now, this time round.

I’m due on the 2nd of July, but they’re going to get me an early C-section at 37 weeks due to the uterine rupture that I previously had.

In closing, I guess my message is, you know your body better than anybody else does. 

If you have an inkling of whether you’re pregnant or you may have cancer if you have an inkling that there’s something wrong—put yourself first and go and get it checked.


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Mark’s Chronic Myeloid Leukemia Story

Mark’s Chronic Myeloid Leukemia Story

Interviewed by: Taylor Scheib
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

Mark discovered that he had Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (CML) at the age of 47.

Mark and his family had just moved to a new city where he was going to start a new job. He had been experiencing weight loss and low energy, which had been easy to attribute to stress from the move. However, a visit to a new doctor for a routine checkup revealed that his spleen was quite enlarged and his white blood cell count alarmingly high. He had also been experiencing other symptoms such as heavy night sweats and a frequent need to urinate after bedtime.

Tests conducted by an oncologist confirmed that Mark had CML. Mark quickly began a range of treatments aimed at treating his spleen through lowering his white blood counts, as well as addressing his leukemia through tyrosine kinase inhibitors or TKIs, including Sprycel. His doctors also helped him become more familiar and comfortable with living with CML.

Mark’s story underscores the importance of listening to one’s body and not shrugging off symptoms, and of finding a supportive community that includes doctors, family members, and colleagues.

In addition to Mark’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of stories about CML. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Mark K.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (CML)
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Weight loss
    • Low energy
    • Night sweats
    • Frequent need to urinate after bedtime
    • Enlarged spleen
    • Elevated white blood cell count
  • Treatment:
    • Tyrosine kinase inhibitors (TKIs) including Sprycel

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


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Brescia’s Hodgkin Lymphoma Story

Brescia’s Hodgkin Lymphoma Story

Interviewed by: Taylor Scheib
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

Brescia was only 20 when she was found to have early-stage Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.

When her cancer was caught, Brescia was returning to America from a study stint in Italy and was on the verge of returning to college. Her primary care physician discovered a suspicious swelling in the side of her neck during a routine physical examination, and she was scheduled for an ultrasound. A subsequent biopsy confirmed her cancer.

Brescia’s diagnosis was unsettling, to say the least, but she found refuge in the things that bring her joy and fulfillment, including being creative, making movies, and enjoying nature.

Brescia and her family sat down with her team of doctors at the Mayo Clinic in Arizona to discuss her treatment options. They considered a combination of chemotherapy and radiation, but decided to go for 6 rounds of ABVD chemotherapy and no radiation, given her youth and the fact that radiation can have long-term side effects. Brescia ended up taking the whole semester off to focus on her treatment.

Brescia has been cancer-free for 5 years now. She is now a photographer and videographer and runs her own boutique agency. Looking back at the time she was ill, she notes how she gained a new appreciation for school as well as the simple things in her life, appreciates the perspective she gained after her illness, and shares the lessons she learned from her experience.

In addition to Brescia’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of stories about Hodgkin Lymphoma. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


  • Name: Brescia D.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Hodgkin Lymphoma
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Swelling in the side of her neck
  • Treatment:
    • Chemotherapy: 6 rounds of ABVD

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


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Josh’s Stage 3A Testicular Cancer Story

Josh’s Stage 3A Testicular Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Taylor Scheib
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

When he was just 24, Josh was diagnosed with stage 3A testicular cancer.

Josh’s diagnosis came as a rude shock given his youth and excellent physical condition. He maintains a healthy lifestyle, has no vices, and loves to join triathlons. That said, he had been experiencing several symptoms for some months before his diagnosis, including pain in his torso and shortness of breath, which were easy to shrug off but in retrospect were suspicious.

Armed with a positive attitude, Josh decided to fight his cancer by undergoing chemotherapy. His doctors put him on 3 cycles of bleomycin, etoposide and cisplatin (BEP).

The succeeding months of Josh’s life were traumatic and difficult. Among other things, he experienced serious side effects, including a significant reaction to a medicine there was no substitute for. He also had to face the possibility of becoming infertile. However, his good attitude combined with successful treatments helped him get through those challenging days.

Josh now shares his story with us to grow awareness of testicular cancer and to fight the stigma attached to it; the importance of finding a community that can provide support, and of giving back to said community as well; and the significance of staying positive even when times get tough.

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  • Name: Josh T.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Testicular cancer
  • Staging:
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  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Pain in his chest, lower back, and abdomen
    • Shortness of breath, especially during exercise 
    • Mass found on one testicle
  • Treatment:
    • Chemotherapy: bleomycin, etoposide and cisplatin (BEP)

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


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Tiffany’s Stage 3A Ovarian Cancer Story

Tiffany’s Stage 3A Ovarian Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Taylor Scheib
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

33 year-old Tiffany is undergoing treatment for stage 3A ovarian cancer.

Tiffany was about to embark on a yearlong trip when she received life-altering news, a cancer diagnosis. Her diagnosis not only forced her to postpone her trip, but also convinced her to undergo IVF egg retrieval in order to preserve her ability to have children later on.

Tiffany is in the midst of her ovarian cancer treatment and, as of her interview, was steeling herself to undergo major surgery. But she has many reasons to be positive about her future. She shares her story with us to help others in the same situation.

In addition to Tiffany’s narrative, The Patient Story offers a diverse collection of stories about ovarian cancer. These empowering stories provide real-life experiences, valuable insights, and perspectives on symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment options for cancer.


 
  • Name: Tiffany L.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Ovarian cancer
  • Staging:
    • Stage 3A
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • Severe bleeding after insertion of IUD
    • Discomfort and pain after working out
  • Treatment:
    • Chemotherapy: Carboplatin and Taxol
    • Surgery: Total hysterectomy

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


My biggest advice is to be really honest with yourself first.

Like, really checking in, are you feeling something or not?

Introduction

My name is Tiffany. I’m based in Austin, Texas. I’m 33 years old. 

I love pole dancing, contortion, and I’m learning how to draw for fun, as well as watercolor in my free time.

I’ve been diagnosed with ovarian cancer, stage 3A.

Discovery and diagnosis

I was supposed to go travel abroad for a year in 2024, and was supposed to leave the first weekend of January. Didn’t want to carry a year’s supply of birth control with me, so I decided to get an IUD. 

I had an annual exam at the gynecologist, just standard stuff, and then that was when I mentioned an IUD, and so we got that inserted. We did the normal stuff that you would do during the annual exam. The gynecologist didn’t find anything weird then. 

At first, the IUD was fine, it wasn’t too painful or anything. About a week after it was inserted, I started bleeding like crazy.

I had my strings checked a month later, and that was okay, too, but I was bleeding a lot. It was like I was soaking through a heavy pad every hour or so. And so I just left it because it went away eventually. 

But a couple weeks after the string check, I started bleeding a lot again, and I didn’t really stop bleeding until they took it out. I was having heavy bleeding, and then it would it would kind of slow down a bit.

It just went on for weeks. So that’s why I called them to double check to make sure it was okay. 

I called them probably mid December or so. Because usually what happens is like, you call them and they just tell you, oh, it’s normal. It’s an adjustment period for the IUD, you’ll be okay. But I’m leaving in a few weeks. I need you to make sure this is okay before I go abroad.

So finally, they got back to me and they’re like, okay, we’re gonna do an ultrasound to check. I remember going in, I was like, I’m pretty sure this IUD is misplaced. I remember the sonographer going through everything. And then I looked at the screen and I saw this huge hole. 

I can’t read the graphics, but I saw her face and I was like, what is going on? I’m pretty sure there’s something more than just this IUD problem. But she’s not able to tell me what’s happening because I don’t think she’s allowed to by law. 

I almost was able to talk to the doctor right away, but then I actually had a work meeting, so I had to schedule it for I think the next day or something. I was just really anxious for  24 hours or so. And then the next day I went in and the doctor was like, hey, look, we found a gigantic cyst.

We don’t know what it is, the doctor said. I’m going to need to refer you to a gyno oncologist. Like I’m supposed to leave next week. Can I get an appointment right away? And she’s like, yeah, I’m gonna try to see if we can bump you up. And then she ran this blood test for the tumor marker, CA 125, that same day. So the new doctor can get all the results and stuff. 

So I had an appointment I think the next week, right before I was supposed to leave. I was like, well, there’s a huge thing in me, regardless of it being cancer or not, I need to take this out. So I probably do have to postpone my trip. There’s no way, you know, this person can just take it out in a week. So, yeah, I postponed my trip.

In my head I was like, okay, maybe it’s just postponed for a few weeks or a month. Maybe I can head out in February or something, which is not a big deal. But by that time, I had already quit my job because that was the plan. 

My last day of work was right before I was supposed to leave. It it just put me in a weird position because, I was like, well, I might leave soon anyway, so I guess it’s just like a month, I don’t need to get my job back. So I didn’t really bother with it. But also, it was just like a strange, in-between time where everything was up in the air. 

So I went to the new doctor, the gyno oncologist. And she basically was like, I need to see an MRI. So I had to get that done the next week.

And then after that, the follow up appointment, she didn’t really say it was cancer or anything, actually, even though my blood work was over the chart, my CA 125 was like 4000 and the standard was like 35. So it was crazy high. But, different things can affect your CA 125, such as endometriosis, which I wasn’t diagnosed with. All I knew was that I had PCOS. [Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a hormonal disorder in reproductive-age women, causing infrequent or prolonged periods and elevated androgen levels.]

So when I talked to her after the MRI, she wasn’t definitive that it was cancer, but she wasn’t saying that it wasn’t either, because they don’t really tell you until they really go in there anyways. So she basically she knew that she had to take out the ovary that was attached to the tumor. But she asked me, if it’s cancer, what are your thoughts about having kids? Um, because if it’s cancer, usually they take everything out.

It took me a few days to get back to her because it was just so shocking to think about. We ended up deciding that we would keep the other ovary in there, even if it’s cancer, because we wanted to preserve my fertility and see if we could go through the IVF route.

Going into surgery, the doctor thought it’s probably borderline because it’s rare that someone in their 30s would have ovarian cancer. But, I mean, it could happen. She said that if it is borderline, then I probably wouldn’t need chemo. It ended up not being borderline. 

What happened during surgery is that she took the tumor out with the ovary, and she said the tumor was hard to take out. It wasn’t like a solid tumor, where, she could just pick it up with the robot and take it away. It was mushy and weird, gross-sounding.

The surgery took five hours, I believe, which was way longer than I expected because, besides taking it out, she also had to wait for a biopsy to see if it’s cancer and then after it’s cancerous, she does surgical staging. So she would swipe samples of different areas of my pelvis. I think it was bladder, bowels, uterus. 

She took the omentum out for biopsy to see if there’s any cancer cells there. So that’s also probably why it took five hours. I took up pretty much the rest of her afternoon, so I didn’t really see her until the next day. And that’s when she told me that, hey, it is cancer. 

But we didn’t know the staging; we just know that it’s probably more than likely, more than stage two, based on what I saw in there, but not definitive. Two weeks later, during my post-op appointment, I got the report. 

So the original report says there were cancer cells in the omentum. So that would put me in stage 3A. But there was another part of the report where they weren’t exactly sure where the origin site is for the cancer.

So they were suspecting that it’s either primary ovarian or possibly could be from the uterus or it’s synchronized cancer, because the type that I have was called an endometrioid ovarian cancer. That might come from endometriosis. So they are thinking that it could be synchronized, but for now they are treating it as a primary ovarian cancer. 

So it’s like still not definitive in a way. A little strange because I think the staging changes depending on the primary side. 

So if it’s ovarian primary, it’s like stage three, if it’s uterine primary and it’s in the omentum, that could put me in stage four. But then if it’s synchronized then it could be stage one for both. So it’s very confusing. The staging kind of tells you the prognosis, but then all the information data that they have are for like older women. So then it’s not like that information is for my population. 

At this rate, like honestly, I don’t look at my prognosis because none of the data is very specific to my population.

So I went ahead and got a second opinion too, just because why not? Insurance covers it. And I got a second biopsy at MD Anderson. And the report came back the same. 

So that’s a good thing, that it’s the same, I guess. Ultimately they’re not really going to be able to really find out exactly what it is until they take everything out. 

Treatment plan

After the doctor told me about my ovarian cancer diagnosis, she gave me a treatment plan. 

So I was going to be having three rounds of chemo, surgery to take everything out, and then three rounds again. 

So the midway point for the surgery, they just wanted to get the chemo in me first, but because I already would have had three rounds of chemo by then, they might not be able to really biopsy enough. There might not be enough cancer cells there for them to find out what is really going on. 

IVF

About a week after the report and discussing it with her, I started my IVF cycle, so I started freezing my embryos. 

That wasn’t fun. It was a lot of injections, doctor’s appointments., and going back and forth, trying to get a discount.

My insurance didn’t cover the IVF cycle, so I had to look into different organizations that would provide discounts on the clinic. And there are discounts for cancer patients, I think in most clinics, at least mine did. And I was able to get help from Livestrong and the Heart Beat program with Walgreens

The Heart Beat program basically gave me all the medication for free, which was really helpful because the medication itself, it’s like $10,000. And then the Livestrong also helped with the medication as well. It was like a 20% discount on certain things through the clinic. 

I think we were fortunate in a sense, because I know a lot of women, they have to go through multiple cycles to freeze 1 or 2 embryos. We were lucky in a sense that we only had 1 shot, just 1 cycle before chemo started. We were able to freeze 8 embryos, which was amazing. 

The clinic helped. They were the ones who told me about Livestrong. And they were the ones who applied on my behalf for the Walgreens Heart Beat program. 

I think the complicated part, at least with my clinic, it was more like I wasn’t really sure who should be doing what part of the application process. It might have just been a clinic issue, but they weren’t very clear on who is starting? Am I the one applying directly or are they doing it on my behalf? So I had to do a little bit of work in that regards. But ultimately they were the ones who found the programs. 

My doctor was the one who referred me to this clinic, so it seemed like she already had a relationship with the reproductive endocrinologist. So before I even went on my consultation, she already knew what was going on.

In terms of figuring out financially, I think we were fortunate in a way, because we had saved up for a trip and so we already had that nest there. If it wasn’t going to cost like that, we would have just done it anyways. 

My husband and I, this has been a lot of discussion between like having kids or not. He’s the one that really wanted the kids. I was more like, could be maybe. Maybe not. It was just like, okay, might as well do this because if we don’t do it, we might regret it later.

This is a little bit morbid. If I, you know, pass away in 2 years, I felt at least I left something for my husband—a part of me there for him.

So, the IVF process. The first appointment was just discussing the different options. So I had the option of just freezing the eggs or embryos. But you still have to go through the IVF process. It essentially means they’re just taking the eggs out, the embryo part comes later. 

During the process, they would monitor your follicles to see how they’re growing. Usually they want you to start, I think, like day 1 or 2 of your period. Um, I didn’t. I was on a timeline, so it didn’t pertain to me But I also luckily had my period the first day I saw her. So it kind of worked out in that sense.

So the first appointment, the doctor would check to see how many eggs are already there. In a way it was fortunate I had PCOS, so I had extra eggs. Apparently, if you have PCOS, it’s better for the process because you have more eggs. 

Once she thinks you’re ready, you will start doing your injections. I did two medications, on my abdomen. The first injection was just so scary because you guess your spouse or someone could help you, but I just did it on my own. The medication helps grow the follicles. 

I only had one ovary to do this, for others they might have two. But for my one ovary, she saw like 18 or something on there already. So they’re trying to grow everything at the same time essentially with the medication, but they don’t want you to grow it so fast, your ovary will get too big and then you will get hyper stimulating ovaries, which will cause a lot of pain.

They want to monitor you, every other day or so with blood work to check your estrogen level and also ultrasound. So I had to go to the clinic every other day. They gave me a different medication to start, to kind of balance it out so it doesn’t overgrow.

And then after about ten days, they decided that it was time for the trigger shot. They’re checking the size of each follicle. They want them all to be as big as possible. I think I had three that were like 20mm or something, I can’t remember. And that was when they decided it was time. 

So then I did the trigger shot, and then the day after, they did the egg retrieval. During egg retrieval, they put me under, and then the process took like ten minutes. 

And then they woke me up and they were like, we took out 22 eggs or something.

Treatment

Chemotherapy: Carboplatin and Taxol

Right after, a week after IVF, I started chemotherapy to deal with my ovarian cancer.

I got a week break between IVF and the chemo cycle. And I went back to Jersey for a wedding.

Okay, so the chemo regimen I’m on, it’s carboplatin and taxol. My chemo regimen is every 3 weeks. I would say it’s only bad the first week, and then it’s pretty much back to normal the next two weeks. 

I did so much research before, I feel like I already knew everything before I started. And also, before chemo, they did like a chemo teach where I met with one of the physician’s assistants and they gave me a binder of information. So I already had an idea of what to expect.

Side effects

In terms of side effects, I think the major one is the hair loss. That pretty much happened after cycle 1 and throughout cycle 2 as well. But I think after cycle 1, I was just so anxious, I was like, I’m going to shave it off anyways. Just get it over with. 

When I was reading online, I wanted to know when my hair loss would start. And most people said it would start about the second week. So I thought, I wish I knew that because I remember after the first, for like a week, I was just obsessive about my hair. 

I would wake up and be like, are you going? Are you leaving me yet? And then when it was still here, I was like, oh my gosh, maybe I’m one of those lucky people. I wish I would have known that it really would start like after the second week.

I was never too attached to my hair. Or at least I thought so. Some women love their hair and they want it to look a certain way. I guess if I cut it and it’s ugly, I didn’t care too much, would be upset for a minute, and then I’d be like, okay, it’s gonna grow back. You’ll be fine. 

When my hair started falling off, when I started seeing strands of hair on my pillow, It was just horrific to see that much hair coming out. I did get a little bit emotional. I think because I didn’t have that much time to process everything. Just seeing the hair kind of hit me in the face a little bit.

And then I felt really concerned about how I looked like without hair. I wasn’t sure if I would still feel attractive or if my husband was still find me attractive. 

Ultimately, when I shaved my hair off, I was I was kind of surprised that, I thought, I still look good without the hair. I went on a lot of shopping sprees, just for new styles and wigs and makeup stuff. So I think that kind of helped. 

Right now, I have days where I’m like, I really miss my hair. Especially like when I go out and I see people with beautiful hair, I’m like, oh, I really miss having hair. 

But then most of the other days I’m just like, oh, how would this look on me now? I feel like I get to play a little bit with a different style. And then sometimes I’m also kind of like, I wonder what style is going to stick after this is over. Maybe I’ll adopt some of these new things.

So other side effects have mostly been swollen hands. I’m also having a slight neuropathy, only on my index finger. Very strange. And then a little bit of brain fog, but that tends to fade away after the first week.

Surgery: total hysterectomy

So my next milestone in my ovarian cancer journey, I guess, is my surgery. That’s coming up on May 20th. I get 4 weeks in between surgery and chemo, which means I get an extra week to play.

So the surgery I’m getting will be a total hysterectomy. They’re going to be taking out my remaining ovary, my uterus, the fallopian tube that attaches to the ovary, and my cervix as well. 

I am incredibly anxious about it, because once they take out that ovary, that puts me in surgical menopause. And for women that are in forced menopause, I’m high-risk later on for osteoporosis as well as heart disease. 

Not to mention, I’ve been reading a lot of other women’s experiences that are around my age, mostly breast cancer survivors. It sounds like there’s like a thing called vaginal atrophy that will happen or might happen as well. 

Also, all the other stuff that comes with menopause, like hot flashes. I’m very, very scared just about what might happen. 

Also they say that sometimes you don’t get those symptoms right away. So it’s not like I’m gonna wake up and it happens. It might take a few weeks before it happens.

They haven’t really talked to me about post-surgery. I just know I get a 4-week break and then I go back for chemo, but I do believe it’s the same chemo.

… don’t brush away that little voice that’s telling you something is probably wrong.

Shifts and learnings

Support

I felt like because of my ovarian cancer situation, everyone was extra nice to me. I would say I’m very fortunate, because everyone is being so supportive. 

My mom lives in Jersey and flies here every cycle to help me out, and my husband has been very supportive, too. My friends like giving me rides and everything, too.

I think it’s going pretty well for what it is.

Realizations

So when I look back, I do feel like I had the symptoms of ovarian cancer, I definitely ignored them. I do crazy workouts, so, yeah, I’m going to be like, there’s some tightness there or I just kind of brushed it off. but when I look back, I was kind of in pain. 

I was remembering how there were days after I trained and I would be like, wow. Training really hurt today. And I really don’t want to do this post because it’s putting a lot of pressure in my abdomen and it’s really pretty uncomfortable. But I just brushed it away. 

And so I think that if I did not get that IUD, I think it would have gotten me eventually, Because I’m young and healthy. I didn’t think of it as anything. I mean, I didn’t really bring it to the doctor or anything, but even, like, with the whole IUD thing, I felt like I had to really push for them to, take a look at it. And so, it is very important, don’t brush away that little voice that’s telling you something is probably wrong.

I think it’s mostly realizing, this sucks, but I still get to do so much cool stuff later on. Hopefully. 

It sucks that I didn’t get to travel, but after this, maybe I can I can travel again, but it’s gonna look a little bit different than I planned because I’m not going to be able to just leave for a year now because of all the monitoring that they do. Kind of realizing that I’m still going to be able to see everything. 

But I honestly think what has really gotten me through this is just me on the pole. Because I’m still able to pole dance, and contort, which I don’t understand how sometimes. So that has been pretty incredible, very helpful as well. Like for my mental health, too.

But I think what shifted in the way I’m thinking about it is to just appreciate what I can do, versus going after certain things and being frustrated with it. So I kind of see it in like a new perspective. Oh, I just took a class, and then I never looked back. Yeah. 

Pole dancing is like a challenge. I love it because as long as you put the work or the training, the time into it, you will see results. And it’s like a way to express yourself in whatever way you want it to be.

So it doesn’t have to be sexy. It could be like emotional. It could be very athletic or just like, whatever you want. And I really love it for the art form and also for the physical challenge. And also the pole community is incredible. I made so many friends off of it, and it’s just a great place.

Advice

My biggest advice from everything that I’ve learned in my ovarian cancer journey is to be really honest with yourself first. Like, really checking in, are you feeling something or not? Even if the doctor thinks you’re being a little too much, just push them to do something because you never know.

And then really do your research before going to the doctor, because, hopefully you have a good doctor, but, if you don’t, you have the knowledge to back up what you are suspecting. And then be very assertive as to what you’re asking them for. 

I would say something like, hey, I have a concern with this. Can we do a scan or something, instead of having them lead the way? You kind of want to almost lead the conversation instead. 

And then also be honest with them as to what you’re feeling, too, because I think sometimes people brush away symptoms because they’re scared of what it could be. It’s better to know what it is and deal with it earlier versus later.


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FOLFOX (folinic acid, fluorouracil, oxaliplatin) Gemzar (gemcitabine) Pancreatic Cancer Patient Stories

Roger’s Stage 2 Pancreatic Cancer Story

Roger’s Stage 2 Pancreatic Cancer Story

Interviewed by: Alexis Moberger
Edited by: Chris Sanchez

Roger, a lawyer into startups and the venture capital scene and a sports enthusiast, hails from Silicon Valley in Palo Alto, California. He discovered that he had pancreatic cancer in 2022.

Roger enjoys a very active lifestyle and strives to live a healthy life, but suddenly suspected he had cancer after his blood sugar increased and he started to lose weight. A liquid biopsy–a Galleri blood test by the healthcare firm GRAIL–revealed strong signals for certain types of cancer, including pancreatic cancer. An MRI from the company Prenuvo found a mass on his pancreas, and a CT scan and tissue biopsy confirmed that he had stage 2 pancreatic cancer. 

Pancreatic cancer is often seen as incurable and fatal, but Roger refused to accept this. His take-charge attitude to his health led him to conduct extensive research into his illness. Being based in Silicon Valley also gave him access to excellent medical care, but his openness to cutting-edge medical treatments–as well as the urgency of his case–brought him further afield, including to Japan, where he got the first dose of an advanced cancer vaccine. 

Roger also made certain significant changes to his lifestyle, with an eye towards not only staying healthy, but also making his body as inhospitable to cancer cells as possible.

Roger is no longer on chemotherapy and undergoes follow-up protocols every 6 months. He shares his story to encourage cancer patients to be more assertive regarding their illnesses and overall health, to do their own research and seek out the best treatments available, to refuse to settle for “standard of care” treatment, and, lastly, to never give up hope.


 
  • Name: Roger R.
  • Diagnosis:
    • Pancreatic cancer
  • Staging:
    • Stage 2
  • Initial Symptoms:
    • None
  • Treatment:
    • 5FU (folfirinox)
    • Gemzar (gemcitabine)
    • NK cell expansion therapy
    • Dendritic cell expansion therapy
    • Neoantigen peptide vaccine

This interview has been edited for clarity. This is not medical advice. Please consult with your healthcare provider for treatment decisions.


Your health care, your health is just too important to trust to a doctor, as odd as that sounds… It is my personal experience that you have to take charge yourself.

You have to tell your doctor what tests you want run. You have to tell your doctor what you’re concerned about. You know your body better than anybody does.

And if you think just even subconsciously, that there’s something going on that shouldn’t be, you need to tell them.

Introduction

I’m a lawyer and I do startups and venture capital in Silicon Valley, California, in the Palo Alto area. 

In terms of hobbies, I work out a lot. I swim, bike, run, hike, do resistance training, winter mountaineering and ice climbing, rock climbing in the spring and summer–pretty much every sport and every activity you might imagine. I stay very active. 

Pre-Diagnosis

Signs and not Symptoms

At the time, before I was diagnosed, I didn’t think anything was wrong. But looking back on it, let’s say I had no symptoms, but I did have signs. There were clues. And the one big one that I and my doctors completely missed was that my blood sugar increased just slightly. You see, my blood sugar has always been exactly where I want it to be. 

And so I went in and I got blood tests. The doctor said, well, that just happens. You know, fasting glucose is kind of all over the place. Your a-1c is fine. It probably doesn’t mean anything. And I said, well, it must mean something. It’s higher than it was before. She said, well, we’ll come back in three months and test it again. 

So I came back in three months and it had gone up even more. Not only that, I’d also lost 5 pounds in the meantime. And I Googled it, of course. And that was my first clue, because there’s like a million things that could cause that to happen, one of which is pancreatic cancer. 

I know now that that always happens with pancreatic cancer, weight loss and blood sugar increase. I didn’t know it then.

Diagnosis

Galleri Blood Test by GRAIL

I went and got a battery of other tests, one of which was a liquid biopsy that first disclosed my cancer. So I used a blood test by Galleri by GRAIL. We call it liquid biopsy. This is a blood test that can detect 50 different cancers. They take blood, not tissue, and they can examine it and look for protein markers using strong AI to assist it, that will identify markers of different types of cancers and the tissue of origin. 

Here’s the story of how I ended up getting a Galleri test. 

Because I’m in Silicon Valley, I’m at the cutting edge of every new technology that comes out. And I’d heard about these tests being developed, and I’d been asking for them year after year. But the response was always the same: no such thing, it doesn’t work, it’s not available yet, you can’t have it, the FDA hasn’t approved it. Well, I was sitting in an airplane in April of 2022, reading a Tony Robbins book, and it mentions the Galleri test. And as soon as I landed, I started investigating.

Now, it took me a couple of months to actually get that test because a doctor has to prescribe it. That is just the rule in the U.S. I pushed ahead and found a telemedicine doctor that would prescribe a test.

I found an institution that advertised that they were all about preventative care. They’re all over the TV, a lot of advertising promoting that. What I liked about them is at least they didn’t say no, but I still had to tell them what I wanted. So like I told them long before this happened, I gave them a list of blood tests that I wanted, including the Galleri test.

It took about a couple of weeks before I got the results from the test. The doctor called me up and said, look, we found some signals for pancreatic or gallbladder or stomach or esophagus. And you should do further testing. It doesn’t mean you’ve got cancer. It just means we found strong signals, especially for pancreatic cancer. 

And based on that, I went in for an MRI the very next day.

Prenuvo MRI

Well, again, you can go into your hospital and you can wait around until they come back from vacation and get around to scheduling you. Hopefully they’ve got the personnel to do it, and so on. 

I didn’t do that. I went the very next day and got a private scan from a company named Prenuvo, which is right down the street from my house.

The results from the MRI took about a week to come back. It found a mass on my pancreas–a pretty imposing, concerning-looking mass. It was not well defined; it was large. In fact, they didn’t even think it was resectable. 

So the Galleri test was alarming because they found the signal, the Prenuvo test was more alarming because it confirmed there was something going on in my pancreas that did not look good.

CT scan and tissue biopsy

Based on the MRI’s findings, I went to a CT scan and a tissue biopsy where they actually examine tissue. I had to get into the system because then I needed more sophisticated things. CT with contrast, biopsies, endoscopes, stuff like that. 

And the CT scan and biopsy confirmed a diagnosis of stage two pancreatic cancer.

Primary care doctors’ attitudes

Now, prior to this point, what I heard from my primary care doctors was mostly: quit bugging me about this. It’s not serious. You’re not diabetic. You’re not pre-diabetic. You have no symptoms. And I’ll never forget these words. That is unnecessary testing. Boy, it was not unnecessary at all.

I guess I’ll admit, maybe I’m a little of a hypochondriac, but I want to check out every little thing. It’s just my personality. 

This is the one big message I would like people to have. 

Your health care, your health is just too important to trust to a doctor, as odd as that sounds. And as much as it pains me to say that, it is my personal experience that health is too important to trust to a doctor, you have to take charge yourself. You have to tell your doctor what tests you want run, and what you’re concerned about. You know your body better than anybody does. And if you think just even subconsciously, that there’s something going on that shouldn’t be, you need to tell them.

Reaction to the Diagnosis

I went through all of the stages of grief in about 12 hours, I think. Bargaining, anger, whatever they are. Sadness, acceptance. 

The conventional wisdom about pancreatic cancer, what American Cancer Society says, is that it’s incurable and fatal. Stage two has a life expectancy of about 1 to 3 years on average.

Like a lot of cancer patients, I was angry at my doctors. It’s like, how could you let this happen to me? Until I finally came to the realization that, hey, it’s not their job to keep me healthy. That’s my job. This is my failure, not theirs. 

Their job is to fix me when I’m sick, and that’s why I kept hearing from them. Come back when you’ve got symptoms. So, big lesson, find a doctor that’s willing to work with you and prescribe what you need to take care of your concerns. But then go out and self-educate and make sure you’re covering all the stuff that is silent or symptom free. 

Another thing is that, yes, the statistics regarding pancreatic cancer are really bad–and even many prominent doctors will say things like, pancreatic cancer is a death sentence at any stage–but what I came to discover is that all of those doctors are looking at backward-looking data. Plus, that data is kind of old because you’ve got to wait a certain number of years to get it. 

The statistics are based on the United States standard of care, on what we’ve done in the past under it. They are not based on what’s going on, going forward, and what’s out there in the future and what’s beyond standard of care.

And, also, statistics are very misleading because you have to make generalizations. 

I talked to a lot of cancer patients and survivors, and one of the pancreatic cancer survivors I talked to–one of the few who’s survived for 12 years since his diagnosis–said, really, you have to think of yourself as a statistic of one, because every person is unique, every cancer is unique. It’s so hard to generalize and place your faith in those generalizations.

Big lesson, find a doctor that’s willing to work with you and prescribe what you need to take care of your concerns.

But then go out and self educate and make sure you’re covering all the stuff that is silent or symptom free.

Treatments

Since I live in Silicon Valley, I’m lucky to have access to two of the best institutions–Stanford Health and UCSF in San Francisco. They both have very well respected oncology departments and some of the best cancer doctors in the country. 

I think I had top quality care from my doctors, and I am very grateful. But it wasn’t easy because I think our US medical system is just generally overwhelmed. And it’s just hard to get attention to get in. But again, this is where the patient has to be CEO and has to take charge. You have to be very, very assertive about these things. And I was very, very assertive. 

Once, I did get in front of an oncologist and they saw the numbers, scans and blood test results, then everything changed. And all of a sudden my case was urgent. Because pancreatic cancer is very aggressive, very fast-moving, you can’t wait 2 or 3 months to go get a scan. 

So they moved me along really quickly and put me into treatment quickly.

Chemotherapy: 5FU (folfirinox) and Gemzar (gemcitabine)

I talked to lots of doctors when it came to my chemotherapy. You know, a second opinion isn’t good enough for me. I think I spoke with a dozen oncologists before I decided on anything, because there are a lot of different options and it’s all up to the patient. You, the patient, have to decide which chemo you are going to get. 

So ultimately at one point I just asked my oncologist. I said, wait a minute, are you telling me that this is up to me? And he says, yeah, I’m afraid so. You tell us. You have to decide. These are your options. This is what I recommend, but these are your options.

So we first went with 5FU (folfirinox). I will say that there’s a pathologist who looked at my tissue who says we guessed wrong. According to the pathology report, there was no treatment effect, so we switched chemo to Gemzar (gemcitabine). Three months of chemo, surgery, and three more months of chemo. And I ended that in February of 2023.

Side effects of chemotherapy

I had every side effect that you could possibly have from the chemo, plus some the doctors had never seen before. 

The first thing my oncologist told me when I met him is, I want to apologize in advance for what I’m about to do to you. We’re going to be very aggressive about the chemo because you look like you’re strong enough to take it. And the thing about chemo, like most medicine in the US, you give the minimum effective dose, right? With chemotherapy it’s the maximum tolerable dose. Well, it turns out I can tolerate a lot.

So I had six months of just pure hell. I mean, it was pretty miserable. It looked like I had aged 20 years. It was super unpleasant. 

Even though I’m cancer-free now, some of these effects are still with me. I still have some neuropathy, for example, and chemo did things to my arteries that I did not think would happen. 

To combat the side effects of chemo, I was given a whole bunch of drugs and painkillers and anti-nausea and anti this and inhibitor that. I didn’t take any of them. 

It’s like, you know what? The chemo is enough. it’s hard enough on my liver. I like my liver and my kidneys. So I didn’t take any of those drugs. 

I said I would rather just lie here on my bathroom floor for a week and suffer than take any more drugs. And that’s what I did. 

And I don’t recommend that approach to anybody else other than a masochist like me.

Advanced treatments (neoantigen peptide vaccine, NK cell expansion therapy, dendritic cell expansion therapy)

One of the treatments I’ve taken that is very cutting-edge and forward-looking is a cancer vaccine–a neoantigen peptide vaccine. The vaccine is not like a drug or a checkpoint inhibitor. You’re using your own cells. 

I also received NK cell expansion therapy and dendritic cell expansion therapy, as well as some other things. Next month, I’m going in for a second round of a different set of targets, same concept, neoantigen peptides.

It took me a little while to find people that do this legitimately. But I did find these groups–and last year, I got my vaccine.

From the day I was diagnosed, I read NIH papers, PubMed papers, every single day. And I’ve gone down so many rabbit holes, you can’t imagine.

I read about a woman who lives in my neighborhood in Northern California who had stage four pancreatic cancer, and she got this vaccine–and afterwards, she went into a complete and total response, total remission. And I said, okay, I think there’s something there. I found it just through research.

I went to Japan to have mine, the first round anyway, because they are not subject to FDA rules, so they can move more quickly. And with pancreatic cancer, it’s important to move quickly. I didn’t want to wait around, so I went to Japan and got it done quickly.

Importantly, the physician I chose there also has his own lab, and that’s really important. So the administering physician also could get it from his own lab and I didn’t have to worry about any disconnect between those two components.

Now, I’m getting this vaccine in the United States under an expanded access application to the FDA. They also call that compassionate use, and that is an approach. But it’s another big red tape bureaucratic process that we should not make people go through. Furthermore, over here, it’s out of pocket and is very expensive, and I acknowledge that it may be simply beyond the reach of a lot of cancer patients. It costs so much because it’s not FDA approved. I’ve written and testified to the FDA about it. I’ve been beating a drum that we really need.

Now, I will tell people who are considering this vaccine that in Japan, it costs about one fifth of what it costs here. So take that for what it’s worth.

Lifestyle changes

As I sit here today, I am cancer free, at least for now. And you might ask, why is that? Well, I can’t tell you. It might have been the chemo, having had surgery at the exact right time, or metabolic factors. It was no doubt partly lifestyle changes.

I had to say to myself, what could I improve in my life that would make my body as inhospitable as possible to a cancer cell? And I made major, major changes. 

Firstly, my diet is much different now than it used to be. It is as anti cancer diet as they come. 

I was a vegan for five years before my diagnosis, which I thought was the healthiest diet you could possibly have. What I have since discovered is that it is not.

To get enough calories, given my exercise schedule, I just had to eat too much processed carbs and sugar. In retrospect, I see that I had the exact diet you would have if you were trying to get sick. I was just flooding my body with too little protein, too little fat and too little plant based whole foods and too much processed carbs.

Now that I wear a blood glucose monitor, I can see what they do to your body. And so I had to change. I’m not keto, but I am low carb. 

So I keep my protein high so I can keep my muscle lean muscle mass high. And then fats. I’ve kind of shifted from saturated fats to healthier fats, the monounsaturated, polyunsaturated fats. No sugar, no alcohol, no processed carbs, very little red meat. Very little processed meat. 

I eat so many vegetables, a lot of fiber, a lot of things good for the microbiome, sprouts for sulforaphane, stuff like that. Citrus, lemons, though not oranges. They’re a little too sugary for me. 

I exercise a lot because that is probably the number one thing. Heavy exercise, studies show, reduces the risk of cancer recurrence by 50%. 

And then there’s supplements. There’s cortisol. There’s sauna heat therapy. I learned in Japan that it creates heat shock proteins that a normal cell can manage just fine. But a heat shock protein to a cancer cell completely messes it up and maybe makes it visible to your immune system, or maybe just kills it through mechanical stress. 

I’ve really gotten into cold therapy, cold water, ice baths.In the wintertime, I’ll go run in the snow with just my running shorts on as long as I can stand it. I think the cold therapy has made my immune system a lot stronger than it was. And it also increased the brown fat in my body. And I’ve got the DEXA scans to back that up, and that has reduced my blood glucose, which means that it’s less likely that these sugar hungry cancer cells are going to get all the nutrition that they want.

… don’t lose hope. Because everything is moving so quickly.

Words of Advice

Firstly, being your own advocate is super important and you just have to be assertive about this. That’s hard for a lot of cancer patients. It’s hard to demand that your doctor do stuff when they’re the expert–what do you know? But you’ve just got to be your own advocate and you have to self educate. 

Number two is, if you do standard of care treatment, you’re going to get a standard of care result. And that’s all those bad statistics you’re looking at. Those are all standard of care statistics. You’ve got to be willing to go a little further than that. 

And then the third thing is don’t lose hope. Because everything is moving so quickly.

Finally, it’s become obvious to me that our solution to cancer is not going to come from our traditional sources: big pharma, big government, public companies that have shareholders to report to. It’s going to come from the people I work with, startups.

We need companies that are willing to swing for the fences and try something big and bold and novel.

I really believe that the big, disruptive, game-changing cancer cure is going to come from my people, the startup community.


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